Back and forth on health.

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Sometimes I am amazed that pain, stiffness, and nausea are all gone, and as quickly as improvement seems to come.  Then I hit a bad spell.  I have a greater range of movement before I hit pain.  And the pain center, while mainly constant, has also spread a bit.  The new area is the lowest of my back.  It's as if I fell on concrete, but a while ago.  Just an ache, from time to time.  And, following up through my back, as if I had slept wrong.  But that is just from time to time.  Nausea is easing up, in the worst moments, to just a mild... distaste.  Yeah, I'll be better quickly.  Doing what hurts, helps.  Arching the back, rotating the arms in their sockets, moving the shoulders from side to side, sometimes as groups of exercises, and sitting up straight most of the rest of the time, all help.  Though I think that spasm storm really set things right, somehow.

I've been napping in such a way as to move my nights and days around.  I woke at about 3:15~3:30 last night.  I am hoping to push on into the afternoon, maybe make it to town with my list, perhaps work on the bag and get that back into the rig.  I ought to empty out the Xterra while I am at it, so that I can take it in for a thorough detailing on the first, or thereabouts.  Then I can put the BMan, and maybe SMan stickers up.  I earned em'!  But, too, I really like having a clean vehicle.  I've been letting that slip lately.  If I can't keep my home up, at least my vehicle.

Yeah, it's odd what comes to my mind.  I know many think that I can't see, or that I am some sort of innocent.  Actually, I think some people are blind to themselves, they don't see what they are doing.  I do.  The motives and ideas people surrounding me have are as plain to see as this screen.  You have to let people figure things out though, on there own.  More so when the presentation is passive.  Few just come out and... say... what they think, their ill intent.  They simply align things.  I often wish I were simply a blind simpleton.   I do play the part quite well though.  And... I chuckle.  My dark side more than the other side.  Something about just how invisible that side really is, now.  Probably always was.  But, then, that is why I don't recommend folk abide me, but Him.  Some things never quite die.

Not immune to sin, mind you, but to Lilith...  That I am.  Not to Eve, mind you, but... that's a totally different ballgame... if Eve is subject to the temptations of Lilith, I have... ways of dealing with that, too.  Oh yes I do.  What worked then, for different reasons, works now.  As is often the case.  From a whip for the deserving to a cage for the tempted.

You'll never see my darkside, unless you deserve it.  Some simply won't see it, even then.  Some, even of the good.... still accept.  It's the... damnedest thing.  God has some mighty funny ways.


I ought to get on to... something or other.