Up at midnight?

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Yeah, I don't get it.  Oh, I tried to go back to sleep.  I'm sort of stuck with naps, of late.  Long naps, five to six hours, twice a day.  I am only staying awake, until yesterday, about 12 hours per shift.  Hmm... that is about exactly what we ran on submarines.  Only I don't have drills in two of my three sleep shifts.  Gah, but those were a bastard.  I do have the girls begging for food, always, though.  I am trying to feed them twice a day, and no more.  It is difficult to focus on that.  I would hook it to medicine, which I have been good at taking, but I take those... irregularly.  That wouldn't make them any happier.  They will survive.  They will just have to get used to being fed at odd times.

The hope, again, is to get out when the sun is up.  I may try to get a nap in at say 5:00 or 6:00.  I'd set an alarm for that but... an alarm will just mess that up.  I have to sort of mentally target that time.  If I can do it, I will set an alarm for noon, or early afternoon, and try to push my way into town.  If I can't nap, I may simply concentrate on getting a shower a few hours before wanting to head in.  It works, usually.

Dreams, dreams, and more dreams.  I haven't been able to keep them though.  The other night, something about squaring the universe... in a sort of literal way.  Don't ask, I just see.  I don't actually consciously design, nor always understand.  Just realize all matter is leaving where it was created at (at least) the speed of light.  Sure, they say nothing is faster than the speed of light, but they also have said many false things.  They say what they know and what they know is not much.  It is cut off by what they don't know.  Which... if you add hard sciences all together, is pretty much everything.  Because all of the sciences, the hard ones, put into one bag, comes out to zero or undefined...  Now... that is probably closer to the truth, but there... isn't a way to scientifically or mathematically cope with that.  Even infinite dimensions, that create through the variability of random phenomena, simply, writ in laymen's terms, means "God".  *grins*  See, now, that IS true, but it isn't scientific as in the way they have tried to define science.  Science, to many, if not most, professionally excludes God.  Which, in layman's terms, is false.  By their own numbers.  Still, you can't tell them much more than you can tell a woman.  But if she is a Godfearing woman, she doesn't need to understand and will abide...  Faith, what they lack, is what... well... they lack.  Never the mind.

Let me see, beside squaring the universe about it's center point... I think ending expansion and denying contraction, what else was there.  Ah, right... the number again.  A loss of one third of all men (men also indicates women and children, but they are lighter and fluffier).  Tearing down steel and brick with bare hands.  And burning the damned with the hellfire they think is theirs.  Hellfire is the Holy Spirit, not their tool, toy, or weapon.  It will confine them.  It isn't even a part of their suffering, save that it will define them as outside of God's graces.  I don't remember much else.  Tons of dreams though.  Not much detail remains, so I don't feel much, one way or the other. 

Hmm... On to a few other things.  Later.