I did it.

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To bed by 1:00 to 1:30.  It was sort of easy but messy.  My body does not want to go down, even when tired.  I was weary.  I was ready for bed.  But something just... like a child that you know needs sleep but just won't go down.  Still, it worked.  Rocked and rolled a bit, but hit my stride before too awful long.  I set the alarm for 9:00.  Had to fight to wake, and didn't actually claw my way out of the sack until 9:30-9:45, but I was trying to whole time.  Mostly.  Wrestling a bull by the horns.  That is what my body is.  I suppose I could get a cattle prod, but... Nah.

I'll be getting a shower, I think, within the hour.  Then figuring out what I need from town.  Cream, coffee, tobacco, irrigation parts, and I need to get my friend out shopping.  But before all of that, medicines.  I have been doing very well with that stuff lately.  I think part of my drop was from going to partial meds to avoid a cold turkey event, which was fine.  But going back to full dose was more of a challenge than I may have thought it would be.  Not quite raising a full dose, but... like with a deadlift, that last push in the heaviest bracket one works up to, after tiring out getting up to that push, is... a bit of a trick.  It'll take the last of what you have out of you.  And, so it did.  But I'm about ready to get back into the game.

I've been able to keep the cave cool, and remembering what to do, and when, and then doing it.  Just a little bit, at the right time, saves me a lot of pain when trying to cool off after I've cooked.  Once cooked, unbaking is a very difficult chore.  When I bake, that leads to insomnia and quickly.  It's a major stress.  When I am ready for it, and do it early in the day, it is great.  But when I am that way nearing bedtime it can get ugly.

On the good side, the little struggles haven't been terribly awful.  I have been enjoying the leisure time, other than the want to be doing more.  With tasks piled up, I do have to realize, and now do, that I can only do what I can do.  So I can back off, and if not in serious pain... even if so if it's an earned foul *grin*, I can still find a way to enjoy.  I'm almost among the living again.  Almost.  Loverly.  This has been a terribly great summer, even with the hiccups.  Most of the hiccups have been earned, the others, like the medicine, were understood and dealt with as aptly as my notions allow.  My perfectionism needs to be tweaked down just a bit though, but... that's... a normal preoccupation, one many of you understand, in your own areas.

Well... on to waking up!  Oh, and good morning.  Now... hop to it, hoppers!  *smile*