Last night got a little... tight.

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Too tired to sleep, I thought a short one would help.  I started with one, but it went fast and off the grid in a hurry.  Even on most nights, where I decide to have a sip, even when I head in fast, I can't remember ever going in that hard or fast, save for the one time I thought Everclear would be an easy, cheap, and tolerable method.  Just vodka, last night, and not, actually, that much of it.  It must have been the speed of consumption, or perhaps medicine or general health were affecting it.  I do remember, just not clearly or well.

I posted something, but have no idea what it was.  I... often don't read such posts, just pull them.  They aren't tied to reality, and can be a bit harsh.  I mix of the insane, fantasy, and reality, in portions that can only make sense while not in one's right way of thinking.  I just hope I didn't post comments anywhere.  Those can be just as bad, or worse. 

Yeah, I know.  And it is rare.  I do have a drink once in a while, sometimes two.  And, mostly, usually, that is enough.  Sometimes, though, it's as if my body finds some need with the stuff.  Sometimes I realize it, and go with it.  Last night... I simply did not see that coming.  I slept with a bucket by the bed, just in case.  Morning was rough, but I pushed myself to wake and deal with the morning.  Or... early afternoon.  As soon as I was aware, I was awake.  Rough, but I have recovered.  At least I don't drive when drinking.  I never got into fights when drinking, either.  I never even got into arguments with past girlfriends.  When I drink, it is relatively a friendly thing.  The only thing I would change is figuring out how to turn the internet off.  Gah!

I didn't get to town, but I did find a beef roast that will do every bit as well as brisket, and then some.  I do have soda, and coffee.  Beer just isn't sounding so good, and won't for a while.  They are bringing salads and any libations they might enjoy.  So... it's all good, if not what I had planned and hoped.  I still need rest, anyway, so I am not terribly upset with the weekend.  I'll be hitting it again when I can.  I might even make a trip to town Tuesday, to manage business and do the shopping.  I will replace the roast, and add a few extra as well.  And replace the pork roast I recently cooked.  I am truly enjoying that grill.  And the right foods, cooked once or twice a week, really hold me over.  If I could just keep up on even that.

A storm seems to be coming in.  It seems cooler.  I am enjoying that, if I hope tomorrow isn't rained out.  I doubt it, and besides, rain here, this time of year, is a short thing, and usually light.  Later.