Out and about.

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I wasn't sure I would get a shower.  I definitely did not think I would make it to town.  And, yet, I did both.  Nothing fancy.  A fast meal, then just a bit of shopping.  A few frozen pizzas, to compare.  Frozen veggies, as I think I am going that way.  Cat food, enough for a couple of months in case I remain in failure.  Milk and cream.  A few other odds and ends.  Plus, I checked the mail.  I have something in, but normally need to sign for it.  They know my condition and have... offered a solution.  I will be in when I can, soon, I hope.  One of the last pieces to an ongoing project.  Not all of my projects can be discussed.  Yes, yes, I... do things.

It was a rough day.  A few more body stretches.  Painful as those are, they seemed to help.  Lots of pain up front, but it eased everything somehow.  Don't think of what I do as a stretch, really.  Think of it as a complete body stretch, combined with a massive yawn, on top of the tightening of every muscle in my body which I can control, all at once.  I'll be doing a few more of these, as I get better.  It lifts me out of... or up from... some darkness.  Death itself, perhaps.  While death is only a window, a door, to those with the breath of life, it... is to be avoided.  The pain of it is the surrender.  Someday you will understand.  It simply isn't my time.  Still, the closer to that door, the more painful.  The more difficult to navigate.  I have things to do, so I cannot enjoy that proximity, not yet. It isn't all bad.  It is getting better.  A meal, and getting out, helped.

I was amazed at what I saw.  At the store, lights where dimmed.  There were few shoppers.  The aisles were stocked.  The few on hand to stock seemed to be doing very little.  When it comes, everything will be in presentation form.  Nothing will move, in or out.  Until after the end.  Of an age, and era, or all, is yet to be seen.  As I told a man this evening... if the oceans run bloody, if major modern nations collapse, if the world shakes, spews magma, destroys many, then you may wonder.  Even then...  No... If you see such, you will know.  Dress rehearsal or the end for the beginning of the end?  Not sure it matters on what scale, only to whom, and how.  Do not fear, this was foretold, by history, and God.  Hold hope, you will need it, along with faith and charity.  Still, sad to see, in some sense.  Right to see, in another.

Good night.