If you have an hour, do drop in.

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Living and dying.  And again.  Time and space and places and people.

From a time before I knew God, before He called.  Even with as much as I knew.  Some wisdom in there, but not enough.  Even now, only through His will, mind you.  But on with it.  Even now I can cause havoc of mind and soul... innit?  *wink*

Pretty gay, both in their own ways, but shut it.  I've told you various notions.  Look to the first if you must look somewhere.  If not even that is a truth in these times, or ever really.  Closer, at least.  If you leave the Coyote and Shiva out of it.  *grins*

At war with even my own, if I really don't have... kin.  Not easy to war with.  We are powerful, some of us more than others.  None are easy for man, save God's will.

Neither nor, both, and now more.  I remember the days you don't

Drinking a six pack with one hand gives me some call for some dues.  I take it.  Two down.  Hmm... might have some whiskey left... a small portion of that last fifth?  Yum!  @Vox.  *grins*  Meh, not really in the mood for heavy sipping.  Just wanted to test the stein, really.

More notions of my nature.

I wouldn't call him dad, exactly.  How about granddad.  Just know, my father and great grandfather... and the Son who called even me a brother, were of a better nature.  Still, I... sure let him shine through me, for a time.

Nephilim know more than even "talking monkeys" about war and treachery of the spirit.  Oh, yeah... trust me on this if nothing else.

Then, for whatever reason, and against my better judgment?  He called and I... in my round about way, came.  Why did He call?  Never mind.  Now I live for Him.

I saw, and still see.  And I will preach to my own, and any of you who might listen.  Do you really want immortality without God?  I don't.

I know the score.  If that isn't enough.  I believe, and have faith, hold it.  That is enough.

What I have prayed for?  Well, I think she knows.  Not sure if that is enough for her.  She doesn't remember one of her possible futures.  I do.  I wonder if she likes this form of it?

I'll never stop thinking of her, either way.  She haunted my last dreams.  Wasn't going to tell you, but a couple of fistfulls raised my courage.  Yeah...  Shut it.

Either way, for your and my good?  With or without her.

Good night.
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Had this on hold, until I could review it.  Don't like all of it, in some ways... a bit raw.  Still... it is what it is and I try to put it out as such.