Forever! Are we there yet?

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Remember being a kid?  I don't have to remember.  *grins*  Still... the idea is... while your parents where driving somewhere faroff(tm), and you would say it was taking for eve r, asking if you were there yet?  Remember?  Well, I am at it even though I am the driver.  At least I am old enough to spot enough to know that, while, no, I am not there, I am getting there.  What isn't clear is exactly which exact path is best, or fastest, or surest... or how much longer the trip will take.  Though, in all honesty, the trip is never over.  Once the destination is reached the trip does not end.  It is just that, perhaps, another path may be chosen.  I went so far off track with diet and such, if because I was legitimately suffering from what often ends life... and not being treated for that... that getting back to something is going to take a long time.  Yeah, even if I control diabetes, eliminate it... even if I lose every extra ounce of fat (if that isn't, actually, the goal at all), it will still take a long time to undo, or redo, some things.  And that won't necessarily fix the heart.

Okay, see what I mean?  Are we there yet?

Getting off my butt is the next trick.  That may be more difficult than fasting, or what I had thought of fasting before trying it.  I do know why fasting seemed so impossible, thinking back.  It's because trying to cut consumption IS, for me, nearly impossible.  I can't just have a little.  Beef, rice, candy, makes no difference.  Tease me with food and you'll see why I might be called Modi in some circles.  The transformation is ugly, but what the transformed critter can do is more so.  Anyway, getting off my butt, eh?  Just walking, to start things.  Weight lifting is great, but you have to be in some shape and form or you can get hurt.  I simply want a couple weeks, maybe a month, to make sure air flows well, blood circulates rightly, muscle bone and such all work at slower speeds and under lessor loads.  THEN I can begin.

Again, are we there yet.  No.  But I can almost imagine it from here.  Or, at least the beginning of the end of the beginning.  Convoluted but honest.

When I do get to exercises, there are only four, three up front, that I will be going with.  The four core, minus one, plus another that seems to be excellent for my wants and needs, and other plans.  I refuse to do squats.  Did I get stuck, did I get hurt doing them?  I don't know.  All I know is fuck you.  Not even negotiable.  I think most people who do them are just asking to blow something.  I'm talking career ending.  The others are great.  The one that would be new to me, really, is pull ups.  Well, new probably since being ill.  I just never went back to them.  I'm sure I used to do them.  It was one of the best show-off things you can do, for women.  Here is a link with more detail (did not look it over too closely to see if it's on target, other than listing the right cores plus the extra).  I will say this, about those.  Regardless of your fitness, starter or deeper in... if you want to truly get stronger, those are the exercises.  Once you master those, and attain your goals, if you have weaknesses those can then be targeted.  Do this first to find where your weaknesses are.  I'm not sure these will get you size, not all that quickly.  If strength is your goal, this is where to go.  Just don't go manorexic about it.

Yeah, it's actually been on my mind for a while.  I've been trying to figure out a way back to that.  Too many things have been in the way.  Now that I have been forced to do it myself, there might be a way to do it all... not just the medical, but the rest of it too, on into fitness.  Too old and still too ill for school, probably.  Not sure about that, anyway, for many reasons.