I love it when it works.

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Maybe a little early.  Yes, the timestamp is wrong by two hours or so, and I didn't blog first thing.  Coffee, though from now on just half a pot, then to tea.  Medicine and socks on.  Those are dastardly to don, if their purpose is vital.  They aren't ever comfortable if more comfortable than terribly swollen feet.  Medicine simply isn't enough.  I could go back up an half notch on those, which I would have to discuss with my doctor.  It is probably better to struggle a bit, on a lower dose.  That might just not fully be enough?

Life is, at some points, struggle.  Just to eat, literally, even if I have the food...  To be active... first I had to learn to wake more of the day, or even week or month at first... then how to not sit all of the time.  I have to force myself away from what others couldn't do.  It feels as if I am made of iron and concrete.  Each step, each effort, is more than it would seem.  And, yet, these last few years I have been doing better.  I fall, but then get back up and do even better than ever before.  My falls are better than the best of my life before though too.  This last week or few days?  No, I would say, mostly, the last few weeks, if rockily, has been... incredible.  I'm not ahead, just further ahead that I have been, and able to do more than ever.  I seem to have to pay for it, but the price is getting smaller and taking less time.  Batteries charge more fully and more quickly.

I will have dinner today, but then I do believe I will begin fasting again, beyond the daily.  I am thinking three day fasts, at this point, to get back in the game.  Blood sugars have been high.  I haven't been tracking those extremely closely, unfortunately.  I believe I have been using too much artificial sweetener.  My foods are good, right, meat and fat.  And with daily fasting, I shouldn't... have this problem.  I have been going overboard on cream tea/coffee and the da vinche stuff.  Well, I was trying to push through and... it happens.  Back to the grind.

When I am more fully awake, dishes, first thing.  Then sweeping and mopping, tearing down boxes, a load or two of laundry, some general kitchen duty, and more sit work in the living room, sorting and such, while on breaks.  I would like to make a call or two, set up a few boxes for returns, and make a shopping list.  I really need to make that shopping list as I have some very specific needs.  But every time I have begun the list my memory has betrayed me.  Gah!  I'll... give it a shot.  Though some things are very difficult to find, such as white pepper.  I'd also like to find a local source for washed rind, and other, cheeses.  Hmm... there is the phone, but who to call?

I am feeling a bit better.  Sleep was good, restful, if I need the ac and fan on full blast and mostly just the cover sheet.  Whatever works.  I'll... keep at it.  Good morning and day.