I simply must keep at it.

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I do realize I may seem foolish.  Losing track of a food item with so much at stake.  And, yet, that is simply how life works.  There really is a limit as to how much you can understand and put into action at once.  Being so ill does not help.  Going into winter, every year, becomes slightly more difficult.  And with a dozen things, at least, in the planning stages, beyond what is being undertaken, some with decaying time limits...  Well, some day, you will understand.  If nothing else, though I suggest more, at the end, everyone walks that path alone.  I have simply been walking it for much longer than nightmares would allow.  At least I understand, and have found a way to struggle against it.  In some ways, though, it simply doesn't matter.

I decided to eat something for breakfast.  Lamb chops, simply pan fried.  They came out perfect.  How rare a lamb which isn't bitter... if I think it is because the lamb truly is a yearling.  Beyond that and they should be required to call it mutton.  And price it accordingly.  Mutton is hard bitter, I suppose worse as it ages.  Some like it, most don't.  Most who have had "lamb", and didn't like it, had mutton... or I'd bet.  Though many have "issues" with eating such young animals.  Anyway... it was a very good meal.  Later I will have a steak.  The goal, even if I overdo protein in the short term, is to get back off carbs, hitting fats as possible, with the protein that takes, until fasting can begin again.

I have given up on Dark Shadows.  Beside the shows I have being so far apart, they actually included two-part shows without both parts.  Idiots.  I guess they can do that.  I just wanted to sample it, see if I liked it.  Not so much anyway.  I don't even think a fan would like this collection.  At least now I know.  Some forbidden fruit may remain as is.  I'll look for other entertainment.

Oh, a review of several sugar substitutes...  I think my favored type is liquid splenda, actually called zero.  And, by the way, all of these work with my body so as not to spike my blood sugar... your mileage may vary.  The only problem with zero is that it is rather pricey.  I would guess, at best, a bottle would last a month.  Perhaps I am overdoing it, or the instructions are wrong.  It suggests that a squeeze is a dose.  (Same with the liquid forms of stevia).  It is suggested that there are 500 uses in a bottle, but not if a squeeze goes until the liquid stops.  Too much, how to dose...  If I am doing it wrong, it would be difficult to know how to do it right.  It would always be subjective.  A squirt, a spurt, a bit, a lot, too little?  At between $4 and $5 a bottle, I just... I may buy another few bottles of the various stuff, with a mind to frugality.  But, if as I suspect, these are as expensive as they seem to get a right sweetness, then I'll skip them.

As to da vinci?  That is quite good and affordable.  It is the same price as the little squirt bottles, it just seems to sweeten quite well, using rather little, and at about the same price.  Affordable, as I use it.  I don't really care for the other flavors, but vanilla is fine.  And I can "do" the other flavors, I just don't prefer them.  For the most part, though, I try to use only one sweetened drink per day or every other day.  Oh, and one other thing I use, just with tea or water, is crystal light.  Sometimes I only add enough to cut the dry sense I get with water or tea, sometimes I make it full flavor.  Again, though, I attempt to sweeten something only occasionally... if I am not always perfect.

I did set up the dishes to a fresh soak.  I will watch a movie, then check the water.  If it is still too hot, I'll find something else to do.  Otherwise I will get those kicked out... if I can.  Tired but I will attempt to push through.  I don't know if I will do more than dishes, or even if I will get to those.  Though kicking those out, a shower, and perhaps laundry this evening, would be good.  Boxes, even just a small pile of them tended, would be good.  I feel like a caged beast, with food (in the form of work) just outside my cage, teasing me.  Yeah... I like to work.  I like to do things, have them done, create more piles, and do more and more.  I would have made a good worker, hunter, or such at one time.  Later.