The long sleep.

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I went down pretty hard.  I woke a few times, just not for long.  I could not see beyond the void, and so fell to sleeping each time until just a short time ago.  Why the great seeming need for sleep I cannot say.  Is it the cooling?  Less sun?  Has it been cloudy off and on to top it off?  Beginning of fasting?  Going back toward keto?  I suspect keto is playing a minor role.  While I am not in ketosis yet, my body is prepping.  Not gassy quite yet, but that seems to be in the works.  Yeah... you feel it before you do it.  As your innards becomes a gas bomb factory, all the tubing seems to be pressure tested, creating a minor internal torture chamber... chambers.  On the good side, when gas finally starts going, in spite of some (at least for me) embarrassment, the satisfaction covers the shame.  *toot*

It is a very strange thing.  I don't think it is all gas production.  Fat and muscle, and maybe the organs too, are rearranged as things begin happening.  Probably not so much for people who aren't overweight, and have been for a long time.  But for biggens, the body she shifts.  Even bones, more like the ribs for me, shift a bit.  Less outward pressure as fat is used, perhaps.  Which means they drift in.  Which isn't where they were, so connective tissue is slightly stressed.  It just does not feel good.  And, yet, for me... at least if I am correct and I think I am... I don't mind.  I know it is taking me where I wish to go... or be... wish or need?  More questions without answers, for now.  Patience, time tells all.

I have decided, after putting up chicken confit since I have it thawed, I will not be doing any fancy cooking for a while.  I will finish up the dishes, then pretty much put up pots, pans, fancy utensils, and all other items which need washing, until my hands are healed.  The aloe vera never arrived, so I bought some in town.  It isn't doing all that well, any better than olive oil.  Still, I am hoping, over time, it will heal.  I will be careful and limit how often I wash, but making sure they are clean... using gloves to hold the moisture in and on at night, and wear gloves when I have to work in water or near the oven.  Yeah...  Though stove top cooking is okay too.  And oven work, if it is simple, without too much fuss and in and out of there.

Juggling many things, trying to right some things, and doing it as I can.  My feet are again strongly on the mend.  Just have to remember to wear those socks, at least more often.  Medicine has been going down well.  I am on my second two-week set.  Which means I need to get the other set refilled and ready.  Tick tock, always something, and something else, and then food, and of course this and that and... maddening, if it wasn't worth trying to make the hoops and add a few extra just for kicks, innit?  Never mind.  Go, do, or do not but don't say I didn't warn you.  Good morning.