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I remember being introduced to one of these songs, more officially, at about the time I found the other. I am sure the introduced song had been heard, just not when it made sense. I heard the darker one first. Hearing the other after was so harsh. Something inside broke? I spent months going back, listening to one, the other, or both. Agony.
In time I either wore down to nubs or let it go. There was no... consoling? reconciling? I probably just hid it, from it. I know almost nothing I write makes sense to most of you. Some sort of entertainment? Perhaps mostly looking for new or different music? Most won't understand any of this. Less the change.
Nothing, of any real significance, has changed... in my life. All the same. Save perspective. I am no longer looking to end one to begin the other. I now live both. Gripe, sure. But I am in both songs at once, gratefully. I can do that. I am no longer were the only way is up. I have risen.
Such a different place without but seeing in a new way. I am home, whatever else.
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