Saved some of the bacon.

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So little vital physical being.  I used every bit of it, then stretched.  I was taking it slow or I would have ended up in trouble, more trouble, yesterday.  As is I just broke a bit and seem mostly better for it as I wake.  However, today until Monday, if work is planned, it will be light duty.  Smaller chores and projects, mostly indoors, as islands of time surrounded by oceans of rest.  I have to regain footing a bit cautiously.  I have been down for a very long time.

One group of new dishes has been started.  The dishes needing just a final rinse will get that when I feed the cats.  I'll give the dishes needing washed a shot, see if they will go in with the rinse, then square that circle as if I knew what I was doing.  A few hours later, laundry will get fluffed as the kitchen gets hit.  Nothing too heavy, just clearing, sorting, tossing until I am sick of it or done, per session.  I will hit that until done, then move back to the computer room, sitting room.  It is so close.

I can also handle phone work today.  Two bills, a check on several things, and whatever else might occur.  No milk, I think?  Wait, I always forget about that, there might be a way.  I don't know else.  Don't want to shower or shave too often, raw hide.  Tomorrow. Oh, could see if the shoes returned have deposited, some companies trust when the packages hit ups, some wait.

There is pain, but it isn't the more odius levels.  Mild, to be noticed, gauged, but pushed.  Can't let this stuff win without resistance but no need to blindly antagonize.  It, often, is your friend, letting you know something is wrong, or even right.  Actually, I don't think too little food is the problem.  I think I need to either eat more or eat less.  This daily fasting, every day, is the worst.  I never quite get unhooked and then undo my escape, staying perpetually in minor or heavier pain.  I may try three, even five day full fasts.

Check into Russian research.  WITH MEDICAL SUPERVISION they have people fast for up to three weeks.  Speculation is that can be stretched much further.  Germany also has at least a clinic.  Extended fasting is only for clinical settings or if you have willing and able medical attendance at home.  For me five days is as much as I will do, and probably only twice a month... Hmm, might keep it to three days, can do that weekly.  Still, the problem with three days?  You are just getting over hunger by the time you begin eating again, never a free time.  It's got the same drawbacks as daily fasting.  I may have to... explore.

So much for my hunger yesterday.  I prepped a nice meal but couldn't finish, or even German, half a sandwhich, even while I still felt hungry.  Bloated full on half a six ounce sadwhich and still with hunger.  Something is just off in there.

So many of them.  No chance.  Ruinations.  I used to believe it was me.  Not so much.




Later.