An ugly down.

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An ugly up.  I think I stayed awake until it was light enough to let the quackles out.  Quackles equal ducks, just a more enjoyable way of saying it, if you don't know.  As they were coming out, I frightened them this morning... without the intention.  Not sure what I did, but they ran back in.  I soothed them with my voice and Chief, the lead male for his and the whole clan, came right back out.  Quacking... almost honking, the whole way out the first time, all the way back in, then back out the second time.  I had to laugh.  Charge!  Retreat!  Run away fast!  Charge!  *Quacks!*

Blood sugar was a bit high, at 188 fasting.  What is up with that?  I only ate a single meal, along with two fatted drinks, yesterday.  Nothing carb heavy at all, no great volume.  Two ounces of salami, two of cream cheese... didn't even have onion for it.  And I didn't use all cream, an half cup of cream and an half cup of milk.  Milk might be the problem, but hasn't shown as such on me, in my testing, mostly(tm).  There is always that one batch, or that one time, but it's rare.  I check often enough, and specifically enough, to have it mostly down.  But there are always... quirks.  Always.  Bleh!

Getting to sleep and waking up is becoming extremely difficult.  Chastity has a price, sometimes one I can't quite pay.  If... that is improving.  It, from experience, I know, will never be perfect.  My record is three months.  Perhaps a little longer, but not four months.  I believe there are biological limitations.  For all?  For me, certainly.  Still, it's... not the destination, always, but the journey, in the human way.  And sin cannot be eliminated, at least for men.  I have great doubts about women, if it's their deceiving tongue that is more their bane?  Lying to please, or avoid conflict, is still lying.  Lucifer's favorite, right after pride.  Hmm, speaking of pride...  Never... mind...  Vanity?  Banish the thought.  *twinkling eyes, dancing brows, quirky grin*  *wink*

I finally found all of my carb round packages and got them refilled last night.  Two are upstairs, near my bed.  Two are here at the computer desk, and two are in my possibilities pouch.  Blood sugar has been running higher these last few days.  Sleep has been off too.  I just can't sleep or wake, easily, well, no matter what I do.  If doing nothing makes it nearly impossible.  Bleh.  I have asked for forgiveness, or more understanding.  Still pray.

Now, to get to some work if possible!  Ugh.  Such ugly days.  It seems overcast out there, if it may be more high level smoke than clouds?  I just can't really tell.  It is hazy, if I'm not sure it is really cooling much.  It was 68° upstairs, 72° in the main, 76° in the southern most this computer room, and 85° outside.  The reason the front room is so much warmer is that it is a stick-built house added to the rock house.  It doesn't have the same protection from the heat, if it is probably better than simple lumber houses.  If the only reason the upstairs is 68° is because of ac.  Then again, the only reason they heat up much is because of electronic and biological heat outputs.  I'd bet, a quick bath or cool dip in the shower or some other cool water area, two or three times a day, would really limit heating.  Though electronics don't do well with that, so...

Yes, work.  Soon.  I hope.  Laundry, a load, first.  Oh, I checked.  I DO have clothespins AND hanging bags for them.  I have four different kinds... three types of sixty and one type of twenty four.  I had thought the shiny stainless would look swell.  But thinking about it, they would get blistering hot here.  They will be the indoor ones, along with some... what look to be weaker... the twenty four set... of plastic ones.  Should do swell.  That gives me a hundred and twenty for outdoors.  Half are heavy duty plastic, the other half are plastic coated stainless... or steel anyway. 

I can hang things out as they become available.  Not tonight though, it looks like it could possibly swell and rain at any time.  Or... not.  Until the monsoon seasons hits, and regulates a bit, I'll be cautious about hanging things out.  Still, I am excited.  The pulleys work splendidly.  I can just stand, load up, and send for more space.  It's... it will be fun to dry things out there.  I may purchase wooden ones, of several types, as well... see which last, which work well, which last and continue to work well.  It's... an engineering thing.  Always want to know more about the practical, even about clotheslines and clothespins.  Insatiable curiosity.  That needs guidance, mind you.

I... will finish waking, then begin.  A trim and shower, then a laundry start... may put clothes out anyway?, then dishes in, a shave.  Then cleaning in the bathroom.  Trash collected and out.  Including an exploration in the refrigerator... looking for things to go.  And, maybe, a few counters and the stove top in the kitchen?  I'm hoping so.  I have been so down.  I am still tired.  I have started hurting.  And, yet... I gotta try.  Wish me luck?  Later.