So ready for bed.

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The thawed meat was put in the fridge.  Old and new waterers have been set up, so that I have two larger batches ready at any moment.  Tomorrow I will also reset a second, smaller, waterer selection.  As it gets warm enough, I want to put out a smaller set at night.  Currently, I have two large sets, one medium set, and a partial very small set.  I will work on getting one more medium set and two smaller sets.  It just allows me to coast, from time to time.

I am hoping to finish setting up food for the rabbits, and getting the girls a late dinner.  I will shower in the morning, and set up dishes after.  As well, perhaps, wash off what has been cleared.  I have replenished nuts, and with kefir going, am almost ready to dig back into keto.  I ordered wrong food, some, to be picked up tomorrow.  It is my... blow-out before going back onto keto.

Keto, in one sense, isn't difficult.  My problem is keeping up with food at all.  Then, when I get too hungry, I eat like hungry animals do... messily and whatever is easy, handy, available, quickly.  You can only eat just so many sardines (which are keto by the way), or packs of tuna, or such.  If your body needs hot, varied, full meals... pizza or McDonalds or... any of a thousand things which it craves will be had.  My will is good, right until it tries to drive my body off a cliff... or my body believes I am doing something wrong, or hurting it.  Then it will take over and do what it wills.  At that point, anything I "say" is seen as... dubious, perhaps dangerous.  It may do the opposite, or angle away in some way.  That is the truth.  Trying to kill yourself, and hurting your body a great deal, quite some number of times does make the body both separate from the mind a bit, and create it's own will... our flesh has a will to survive I doubt most of us understand, until it has been unleashed.  Unleashed some number of times, by accident or ill intent, that will is... incredible.  Think of antibodies... but of the body against the mind.

Anyway... it is keeping up on food.  I have small stores of keto, a system of meeting demands, and a will to it.  I have been slowly working back to it, but... so tired, sometimes, I haven't been able to focus, resist, and have needed food.  I am coming about and regaining focus.  Still, with soon starting meds, it... might become difficult.  Storing up helps, being able to order food helps, but finances being screwy from becoming behind on energy hurts.  I have to have some freedom to just buy, and buy keto.

Keto doesn't have to be expensive.  Actually, with something like stews, it is cheaper.  IF you can make the food from raw ingredients, or nearly so.  But that takes a clean(er) kitchen, clean dishes and cookware, and such.  OR it will be expensive... and often dubious.  They slap the keto label on things dogs shouldn't be allowed to eat.  And they lie, stop to start.  You don't know who or what to trust until you've invested.  It looks like companies try to destroy your keto, as with diabetics where they lie about sugars.  It is easy, if you have the money, and focus, and access to a kitchen and fresh foods.  A lot of if's for a dying fool.

Still, I am getting close.  This month or next, I will go full keto again.  I will be edging that way even until then.  I need more stock bones, for chicken and beef, then to get to that.  Hmm, pork hocks would help, and chicken feet too.  Those really add a lot of the thickening agents.  Still, mostly beef and regular chicken bones.  Oh, I probably need freezer containers too... 16 ounce and 32 ounce work the best.  Anyway...

Good night.