Yea, well?

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Not much.  Blood sugar was 73 last time I checked it.  I'll check it in about an hour, see if food might be needed again.  Or something.  After that reading, I had three of those... crackers.  Cream cheese and some deli meat on top.  Will find out shortly if they create an insulin spike.  I definitely don't want to go to bed with a blood sugar in the 70s.  I am not sure about the 80s, either.  Though I may risk it in the 80s.  As blood sugar often, for me, goes up in the morning.  Or whatever passes for my morning.  But the 70s are too close to trouble.

The crackers are rather good.  I tried them without anything on them.  They have a mildly sweat, if naturally sweet, flavor.  If you have had rice puffs, or such, imagine a rye puff?  Something in that neighborhood.  And these are 13 carbs per three crackers.  There are other varieties which are 11 for two, for example... and among several types.  I am hoping these work out.  Nothing fancy, but as for carriers, or even crouton replacements, perhaps even crackers in soup, these may really work well.  I may try one as a crouton on a tuna salad if blood sugar is still a bit low.

The strange thing is, I dosed rather lightly, and only once.  I had two meals and a snack of an ounce of brazil nuts.  I could say, plus a fatted coffee, but that was actually part of a meal.  Oh, and eyes are clearing up a great deal.  It's been off and on, but the last few days it has been much more on than off.  Not sure if that was the new medicine which was dropped, or blood sugar clearing up?  No, blood sugar has been controlled, while vision was blurry.  Pretty sure it was the canceled medicine.

I suppose I could feed the girls one more time.  If they beg.  I sort of wait for that, unless I know enough time has passed.  Sometimes they don't beg.  Actually, I sleep extra long at some point.  I won't get much done before sleep.  I turned up the heat, but just couldn't get warm today.  I really think that is part of it.  If, too, I don't think the cold is environmental... it's my body not keeping warm, for whatever reason.

Carbs, I know, will help keep the body warm, if it has a price.  I need to find low carb foods which help.  Tea can help, a bit, for a bit.  But whatever is wrong just doesn't even allow that to warm the body for long, or all that well.  And, I can't drink it fast enough.

My sweeteners don't help.  Monkfruit and erythritol, allulose (a new trial type), liquid stevia and sucralose (only allow two drops per day, usually, though occasionally a few extra drops for coffee or a second chia breakfast of such).  None of those offer a fast burning item, if the liquid sucralose will cause a blood sugar spike if used more than I suggest, sometimes).

Oddly, even potato doesn't help.  My body runs cold, now.  Good for the summer, not as good for the winter.  I need to figure out how to warm up!  I am wearing double layers, a long sleeve shirt, warm socks, something on the feet besides, and a winter cap.  Do I really need to wear a fleece jacket too?  Or a bathrobe around?  Meh, may have to try it.  I NEED to be warm!  Can't seem to get to work without something more than what I have.  May have to turn the furnace up a bit more, or for a bit in the "morning"?  On top of more clothes?  Maybe.

Oh... I did a blood draw a bit early.  Though that probably means more twenty minutes shy of two hours, than one as it might seem.  Still, the draw was doable at 116!  And, weekly average is running at 157.  Very good numbers.  And I can sleep with that.  I expect 'morning' numbers to be high.  But this, this is good.  That was, pretty much, a heavier, if keto, meal with no insulin.

I missed medicine again today.  I had thought I took it, but didn't.  When I went to take night meds, I realized the problem.  Too late to take both, so... again... night meds will be missed.  Won't risk doubling up this close.  If it were five hours, I might try it.  But not one or two.  Terrifyingly heavy, these meds, not to be trifled.

Yes, now I can go on to bed comfortable that I won't die, or struggle to get sugar in me.  Even thinking of that stuff... I hate loving sugar, but I really do.  The longer I am away from it, the more I want it... at least when I smell or think about it.  With tobacco, when I got away from it I was gladly away from it.  Then again, I... haven't really escaped sugar.  It is in almost everything, naturally occurring sometimes, if more often manufactured.  I wonder if even meats aren't getting sugar added somehow.  They mean to kill us.

Goodnight.  I'll put some prayers in.  For some of you ladies, that your life, music, and loves be good... from family to friends.  And that you gents are finding life interesting, and yourself able... even if just able to sleep well, think as you prefer, and perhaps enjoy a woman, or your woman.  Well, and for those who hate me?  I pray you figure out what I did ages ago... hate only hurts you.  It'll never hurt me, even, especially, if you use it to murder me.  Odd that, but true.  Goodnight, sleep well, dream as you prefer, and maybe see you on the other side.