A nice wake.

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The alarm went off at 03:00.  I have two set, one for 03:00, one at 05:00.  The early one is preferred.  Some days, preferences won't matter.  And, in time, that... will be lost.  I am simply attempting to be a day people for a while.  As long as possible.  Now, the first alarm sounded.  I just... it was too early!  So, I did something, thought I turned it off.

Nope.  Must have snoozed it, or turned it off twice, quickly, which... just keeps it on?  I don't know.  Was so sleepy that I can't be sure.  But, the snooze timed, and... this time I was feeling more amenable to waking.  Took another snooze, but I got up around 03:20.

Filling pee jugs, even while going more in the day, and consciously trying to drink less.  The left leg is draining, if the foot is now swelling?  Even so, not as much.  The foot must be a staging area for getting rid of it, or a place it leaks while being emptied?  In any case, I'll keep up with the extra waterpills until... conditions improve.  No, I was mostly waterfree, as to excess, while off medicines.  Medicines, themselves, can and do cause water buildup.  If I can get ahead of that, and monitor things, life is easier that way. But, it takes teaching the body how to balance, and controlling thirst a bit.  Yes, filled a three liter pee jug last night.  But, keeping up on those, too.

Hopefully, dishes today.  And some or all laundry.  I am beginning to go through laundry.  If a shirt has spots, I'll treat it.  If that doesn't work, after two tries, out it goes.  Same with worn, ugly, or such shirts.  I am keeping a few things, what I call painting clothes.  To be used for any oily or greasy work, painting, dirty work which might stain.  Just... a few articles for the dirty jobs in life.  But, the rest is being combed over.  Ill fit, ill design, too small, too old, too worn, don't like... never liked.  It happens.

Still rather tired, a bit achy, but getting better.  Finally remembered slow acting last night, before bed that is.  Blood sugar is down to 155 fasting this morning.  I got it to 150, yesterday.  Then, had a salad, and 6 cc's.  After which it stayed at 150.  I had hoped it would drop, even just a bit.  Though... I won't complain.  That number is far better than it was, and much better than a crash.  So... very small doses, from here on in, if I use fast much at all.  More based on diet.  What surprises me is that a salad wouldn't have dropped the blood sugar, especially with a homemade vinaigrette.  Nothing sweet in there.  The wine vinegar?  No, that just wouldn't spike it.  Any sugars were turned to alcohol, which were then soured so nothing sweet remains, right?  Actually, I have never checked.  Balsamic vinegar might be different, I... will check...  Oh, I'll take 8 cc's with breakfast.  I want it a little lower.  Trying to tickle the ends I prefer, without dropping blood sugar into the basement.

Hmm, seems so.  While balsamic vinegar can have upwards of 10 grams of carbs per teaspoon, it is the smaller portion of the dressing... say a quarter of all ingredients.  And, of that, I only use a tablespoon or two, with olive oil the bulk, and spices and another acid type an addition... say apple cider vinegar.  So, yea, I consider that doable.  Plus, it is only one of the types I use.  Red wine, white wine, champagne, apple cider, and white vinegars are all also uses, and have little to no (far less) carbs.  I will live with the few carbs, for what that brings to the table.

Anyway...  The goal is doing dishes, starting laundry, breakfast before too long, and chores as soon as sun up... if it is above freezing.  Or, as soon after sunup when it is above freezing, to put more exactly.  Unless, of course, it... doesn't thaw.  Then I'll just get out there around ten?  Something like that.  42?  Not bad.  Which means, as soon after sunup as I can hump my bum to the project, chores.

As well, after one hit of dishes, another shower.  I had been off that, too, for a bit.  I had also stopped brushing my hair.  I'll tell you, when you get used to brushing your hair at least twice a day, stopping... hurts.  There is something about brushing hair that feels so good... for the hair?  I think so.  But also for the scalp.  They say you can't feel hair.  I... can.  It likes being brushed, treated, even handled to a degree.  Not sure it grows any faster, or any of that jazz.  It just... well... feels good.  Like a foot massage, but for the hair and scalp.  Nice to be back to that.  Look, when I fall?  I fall in all ways... the things I don't want to do, but the things I love to do, all... go away.  Darkness and sleep and pain are what remain.  If... I have learned gratitude for even these.  They mean I am still alive, still trying.  Amen.

A good start to a day and week, yesterday.  Hopefully I'll keep with it today.  If I can do those proposed, perhaps I can begin in on the remaining couch in the living room and boxes in the spare bedroom.  Plus, get the cat tree out, clean it up, and set it out for Sassy to be queen of all she surveils.  I want my furball queen to be a joyous one.  Later.

Oh... and... some more from my dreams and thoughts...

Amen.