Tunnel vision.

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All day.  Not the narrowest I have ever had.  And a slight headache.  On the milder side, but persistent.  If it were worse, I'd take painpills in an attempt to shake it.  As it, I'd rather not take even one damned more pill!  Just hanging onto the chair, more than sitting in it.  I have had worse, I have had better, extremes both ways.  Mildly annoying day, is all.

Tomorrow I start on full doses of medicine.  Which means tomorrow much be Friday?  Whew.  There is always a chance I could have taken too many, or too few.  Looks like... for what it is worth... that I hit it on target.

Blood sugar is 119, as I prep for bed.  Not bad.  I was a bit worried that the 15 cc's I took earlier might cause a serious dip.  Looks like my native instincts were better than my logic ones.  Now I can freely take the slow acting insulin.  Taken once a day, steady dose.  I finally kicked it up to 48.  The goal is to have it do all the work.  Or... so I was informed, several times.  Up 2 cc's, if fasting isn't 80 to 100?  80 to 120?  I'll... have to ask, again.  I'm not titrating up based on recent data.  But, in the past, when I was on it much steadier, 46 wasn't working.  I just... got stuck on thinking 46, as I was failing in all ways, and couldn't quite lift the number.  When all is failing, I have learned that keeping it simple, repetitive, and leaning toward safe and sure, is my best bet.  When I try to logic while falling, very... bad things can happen.  Good things too, but with things like insulin, taking risks hasn't... worked out well for me.

Going to set up yogurt and chia seeds, see how that works.  For summer, it maybe best... cooler.  And, just for a change, from time to time, even in the cooler seasons.  Though, hopefully, I can get kefir going.  It would do much better, as to infusing the chia with the probiotics.  I just... am... not getting kefir out, as I should.  Ugh... 

Tunnel vision, people.  Still did things.  Sort of amazing.  I still, some days, today being one of them, wonder how the heck I am still alive.  Go wear yourself out, right down to your bones.  Crush it, make it so that you can't really catch your breath after any more exertion.  Now... live like that, except on the bad days.  I really don't understand how my body hasn't shut down.  Meh.

Well, on to bed.  Goodnight.