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Rein, rous!  So be it.

Down at 22:30, give or take a dime or less.  Woke at 02:56, to pee.  Realized the three alarm would not work, turned it off.  Planned for the fiver.  Thought I could just snooze to 05:30, but couldn't quite wake then.  Turned it off, but with a plan, which... actually worked.  Sometimes you just have to trust yourself.  Sometimes you will fail, other times, like today... and actually several times this last week, I have succeeded in waking beyond the alarm.

Had no choice, though.  Even so, it is nice when, with some concentrated effort, even through titration woes and weather, I can make it through.  Might not do much, but just being awake, in the early dark, and making... if often futile... plans.  Those plans, today?  Dishes, laundry, waterers, a shower, and maybe the litter box mats and a redo of the litter boxes, plus restationing some of them.  Perhaps one in the front room, one upstairs, and leaving one where they are now, in the kitchen.  But, I want the mats ready before I do that, so... yea.  Possible, some of it.  Oh, and I'd like to get the rabbits breeding, again.  Try.

Someone was looking through old, and really old, posts.  I only ever, usually, look at the posts with music.  I... can't read, especially my own stuff.  Though a few dream posts were... awesome.  I have had some terrible, wonderful, and interesting (to me) dreams.  Most other things, I can't read.  If... I can't read your long-winded stuff either.  No hate, just the truth.  Mine, yours, what's... the difference.  A wall of words is just that, no matter how well or poorly crafted.  

I merely write to get things out, not... really... to be read.  Out of my head, that is.  That is for believers... in the world.  Looking for hope in other people.  My hope is in my own actions, guided by faith, in hope, with an aim to love... what is right, good, beautiful, true.  So... I... am not looking for an earthly savior, guru, answer to my problems.  Nor am I aiming to attempt to be one.  

Go, live rightly, do rightly, and don't worry about wise men.  The bible, the truth within the church, disregarding some men who have obviously (or not obviously) fallen within it.  Know snakes, avoid them.  Listen to wisdom, when it isn't being sold or used as some sort of tool for evil.  It is a tool of God, for His purposes, which align with ours if we know how to see it rightly.

It is 34 out there, or near enough.  Wet, rained if probably several hours ago.  The windows were open upstairs.  Song birds go at it so early.  But, truly, I enjoy the chirps and else.  Even when they wake me, I just smile, broadly, hoping they are enjoying their short odd little lives, and making some hay.  *grins*  I hope they all find, or are found, as it was meant to be.  Reminds me to... keep dreaming of women.  Amen.

Oh, I finally did get the yogurt chia thing going.  Not bad.  Not... to me... as good as the hot chia.  But, this was just plain yogurt, chia seeds, and a bit of my keto sweetener.  I could see blue berries adding much, or strawberries.  I may try oats, as some of my nearling kin add, just as a once or twice a week thing.  There is much to do, from this simple start.  Interesting.  And, in time, as kefir gets going, perhaps using that instead of yogurt?  Yum.  I like my new weird foods.  Plus, I need to eat so much less.

Blood sugar, for whatever reason, is high this morning... 195 fasting.  Stupid.  I have been eating very rightly.  I haven't been eating too much.  I am even controlling fluid intake.  Then again, that might be it.  Drinking less, peeing less, things get kept that would otherwise go?  I don't know.  All I can do is keep at it.  I took a dose of fast acting with breakfast, 8 cc's I think.  12?  I'm trying to approach dosing from the conservative side.  It could slip to nothing, if I am not careful.  I'll check, again, in a few hours.  I will also be having warm chia.  I... got confused and made that after already eating the other.  EXTRA!  Read all about it?  :p

Well... on to... waking.  A text, asking what I want from the dairy, assuming they have cream?  I... let it be known, gratefully.  I can hope.  I have a bit extra cream, for until Monday, if all else fails.  Then I'll have to hope I can get in, well find money to buy, and then find energy to get in, otherwise.  It has been taking a week or two to get in, and that is when I had easier money to do so.  Being a poorboi breaks down the will, adds to procrastination inclinations, and just makes it all... take....... longer.........  Later.

Oh... something I am considering.  Not sure I can read though.  Still, I... like to give it a shot, from time to time.  I look for new, interesting, or else.  I need to see what Vox's writers are up to, and get a few of those from the past, I am sure I would like as well.  It's... just... a matter of getting it all going.  Then again, from time to time, they just cut me off their email rolls.  It couldn't cost them to keep me on, could it?  Perhaps it is bothersome.  Don't know.  Anyway... something for nothing?

The idea, that is.  The books will cost you.  But... not a price to me, right.