That shouldn't be.

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Blood sugar skyrocketed.  All I have eaten is my typical chia breakfast, which often brings blood sugar down.  As well, because blood sugar was high, I took 14 cc's of fast acting insulin.  Yes, I took slow acting insulin last night.  That isn't... fresh.  It might be out of date.  Will be switching it today.  I do at the first of the month.  But, the fast acting is fresh, was opened yesterday.  It went from 192 fasting to 232 after insulin and breakfast.  All else I have had is water.

I know, it gets wonky when starting up meds.  But this strange?  So be it.

Can barely stand.  Need food.  Can't think my way through.  Will have to toss some meat, most likely.  But a single, small package.  One I would have eaten, if I had been able to cook, clean, and get it all going.  So, at least it was just one pack.  I will check it, first.  Maybe it is still good.  I just... doubt it.  As terrible of shape as I am in, I can easily tell when food isn't to be eaten.  If I think it is borderline, cooking it will tell.  If it is even slightly bad, while cooking or baking, the horrid smell that comes from the process, right at the start, I know.  Just a pound of hamburger, if that is rather expensive these days.  Not sure how families are making it by.  It's crazy out there.

I... have been gaming, but... oddly dreaming of other things, while doing so.  I... dreamed I was hiking, a easier, shorter, path hereabouts.  One I haven't been on yet, but am pretty sure I know anyway.  Odd how that works.  I have seen places I have never been.  Sometimes for will, sometimes because people I love are there, sometimes just because.  Remote viewing?  I... think that is what it is called.  Dreams, to real.  Deja vous is less a phenomena I experience as it is a way of life.  Not... sure even I believe it, all.  But you don't have to believe to understand your own lying eyes.  Though, sometimes, it is a connection with people there.  

Odd how people can see, or perceive things, so incorrectly.  Not sure how they do they, though I think, sometimes, it is merely their first impression, which is wrong.  Like seeing a planter, and thinking it was something else... like a lantern, for it had lights on it, at night.  But, coming back the next day, you realize the mistake.  But... some people don't see well, or understand what they see, or care for details.   That actually bothers me, a great deal.  Seeing through the eyes of the willfully blind... of a sort.

Oh, right.  Anyway.  I'll try to figure out something else to eat, then get more insulin in.  I still won't take a larger dose.  Avoiding doing that, the downside is pretty rough.  It'll work out.  So hungry, but I just... can't... figure out cleaning, so as to cook, then cooking so as to eat.  Only so many sardines a week, even for the starving.  Later.