It's a rough day.

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I am sore from just living.  I hurt when I take a deep breath.  Too hot, too cold, dazed, confused.  I'm... still trying to get to chores.  After this, immediately after this post.  I will do it.  I just will.

Still?  A woman on my mind.  Even if you end up really unhappy with a woman, moving on... if you ever loved her, you will always love her.  I think of her face, her proportions, her feel, scent, look.  Her moods, her stupids, her smarts.  I didn't waste time on useless women, or ugly ones.

Yes.  We parted.  She... visited, a few times.  But I realized marriage just wasn't in the cards.  And, I was celibate.  She... wanted to be lovers, nothing more.  Or, that is what I perceived.  That just wasn't an option anymore.  About went half insane, with a mare in heat around.  But... no.  You have no idea how difficult that is.  Or... do you?

Yes, she is definitely on my mind.  Something about them.

Irritating.  But I wouldn't have it any other way.  Later.