Sleep was very good.

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I would say I woke at 22:00.  But didn't shake it off and get out of bed until 22:30.  I was trying to make it to midnight, but realized that wasn't going to happen.  It was 13:30 when I crashed, as it ended, so nine down.  And, it was a pretty solid sleep.  It was 73/70 up there.  I opened up before I came downstairs.

I have been missing medicine, again, again.  I am three days off.  How?  I... just don't get that.  I have full intent to take medicine.  Beyond will, it should be habit?  By now?  And, yet, I... I don't take it.  Water had been piling on, that was my first clue that something was amiss.  I don't think it was missing the meds, that was the problem.  That is a symptom.

While this high summer is very... pleasant?  Yes, pleasant.  It is still high summer.  The sun is on all the time, even when it is overcast.  It is always, near me, 73 to the low to even mid eighties.  Summer has wiped me out.  Not as bad as some summers, in that it is both cooler for summer and because I am tolerating the heat better.  But... for a while, I am done.  

My simple goals are a) to still make lists and check off anything I can, but not worry if nothing gets done... mostly... a few things I really have to push toward, b) to eat, something, anything, every day, c) drink enough, but try to drink in sips, it's tricky when what is needed can be had to great excess... water is as dangerous one way, for me, as it is the other, and finally, d) hold on, to wakefulness, conscious awareness, and even to physical effort, as is possible.  

Those four things are what is left.  I won't do too much, or more than those and at minimums often.  Until it begins to cool, into the 70s out there, I am pretty much just holding one.  Well, I am trying to push my days around, and getting there.  But that is just positioning myself for a tussle in the future?  Mostly.  I have something that must be done soon, as soon as possible.  And... we'll see.

It is cooler earlier tonight, to 62 out there already, or at 22:30.  It was 78 here near the machine, 75 and 76 elsewhere in the house.  I have opened up down here, now, too.  Or a bit more.  I keep things a bit more open, now that it is only getting to the 80s during the day.  80s?  Well, that is what I suspect, as cool as the upstairs stays, and how tame it is when I return downstairs.  And, being partly cloudy, it is cooler still.

Well... on to waking.  My goals are the same.  Brushed my teeth first thing, and am tanking up on water.  Went with a rare perrier, two actually, to start.  I know, I know, but I am so very thirsty!  Trying to sip.  Thirsty!  Later.