I thought I was going to crash.

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Sort of did.  Just not all the way.  As the place cooled a bit, I got it.  The heat, through the day, raw, was too much.  It crushed me.  But, cooling since then, has helped.  I was almost falling off my chair.  So very tired, and still hurting though too.  But, no, I think I'll be up for a while.  Still a bit heatsick, but have had much worse.  This was half a day, when I've had it for weeks, or months really, yea... that was rough.

Gizzards are going.  Might be done?  Nope.  But, will be shortly.  

I checked about half an hour ago, an hour?  It was 74.  Too warm to shut things down and open up the house.  Just now, it was 69.  Still too warm.

I started in on another game, Dead Space... a remake of a rather old game.  It hasn't aged badly.  They say they have added things.  So far I am not seeing anything, save a poor voice for controls.  Visually, it doesn't look all that better.  To be honest, ps5 isn't much better than ps4.  Faster, but that's the ssd, not any real hardware or other improvements.  I wouldn't recommend it, if you have a functional ps4.  And the games aren't better.  The good games on ps5 are ps4 games.  I haven't seen anything ps5 I even like yet.  What isn't woke is just a weak copy or sad "remake".

I had hoped ps5 would offer a larger viewing size, but no.  It's just not worth the money.  As written, I wouldn't recommend it.  If something changes, I'll let you know.

Oh... and... someone popped a couple of vids.  I am sure, sometimes, that something is presented so as to make a point.  I can... just tell.  I saw, and viewed, the few.  Which... brought others to mind.  I'll... make a mash of them soon.  Now?  Maybe, sure.

Something about... taking on a woman?  Judging, too?  Maybe that there is a woman out there, even for someone like me?

Look, I don't know.  But I don't want a woman like me.  Firstly.

Then some other pops, from the past, and one I thought of on my own.

I remembered this one.  Men and women aren't... perfect.

Such dark times, but so wonderful, too?

Yes, I get it.  I really have had a hell of a life.

Don't kid yourselves.  Always doing my best, if my best has been very bad.  Bad, sometimes, is the best gig going.  But, not always.

This?  I'm not sure who... but... I know what they are suggesting.

Damn straight, but that a good woman does make me want to be a better man.

Either that, or I've got to... get on the road again.  Not trick, just... life.

Some of us... just ride or roam.  Finding a home is... difficult.

I'm... afraid... of the risk, the loss.  I've lost it all... a number of times.  Still, if I can find a right proper nag, can get it up, I'll... go for it.  Maybe.