Up, finally.

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Lost in a long dark, or so it seemed.  The storm, or the one that was here, seems to have passed.  I don't think it did so until mid morning or later?  Can't be certain, just a feeling.  It seemed dark.  That is all I can say.  Though, I was wearing my eye-covering hat... cap... whatever.  It just makes sure it is dark enough.  With fans and clocks and this and that all producing light pollution, I... like to shut it all out.

Blood sugar first thing.  But, with having eating a fast food meal yesterday, I wasn't expecting a good read.  At 224 it was better than I had actually hoped.  Yes, one meal out and it will jack my blood sugar hard.  No major issue.  Back to the grind.  I also had two sodas, on top of the one with the meal... biggies.  Otherwise wouldn't have made it home.

Hmm... may have to see about finding a good, real, non-Starbucks, coffee place.  They are all lib as fuck, but some of them can't afford to act on it.  A coffee place up there.  Take some whole cream, in a cooler canister.  Order a triple espresso, add the cream, and that... will work better than soda.  Just, it's a mess to find, and do.  And, yesterday, I had pushed so hard just to get there, it... wasn't possible.  From now on?  And, finding the place, the first time, will be easy.  They probably have a place right onsite, or very near.  Nothing fancy, just pure espresso.  None of their sugary junk, including what passes for "creamer" but is usually sugar with white gunk in it... much of that even just soy.  Eat, drink, and be a merry American, for tomorrow you surely die... or end up on more medicines than you can count, comprehend, or survive on for long.  Amen.  I've... changed my American mind.  Become a food freak.  Again, amen.  If... I'm doing it more for taste, and other qualities, true.  That it happened to end up being healthier is just a freak accident!  :)

Too late to make calls.  Or and as much, I am still shot from yesterday.  Burned out.  But... I got to it, got it done, got some other things set up, did... a very good job.  I don't mind taking a few days off.  It took me nearly half a weak to know, position myself, start the run days before, to make it there, and on time.  Days... to prepare...  Brutal.  Even then I just... barely made it.  What a gig.

I must admit, my doc looked healthier?  Seriously, he looked pretty solid.  He has me by a decade?  Doing pretty good.  From talking to him, he is feeling it.  Thin.  Feeling, if too looking.  But not gaunt.  I am sure that line of work, while it helps, also harms.  Choices, arguments, lives on the line, the way the world works.  My father was a minister, similar levels of stress.  Lethal levels.  But, as mentioned, he looks well.  And, his nurse is holding on.  A VN era nurse?  She... almost has the look and feel.  Something about women who worked with the broken, bloodied men.  Can still... smell it on them, too.  It's not the same as emergency hospitalling.  These are men who were wounded for stupid, often wasted, reasons.  And their efforts... Humpty Dumpty had a great fall... couldn't put him back together, at all.  Creation of addicts.  Some can sense those of our kind.  I'm not exactly like her, or soldiers on whatever passed for the front, or some others, but I am one.  The paper can lie, the senses won't be fooled.  They know me, too, just... not how.  And... I can't tell them.  But, she is looking pretty good.  They like being pretty for the blooded, too.  Just... a thing.  Good gallows cheer, and whatnot!

Well... on to gaming.  It is mostly cool in here, 73/75 upstairs, 71/73 downstairs (cooler up front, strangely?), and 81 outdoors?  It is... beginning to run hot, may get really hot even yet today.  I hurriedly shut it all down, turned on ac.  I was worried about the electric bill, by the way.  Last month, the heaviest use of ac and probably the highest for the summer, by a lot?  Was just at ~$110.  A little less by a very little, my my engineering mind rounds to tens, or whole dollars.  In this case, both.  I... can do that.  To be reasonably cool.  But, there were a lot of nights, and even days, I didn't have to use ac.  There was often, this much cooler year, where I could go lean with the use.  Just run it for a few hours, here or there.  That won't be every year.  I'll... have to watch that.  I could see, on a very hot summer, doubling that.

Anyway... on to a bit of peeking and poking about the interwebs, then something something... kefir!?!  I'll eat kefir and coffee for a few days, to atone for fast food and soda yesterday.  Then, back on the meat wagon.  Oh... something?  I'll not eat fast food like that again.  That was so horrible.  Odd how the memory thinks something was good.  But, when you eat right real meats for a while, tasting what you had thought tasted good long ago... it... just doesn't.  It's horrible!  HORRIBLE!  I... need to find something else.

I hadn't liked In-n-Out before.  Maybe I would now.  AND, they offer their burgers on just lettuce.  Oh, but I have to remember to have them not put anything else on it.  No "ketchup", no "mayonnaise", not even "mustard".  They load those with sugar, and put soy and the cheapest seed oils they can find in them.  Those aren't what they say they are.  Yes, I... have gotten picky.  Have to.  No one will do it for you.  Hell, most won't do it for themselves.  Just... take more pills.  No!

Later.