Very sore, but awake.

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Pretty much everything hurts, again.  Not as bad as a few days go.  Perhaps a little worse than yesterday morning.  Neck, arm, ribs, midsection, legs.  My right arm isn't as asleep as it was, but my neck hurts more.  Legs?  Odd, partly asleep, about as they were.  Rough morning.

I dreamed I spoke with another aspect of me.  One which only happens, usually, as I go to sleep... when the lights go off.  Woke up this morning, because as I started waking, the sun wasn't up yet.  Around 5:30?  Or so.  Grumped about the pain.  But, really, today is better.  Better than when I go to sleep.  Better than three days ago by a lot.  Improving.  You can't tell "people" who have not become familiar with suffering, how to find comfort in it.  It either happens over time, or they suicide.  Some people will never be able to suffer well.  If I couldn't initially either.  Suicide just didn't work.

Oh, but I may have found why the house is toxic.  The toilet, in the spare bedroom, is dry.  Has been for a while.  I... was thinking about what the problem could be, then that came to mind.  I would guess, in the summer, it is worse.  Heat just drives all fumes from down there n up.  Though, possibly, even in winter, it toxifies the house.

I stuffed it with paper towels, for now.  Mya consider something else.  It has been years.  Surprised that hasn't killed me.  Ugh.  Hopefully the paper towels will work.  Or at least help, until I can figure out better.  Yeah, that'll kill a guy.  And, well... lets just say I am hoping that is, or was, the problem.

If it warms up a bit through the day, I may open up and try to get some fresh air going.  I have an upstairs window open, near my bedroll.  Things were starting to get too rough for me.  That helped, and didn't make it too cold.  Was worried though, as winter is coming on.

It was 64 near my sleeping mat this morning.  And, last time I looked out, about this time yesterday morning, it was 38.  Today?  It's 48.  So... I've opened up windows, and the front door.  Let it air for a bit.  See if that helps.  I'll want some coffee first thing then, so water is heating.

Ah, I have to get the Xterra in for an inspection.  Every other year, and this is the year.  Then call around, and find out about the bike.  I've never owned one before.  I didn't touch any of the paperwork, all digital.  I would guess registration and tags will, likewise, be all digital?  Inspection requirements?  Being an '18, maybe not?  Dunno.

But, first, waking up.  Some coffee.  Fresh air.  Browsing.  Then some calls.  Thankfully it isn't the end of the week.  So, I could get a few things arranged.  Inspection(s), and such, anyway.  But, first... to wake up to coffee and world data.

Like I said, I don't have to hate either side of a warring group.  If I find neither group to be true allies, I will choose neither to support.  So it is with Israel and Palestine.  To be honest, I consider them more cousins than anything.  It's a family dispute.  Has nothing to do with me or us.  Only our warmongering, weapon selling, kickback/money laundering politicians have any interest in these warring parties, both of which despise "whites", and really anyone who isn't them, in flesh, spirit, thought, and action.

The only reason we are involved is from graft, kickbacks, and some strange belief that they are the chosen people.  God doesn't choose you.  You either choose Him, or you are all alone in the night.  I... can't say, by their fruits, that they seem to have chosen God.  They have chosen liberalism.  They had God crucified.  Bleh.

You do realize, muslims don't believe there will be a return of their god until all Jews are dead, don't you?  That... isn't their extremists.  That IS their faith.  I have heard catholics have some notion that the second coming won't happen until all Jews are converted.  Though, if all non-converts are dead, that... fills the same role?  I don't know if that is anything near dogma, but... just... out there?

As mentioned though, even if that is dogmatic prophecy, there are a lot of ways to skin that cat.  Though... even I hope for the better of the two.  I don't hate Jews, if I do realize they do hate me.  I don't see them as important enough to worry about.  They can be wicked, but not as bad as their kissing cousins, the muslims.  Mostly.  But, when they war, that is... their thing.  Not mine.  Neither is on my side.  Both are democrats, in my country.  They damage my nation when given an opportunity to join with it.

Hmm... anyway...  On to coffee.  Then reading and commenting, if seen optional, advisable.  Or just because.  Later.  Ouch.  But... lets see if painpills will help today.