Yes, on to bed shortly.

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Not much else done today.  I did get out for cash, and food.  Fast food while out, but I bought meat.  Just... a bit.  Until I can get to thawing what I have.  Yea, I know.  Should just get to it.  But... some days I can't.  Today was, mostly, a can't do day.  I did get out, ordered pizza.  Got cash.  But was so wasted it was difficult to even do those things.

I am worn and weary.  Things just aren't good.  I am hoping, with the toilet in the spare bedroom plugged, and airing the place out over time, that I will be able to get back on my feet a bit.  Though, who knows.  Maybe I have destroyed my health.  Or, maybe, the heart has finally... sort of ended things.  I'll... just have to find out.

Because I am having a heck of a time with things.  We'll see if I can pull things back together.  Winter, summer, spring, fall... I don't think it matters.  Either I can get up and begin doing things, or... I can't.

I have been keeping up on medicine.  Ran out of losartan?  Wait... I have a new script.  I was using up the last of the old-old-old scripts that I had!  Ah... Down.  I had to start on new scripts for carvedilol recently too.  Then again, getting on medicines is always a bear.  Especially at this level.

I am, currently, trying to take this level.  It is only an experiment.  I may be crippled by it for a month, to three.  I have been on medicines for... three months?  But this level?  Only about a month, or two.  Since seeing my doctor recently.  So... yes.  It may be, even so, a few months until I can handle the medicine.  Or realize I can't take this much and back it down once again.  This stuff is nasty.

If... I still wonder if they aren't trying to overdose me.  Modern medicine, all medicine, is triage.  And those they think can't be fixed should be left to die.  When that doesn't work, just how far are they willing to go to cull?  Given the "vaccine" thing, it looks like they are willing to take some healthy to get rid of as much unhealthy as possible?  Yes, that... sure looks like it.  I must really piss them off.

Anyway... we'll see.  I'm going to push.  I have things I need, and want, to do.  Including *zoom, zoom!*  If the bike doesn't quicken me, It'll do what the doc has failed to do?  We'll see!  I like long bets!

Oh, yes.  Women on my mind.  I really am hoping to get to the Philippines, find a fine little wife.  Oh, don't worry.  I don't think she is going to make my life perfect.  If the bike doesn't kill me, that's her job.  If she can't do it, kids will.  If they can't get the job, I'll have to wait for grandkids.  HEY!  I'm a positive thinker!  I know something or someone will eventually kill me!  :)

Well... a bit of looking about the web.  Finishing my coffee, maybe some water as well.  Then on to bed.  Hurt as it does, I... have hope... hope that something will kill me!  Hahahaha  But, not yet, not tonight.  No such luck.  I'll have to work harder at this.  Yes, a bike, a woman, children, in-laws, grand children, great grand children.  One has to hope!

Goodnight.  Oh, sure, laugh, damn you.