Still awake.

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It is 14:30, or 14:28, depending on which clock is right.  Bah!  Thought I'd check the last device... 14:29!  Never mind.

Ah... walked away for a bit.  An hour?  Time flies while I... lose track of things.

Almost want more food, but not really.  I did have more bone broth.  Out of cream to add.  But did have butter, and sour cream.  Tasty.  Oh, and some carolina reaper.  The thing about that, is when it is in other foods, which have cooled a bit, it's a lot... less active.  In a hot drink?  It's more potent.  Oh, but I... don't mind.  I am grateful to have a bit of actual heat from time to time.

Mostly, when I eat those peppers, I just get some... flavor.  But, in this broth?  I get some real heat.  I can feel it, not just taste it.  I... like that.

Struggling to stay awake.  So tired.  I am hoping to be up another hour.  Ugh.  I'll feed Sassy one last time, then go to bed, as close to 17:00 as possible.

I have been trying out the heated vest today.  Not bad.  I think it will do.  Heated pants tomorrow.  Hmm?  Oh, I don't really need them for around the house.  I am just considering getting out, on the motorcycle.  They... might help with that.  This year, or next.  As well, I finished off some of my layering.  Should be in good shape any time I might get out.

Though, even spring can be a bit tight.  With wind and waterproof outer layers, a base layer, mid layer, and the electrics, I should be able to handle quite a lot.  Or... I am hoping.  And, I have enough battery storage to handle, say, three days of eight hour of use for my electric kit, easily.  I think I have a few more battery backups around as well.  Yes, I... have... storage.

Daydreaming.  Some... woman.  One I knew... biblically?  Sort of.  She wasn't one who seemed important, until she was gone.  She wanted to love, and be loved.  And, we did.  Until... we didn't.  What a shame.  It isn't about, just about, sex.  But that has something to do with it.  I have known some wonderful women.  I have dropped some, a few have dropped me.  The world changed... if I was a bit gunshy.  Lost too much too soon.  Still, I... wish I could have held onto one of them.  Ah!

At least I have fond memories.  Her feel, her size, shape.  The way she moved.  Each one, to be honest, was different.  No two were close to the same.  In some way, that makes it worse.  Oh, in general, like a house is a house is a house?  Sure.  But, that... also isn't true.  Less so with women.  Strange tics, odd ways, beauty that was unique to each.  The way their hair moved, or held.

I am grateful to have loved some of them.  I just wish... something had stuck.  It would be good to die in a woman's arms, know her tears, but have her set up for some comforts... or the potential of it.  Ah well.

Ribs still hurt.  A lot.  A day down hasn't helped.  But it will.  A few days down, the weekend.  Maybe into next week?

But, I want to keep going, do more.  Beside just getting the room in order, sorting clothes, towels, bedding, and else?  I'd like to finally get to sewing.  Maybe just squares, for quilts?  But I'd really like to try to make some t-shirts.  So as to have them fit just right, and made of materials which don't stain, perhaps are less likely to shrink, and last a little longer?

Yes, I want to, finally, get to some sewing.  If I get it set right, I can sew on days I can't do more.  Rather than gaming?  It's an idea.  Though, mind you, there are days I can't even game.  So, there will be days I can't sew.  Further?  Sewing is an expensive hobby.  It just is.

But... if I can get the laundry dealt with, up and way.  And then sort through the upstairs more fully, completely.  I can set up sewing stations.  Even ones I take down when finished, but can put back together quickly.  I really am geared for some serious sewing.  Everything is ready.  Good machines, extra needles, kit and caboodle, and cloth and thread.  Just... to have the right space, and setup, and... then to get to it.

Later.  Or goodnight.