Yea?

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Look, I was graced with suffering, and pain.  And... I took it like any red-blooded American man, from my time, should.  Regardless of my... many troubles aside.  Pain, and being useless in the world, is... difficult.  I tried just about everything, save a great height.  Since nothing else worked, I feared becoming a broken... thing... or more broken.

Some think I seek it?  Or... want it?  I assure you, that... isn't a truth.  I... might be willing to take it all the way, take it.  And, now, even though I hurt at what I call a four, pretty much every day.  And... more now?  I accept the cross, and thank God for the opportunity to learn from these things.  Well, and I contemplate Christ on the cross.  And what else He endured and yet endures?  No?  Has man stopped sinning?  Then... He yet endures.

Compared, I have it easy.  Even if my four, on a ten scale, is probably more like an eight.  Why... let them worry.  Anything they might offer me I wouldn't take.  I... have apsirin, and excederin.  And... I allow those once or twice a week, or a few more times if I... am already hurting and double down.  Which... I have done.

Yeah, I... go through things.  I... come back out.  I get better.  And... I... go do it again.  And, yet, I thank God for each opportunity to get back up.  Someone is thinking something, and more.  But this will do.

Goodnight.