When to bed?

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No real clue.  After 17:00, before 21:00?  Hmm, more like between 15:00 and 19:00?  I... just can't know.  Sleep was very good.  Immediate, solid, airtight, until waking just a few before midnight.

Slept wand woke warm, but not hot.  Neither getting too cold or hot through the night, if warming as I woke up.  The house is open, windows cracked anyway.  It was up to nearly 70 yesterday, when I looked.  Can't remember if I looked earlier or later though.  Either later morning or early to middle afternoon.

The flowering bushes are in bloom, the scent is quite nice.  Any pollen producers still at it aren't the ones that affect me.  Though, maybe, the reason I had a seeming allergic problem earlier in the spring was due to a cross breeze, too early in the season, when it was still a bit chill.  That... does things to the nose, sinuses, and such.  Or... can.  Because I would think the pollen count would still be astronomically high?  Wet, cool, dark, but just warm enough for blooming things to explode with their pollen production.  More so now than even then?  Probably?  Different kind of pollen though?  I don't know these things.

Oh, it's been... since the burrito I brought home that I have eaten.  Well, some olives.  Not from Cyclades, mind you, though they will do.  So, what, since Wednesday?  I think so.  And I ate early that day.  So... five days?  I... really should get back to food.  

Not that I need food.  I am still overweight.  Even if I am back to 226, I have... thirty pounds to go?  Twenty to forty, without a doubt, before I am back to some sort of trim by which to either build off, or stay within that as a trim.  Amazing, really.  I... truly thought 240 would be good.  Nope.  Yes, yes, still a bit butthurt about it.  At least not physically, or goal-wise, troubled by it.  

When I can get back to just cooking regularly, it'll come off easily.  I know how to do it, I know how it works, and I am... used to that particular saddle now.  Losing the weight won't be an issue.  And, I don't even mind a cheat meal from time to time... fully out of even keto, or simply within regular keto (as opposed to full on carnivore).  

I have found cheat meals help, at some point.  If you are doing your diet perfectly, and weight loss has absolutely stopped.  But you are eating enough calories, roughly, but not too many?  Consider eating... whatever you can o.d. on.  But!  Just ONE meal, or even day.  No longer.  The bump can help... reset your motabolism.  Eat clean.  Don't go to McDonalds, or eat highly processed food.  Avoid seed oils, and the junk.  But... fruits?  Veggies?  Clean forms of carbs, perhaps slower ones like real whole wheat or other types of real breads?  Maybe even real pasta.

For me, though, I don't even like real pasta anymore.  My last woman was right.  It... once you get away from it for long enough, and your body metabolizes differently, and your taste buds reset?  It... tastes like cardboard, and sits in the gut like it.  But, I have found alternatives that don't bother me, my gut, my diabetes, and add texture... if little else.  You... will... have to get used to these things.  Though palm rice or "pasta" is a little easier to start, if also a bit higher in carbs.  Getting from poison to not, and something to almost literally nother (miracle noodles, and expensive), takes time.

With this many days of whole day fasting in a row, I might be able to just go right back to carnivore.  Oh, and I'm telling you?  If you need more fat?  Butter is okay.  But a lot of it is... questionable.  I think they use soured cream, for a lot of it.  And, then, let it sit until it is bittered... rancid.  Just... I... think so.  Or, people don't use it fast enough.  But duck fat?  You keep it in the fridge, it's still liquid, it is fresh (that I have found, and stays well), and it is so much better with mouthfeel and other things, that it is worth the price.  Expensive?  Up front.  But a tablespoon dose, while cooking a steak or burger, will do.  Or add a few more.  By the dose, it... is affordable.  And a more wonderful fat, that doesn't give my nausea.  Just... saying.

Lard?  Hard to find lard which hasn't been processed at high temps (very bad), and doesn't taste like pork from the '70s.  Tallow?  I'm... never sure about that, either.  And they aren't being honest.  Big companies don't have to tell you, these days... anything they don't want to tell you.  But duck fat seems... better.  Trust?  I... trust nothing.  I just trust some things more, by taste, texture, senses, and such.  Fooled?  Who... isn't.  Is it just a matter of how, at this point?

Tonight?  No.  But I will try to get the freezertop cleared, a shower, and laundry going.  I buzzed the whiskers, finally, yesterday?  I think, Saturday morning.  Two days ago now, depending on... how time/days are counted with variations in sleep.  So I might even do a safety razor shave today.  Just... With the dyed hair and weight loss, a clean shave makes me look that much younger.

When a mid 30 year old (American, Caucasian) woman pushes a teen male cashier out of his place, while making a burrito, so as to have more face to face time?  And... a trim, neat, petite, attractive one?  Whatever you are doing, as you near sixty?  Keep doing it.  *wink*  That was just one of my recent... encounters.  Still?  No.  But I... am flattered.  Flattery just really won't get you anywhere, with Spock.

Hmm?  Oh, coffee water should be hot enough.  I fed Sassy.  I'll check her litter, but cleared that out earlier... totally fresh.  But her water needs changed.  Though she rarely drinks, if that isn't the point.  I like changing her water ever few days, for those rare times when she wants water.  And, I could turn the laundry over, or redo what is in.  Bleh.  Later.