About bedtime.

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I didn't get to work today.  Fasting, extended fasting, is having a deleterious effect.  More just slowing down thought, as much as tiring the body.  A few more days, and I'll begin eating again.  I'll pull steak and burger out of the freezer tomorrow.  Let it thaw overnight, and begin eating.

On the good side, blood sugar is 78 tonight.  I finally broke the 130 range (when I didn't eat poorly and jack it to the two or three hundred ranges, bleh) it was sticking at.  Which is the largest part of whyfor the fast.  As well, I had the first bm in days.  Without eating, I was sort of surprised.  Just one fatted coffee today, and five cans of water.  Curious what the weight will be tomorrow.  I can't remember how many days since I ate, but it's... been a while.

Now, when I eat, if I can get back to eating regularly, I will begin taking medicine again.  Not... immediately.  A few days in, if I am sure I can eat regularly, more or less.

Today is the day to change my bandage.  I am hoping to get to it as I go on up to bed.  Nothing fancy.  Oh, but on the good side?  Between using honey on the wound, and the antibiotics, my skin around the wound isn't sore.  I am pretty sure that was infection?  Just... wondering.

The body is a bit sore.  Without eating, and running the last week pretty hard, my ribs are just sore as the dickens.  Everything else feels pretty good.  The bladder, or u.i. tract infection, seems clear.  The wound hasn't been hurting.  Things seem good.

I had a visitor tonight.  I spoke with him about the objectives for the house, and how much work is required.  And laid out a timeline.  He asked if he would be required to pay for parts.  I... had to laugh.  I will right something, contractual?  Just in case I die, so he gets paid, if the work is finished or he will finish it.  To make the house more valuable for sale.

No, I need to get in and speak with my bank, about a loan.  The goal is to get more than will probably be needed.  But to use as little as possible, while doing a right job.  No real pay, upfront, for the work.  But, if money is needed, there may be some early payouts.  But that will come off the end.

I want to hit certain things first.  To have more function in my home, before I go.  Getting the other bathroom working would be quite good.  Getting the dishwasher right.  Though too, some aesthetics, like washing the outside, and painting that.  Though clearing out the living room, front room, spare bedroom, master bedroom, and kitchen?  Then getting new carpeting, and new flooring in the kitchen, before winter?  A bit of a race.  I will have to put a lot in to get that done.  Not sure, even if I can push, and he helps as much as I have suggested, there is enough time.

On my own time, I'd like to clear the shoots, from trees, and remove trees from where they shouldn't be growing.  And, finish clearing the outbuildings.  Possibly putting the roofing on one of them.  Though... it depends on a loan coming through.  Of which some will be used to close out other debts.  Complicated, but possible.

The goal is to have it on the market by, say, March.

A new central air and furnace?  The cleaning will be hired out, to some degree.  When areas get cleared.  And, will probably be kept up by hire.  I can't keep it up.  Not alone.  New screen doors?  New carpet upstairs?  As well, I hope to sell some things, as I get to and through things.  I may even outsource selling, for a percentage.

I have some nice things.  Things that won't travel.  Can't get full price, but could get a portion.  I could see between five and ten thousand, on things to let go.  Who knows, with any certainty, in these times.  But... those who want, will be happier to pay a lower than new price for a working, in good order, item.  Times are tight... tighter than tight.

Anyway... It's about bedtime.  It is 56 out there, or was around midnight.  Midnight thirty?  Something.  It is 73 in the front room.  Humidity is outrageous, but... It dumped a ton of water out there today.  It's middle August, not too unusual.  Though I have to say, I haven't seen it rain that hard in a very long time.  That was a rare one.  Not one a century though, more like a once every three or four years?  It was wonderful to see though.  I... loved that.

Goodnight.  Oh... a few songs which caught my attention.

And... the type of woman I am seeking?  I... found her once, maybe twice if I lost her once, and let her go for what I thought were right reasons once.  Is it... fair to seek such a one again?  Is it even possible?  I don't care.  Those... are the rules I am setting forth.  Yes.  Because I said so.  Either her analog, or no woman.

Yes, goodnight.