Dreaming of Genie?

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All night long.  Once you find your way to the light side, sometimes it's just as difficult, but in a different way.  Amazing.  Such an odd thing, but okay.

Just dreams.  Even so, sleep was very good.  The house is staying moderate.  I don't know what it got down to, last night, but it is 68 this afternoon as I wake.  Outside.  Indoors, upstairs and down, near me, in the main, etc, it is 72.  Very strange, but okay.  It's a good fall, or start to fall.  Today.

However, weather is erratic.  Cold here, now, warm then, possibly getting hot from time to time.  I can adjust, and faster than anticipated again.  Mostly.  Though it is much easier with a steadier decline.  A few weeks ago, 72 was freezing to me.  Today, I am at where 72 is nicely warm.  Almost hot.  Went through some bumps and hiccups, if the first few drops were fast and steep, and irregular.  As soon as it would drop, it would go back up within a day.

Struggles are good.

Blood sugar is 131.  I'll toss the tomatoes.  Not sure if the other veggies are a problem.  Will see.  Last night I was so hungry I had to eat.  It did get me to pull chicken, burger, and gizzards out of the freezer.  Gizzards might be ready.  I looked everywhere.  Salad wasn't going to do it.  Not, at least, without something.  Ah, cans of tuna were found.  I had one, about six ounces?  With the salad.

It was enough.  But I actually needed to eat.  That is such a rare thing.  As a fact, that is the first time I have had a need to eat in months.  Usually, even if feeling slightly peckish, I could make do with water, or a fatted coffee, or even and mostly just go without.

I'll bet it was the tomatoes.  The thing with carbs, is it drives hunger.  So... that was the deal?  Probably.  Amazing how much some foods drive people toward obesity.  Look at me, 211 and change, last I checked.  Still overweight, by a lot.  It's going on a year now, a hundred pounds off, and I still have a belly.  Brutal.

Then again, I thought I had stopped losing weight.  And, I did, for a bit.  Food was off, for a while, from the accident.  But even when I got back on the diet, it took my body a while to get back to burning fat.  It didn't just slip back to it.  Which is why people give up on carnivore (that, and it's hard, so they cheat, then they don't count that).  The diet has to be in place, going for a while, before it will begin taking off fat.  

I can't cheat much, and carefully.  Buns, perhaps, at In-n-Out, but not fries!  Not soda!  Or veggies, but not tomatoes or other fruits!  Someone had a basket of apples, from their tree, at church the other day.  They were the little greens I remember so fondly from childhood.  I so wanted to take a few, but know better.  Apples, even these, are probably pretty much sugar.  While it was a store bought, I compared the sugar spike from an apple and a snickers bar.  The apple was worse (red, storebought, but...).  So... no.

I did find a new game, though.  But ugh is it a pain.  Not sure I will stick with it.  Pacific Drive.  It has a lot going for it, but it is a pain to play.  The interfaces are messed.  Too many controls, in pull down, sideways, or levered panels of options.  It's... a bit of a mess.  It has potential, though.  I'll see if I can make heads or tails of it.

On to waking.  And trying to get Genie out of my head.  Later.