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Well good enough. Whether I like it or not, it is what it is. I didn't get to bed until past two. How far past? Maybe to three, but I think not quite. I did set the alarms, for five and seven. Not sure I remember the five. Didn't remember the seven, but must have been doing snoozes, as I started remembering the alarms at about 7:20. I heard two? Maybe three, snooze alarms. Then... nothing. I finally rolled over and checked. It was after 8:20. I finally got rolling, up, and out, at 8:30.
As mentioned, not perfect, but not all that bad. I have no choice but to take it, and will take it gladly. It is good enough, for the conditions.
Same with weight and blood sugar. The latter is 101 fasting. I should probably eat earlier, that second meal. Say, four hours after the coffee and main meal, have sardines, or maybe cheese and cured sausage, sardines, a salad of some sort, or... something. The former is 220.0. Whatever. Weight is a secondary concern. To get diabetes under full control is the main goal.
As mentioned, I had given up on losing weight. Looks like I am back to just... letting that be. Then again, I didn't do anything to advance that. Gaining control of diabetes just happened to cause some moderated weight loss. As of today, I am ninety five pounds down from my recent high. There was a time I was at 415 pounds, but that was quite a long time ago. That was a woman, who kept me very well fed.
While trying to wake up, I was dreaming, of waking, of dealing with the alarm, of it being nine, even noon. Crazy what conniptions the mind can go through while trying to end run sleep, or trying to wake with too little sleep.
Oh, the reason? I have completely restarted the game. I would like to start that one last mission, from the start, with the list. To see if I can figure out what I missed, or if the game is broken, or the devs are screwing with some people. DEI hires do nothing but track those who know how worthless they are, and attack them, with the approval of head offices. Though, some of the white self haters are in on it too. Yes, they are that petty, evil.
Coffee is already brewing. I should cut off a hank of that steak, and get it going too. I'll grouse for something else to eat. Might not find anything today. I'll... start a grocery list. See if I can put together a salad dressing, some sort of salad works, and look for sausages which aren't corrupted chemi-foods. Fried up, chopped, on a salad, brots are excellent. Good with eggs, too. But they all have sugar, dextrose, this or that acid, and other really unnamable things. Even the "fresh store made". Why make them fresh, then poison them?
On with my day, morning even! Good day, or morning first.
Holding steady 5# either side of 270# , haven't had "shaky" hands for awhile, starting to get "mini" leg cramps and swelling(water retention) again (why?) haven't needed fluid pills for well over a year, what changed? It's all rhetorical, I don't expect answers, they usually lead to more questions.
ReplyDeleteLook at you, Nuking out his phone, good luck.
Have you checked blood sugar? Just buy a tester, and some strips. Accu-check, guide me, is a very good one, if you need an exact make and model. Not requiring it, just suggesting it. Better than running into that problem at some point.
ReplyDeleteAs to cramps? I got those, still sometimes do. But I found a way to get out of it. No, not smoking in the boys room. Mega mineral supplements and electrolytes. Now that I am off the water pills, mostly, it is less of a problem. Crops up, from time to time, then I just hit it with one or the other, or both. For a few days. I try not to take supplements, unless taking the waterpills for a bit, or having issues (like vitamin C (real stuff, not the fake easy buy stuff), though I do try to take vitamin B super complex. That... for whatever reason, comes in handy. I eat meat, but maybe not enough.
As to changes? Your body is always changing. It's a moving target. Your hungers, and thirsts, change. Being ahead of them, as much as possible, is good. But you won't win that game. Think of your body as... hmm... a woman! It always wants what you don't, when you don't. And it always wants more. You can train it, unlike a woman. But... like a dog, it only does as taught when you are around, for sure. :p
Nuked my phone? Not yet, but working on it.