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Still, some fever behind the brow, aches and pains but milder, some strange hardness to my gut rather than nausea. Better. My foot is still killing me. I forgot, somehow, while checking all the other symptoms while waking, and put my foot down to walk on it regularly. Mistake.
Like putting my foot into a bear trap. The pain was a massive wall of hurt, that shot up my leg and hit my brain, almost causing a scream of agony. In spite of my attempts to be quiet when in even grave pain, I... almost slipped. Catching myself at the last instant before a horrific cry burst forth. Agony, oh how I know thee... bitch. :p Hey, I... deserve that grant. You have no idea.
Still, I got past it, up, and going. Dressed, if only properly enough for around the house. I don't wear pj's out, save in dire circumstances. Even if my pj's are really cotton sweats, not cinched at the ankles. Still, used for pj's? Pj's. And pj's aren't to be worn out... save in dire circumstances, great need, and/or me being too crippled to do more, but having duties, operations, jobs, to perform where mere presence is enough.
It is 16 out there, this morning, F... American temp. But amazingly beautiful. Orange red glow. Dots of clouds. But still clear. And the mountains snowed over like frosted massive piles of chocolate cake... double... no triple chocolate cake, with cream cheese frosting! Sorry, but it's how I think.
Sleep was good. The electric blanket sure helps. Though, for whatever reason, last night I tossed my blankets. I had to wake up twice, or three times, because this was there, that was here, nothing would stay. Then again, I dreamed of fighting demons, and the devils I couldn't seduce to the side of light. All fun and games until a blanket opens a leg to the bitter blight of chill. :p Family, what can you do. As above, so too below. All the way to the basement.
You do realize though? God can still tell them what to do, and they will obey? Everyone who thinks they will escape God, by joining the other team? Simply doesn't understand. It's... the Globetrotters versus the Generals. It isn't murderous enemies. If... one side really does hate you, while the other side wants what is best but accepts your decision on the matter. Demons are fully at God's disposal. Devils too. It's just they are no longer accepted at God's side. And, when given a choice, choose other than God's will. God just won't micromanage. That's... a democrat and female thing. Not a man, or God, thing. Amen.
Still, sleep, when I had it, was good. And the fights, I think, went pretty well. God doesn't really approve, understand? Like parents, with boys who fight. Aye.
Well, so I say. Who really knows. One can only suspect, on some things.
Cold, though. At 16, it really is chilly. Out for certain, in to a degree. There simply is no escaping the fullness of cold, especially at elevation. It's... the air is too thin to hold the heat. Even when it reads 'warm', or 'hot', it doesn't feel like it. Near pot bellied stove, perhaps. But not with a standard furnace. The air is too thin to contain the warmth well.
Shoes, again. Back to them. I don't like them in the house. But they work with the toe. It had gotten better, and they hurt to wear with the swelling, so a few days off for good behavior. But, back to it. I don't mind. One or two, maybe three or four, steps forward, one to four back. Eventually, we take our last step back, and find ourselves six feet under. Until then, it's all fun and games. :)
On to the morning. Tea should be ready. Chia in it, this morning. Yeah. Have a great morning, stay warm, realize if no one else loves you (if they probably do, you big baby), God loves you. He really does. Like the best imagined father you ever hoped to have. There is that. Even for us darklings, if we can hear we abide. The Doom abides. :)
When it gets close to 0F the air is dry and not able to hold the heat. Grandparents always ran a humidifier in the cold of winter. Though it sounds like you have a strange house, heat doesn't rise etc. No humidifier, a boiling pot of water might help, just remember to turn it off. At altitude I'm sure the air is dryer, and feels colder. May need some water vapor in the air to hang onto those BTU's. More experiments.
ReplyDeleteHumidifier just might work. Putting vick's vapor rub in the thing, when illness is upon me, might also be good. I hated the stuff, as a kid. My mother would slather the stuff on us, when ill. Who knew, but she was right. That stuff is good to keep on hand. Or, at least I think so now. And, works in a humidifier well.
ReplyDeleteYes, I'd like to do the water kettle thing. Thing is, I am sure I would forget. I think the range I have has some method to time the thing, at least oven... not sure about burners. I'll... check some things. Or look at humidifiers.
Hmm, I do have a humidifier, actually. It's technially a massive swamp cooler, but didn't work well for that. But... does pump moisture into the air. I could try it. If I do worry, that at this elevation, and in this house, the moisture might well cause it to be colder.
Still, worth finding out. I don't mind taking risks, to find out. Thanks for the notion.
They have a vick's liquid, for adding more easily to standard humidifiers! That could work. Might not use it all the time, but... sometimes it would be handy. When it gets really dry, or I get a sore throat, cough, such. Nice.
ReplyDeleteLove me some Vicks.
ReplyDeleteFor some dumb reason I slept without my c-pap, my throat is sore from obvious snoring... guess I still need it.
Small plate of hamburger, and a slice of sourdough. Working on a Pomegranate (working the operative word) Lots of fiddling for a bit of juice.
I don't do pomegranate. I absolutely never saw the point. While I have become more of a gourmet than gourmand, which would fit with pomegranates, if there ever was a fruit that did? But... I've also gone carnivore. Those bits might as well be coolaid filled grapes. Nothing but sugar. Still, enjoy?
ReplyDeleteIf you lose say, fifty, but definitely a hundred, pounds? You would toss the c-pap. As mentioned, I couldn't use one. And glad that I couldn't. I always thought they were a way to make sure people die. When addicted to them, if the power went out? How many would die. And they are doing everything to maker sure power goes out. Engineered through bureaucracies. Death panels, of another sort? Bah!
I just don't trust them. But, if you need it, now, use it. Just... have electrical back up, and enough fuel to run it for a while. They really do want you dead, if they want to pick your bones, and wallet, and insurance, clean before you die.
Well, thank you Mr. sunshine.
ReplyDeleteI've backup power. The fruit... never attacked a whole one myself, trying it now.
Already lost over 120#, maybe that's not enough.
The fruit is fiddly enough to occupy hands and mouth while browsing. Messy, little return, I'd never actually buy one... but it's there. Not to live on, but a passing treat.
Since when have you lost 120? That would be enough, unless you are still a hundred over? Not... being cruel. I was north of four hundred at one time. So, have come down... about two hundred. I wasn't clear until I got to the lower 220s/240s, and maintained that for a while. Changes come slowly, more so at our age.
ReplyDeleteYes, sunshine superman at that! :p That might take you back a bit.
Well, as I said, enjoy. If I had a wifu, and she brought said home, no doubt I would disappear it, or other such, from time to time. Women! Men? Cow! Pig. :p
Uuuummmmmm, I was over 400#, I'm at 280 now, I aint great with math , but I think the numbers hold up.
ReplyDeleteI'm not doubting that you lost the weight, just wondering when? I lost my first hundred pounds about... twenty years ago? Fifteen? So... while I count it, in the big picture, I don't count it in the current picture? That's... all I'm asking. When did you lose it.
ReplyDeleteIf you lost it last year, three years ago? Then it sort of counts. If it was before that, then it sort of doesn't?
And, for me? For health to improve, it was mostly in the last hundred pounds. Not perfect, yet. But I still have a bad heart, poorly function liver, and beat up kidneys. Nothing I do will completely fix any of that. I am better, but... that is very comparative.
Oh, and after losing the last hundred, it took a few months to even begin noticing a difference. I'm curious what things will be like in a year, or two, if I can keep the weight off.
Not messing with you, just... checking something.
I got checked in to the hospital because my wife and daughter saw my "yellow" (liver failure). two and a half years ago. I was over 400#. Now at 280# no BP meds, no fluid pills, Phuq the farmacy...
ReplyDeleteNever been yellow, that I know of... kidney, last I heard, was down to level two, from a high (bad) of level three failure. Docs seem to use different terminology, never can tell from doc to doc. But they were getting close to pushing me toward dialysis.
ReplyDeleteBut, okay, Yes, that counts. You had said you lost weight, but not when... before. I just was curious.
I'm off bp meds, though not sure I should be. But I need waterpills, and potassium because of the waterpills. Though I refuse statins, or such. NO!
You might be doing better, faster, than I am/was. Because I still have major health issues. If you are healthy(er), maybe you will feel better sooner. Difficult to know. But, still, losing that last hundred would really see you in a different light. If, even then, it will... take a while, at the lower weight, to feel it. Did for me.
Not being pushy, just saying. You are half way there.