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Three thirty.  I think I was awake until 20:30?  19:30?  Some time in there.  I was pushing to be awake, then wasn't sure a visit was going to happen.  Then it did.  But I was on a bit of a push still.  It... takes a while for me to change directions, with intent.  I live an odd little life, do my best, but it's... different.

Waking at 2:20.  Able to sleep another hour, exactly.  Then the eyes opened, and that was that.  Fed Sassy, had a fatted coffee, am now gaming to try to wake a bit.

With utilities tended, I can start... taking care of some things in the house.  Or... so the theory goes.  Trash out.  I had stopped.  Putting some out, but not taking it to the curb.  Wasn't sure they would pick it up.  While this won't catch me up completly, it will catch me up most of the way?  Dunno, will find out.

Will have witnesses, proving I paid now though too.  No messing with numbers.  Not... saying... for sure that happened.  Just... something fishy happened, one way or another.  Money gone(?), no payment logged, can't focus to find out.  Just... I'll... take care as I may.  It's difficult to be so close to death I can smell it, but not to be able to cross over.  It hurts to live, in this state.  For decades.

Some would "help" by killing me, or murdering me for what I say, think, do?  Or don't.  I think some have tried, are still trying.  Good luck.  *grins*  I hope I don't catch you.  If... I think that is the least of your problems, even should that happen.  It's not my will, but His, that you should tend.  Have you ever seen a child try to sneak up and do something wrong, and just watched?  Knowing, a) it would fail b) you know c) etc, etc, etc?  Well, understand, God is watching.  You can't hide from Him, His sight is perfect, clear, absolute.  He knows.  As I said, I am the least of the worry for any said sort.

He watched as I did so, tried.  Just said "no", back in line.  And so it went.

No I abide.  Like the Dude?  Who knows.  But not myself, Him.

Hmm... chia seed breakfast in a bit.  That really warms me up, but without doing any harm.  All good.  Sometimes it tastes fishy, some days it taste chemical of nature, other days it doesn't have a flavor?  It's a strange thing.  Oh, I should have cinnamon around.  That's a nice add.  I have tried other "healthy" adds, but didn't find them efficacious, so ceased.  Neither did it improve my lot, nor did it add a pleasing flavor.  Scratch such quickly, though fun to try different things.

Well, on with my day.  Be well.