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Never sure how long feeling well will last. Though, that I feel better to start the day is always a hopeful sign. There is still some... minor aches, pains, and tiredness. It doesn't feel like death though. Forty years, or going on that, of this. The last two years have been exceptionally good. If I still fall into pits of misery from time to time. Imagine feeling ill, off, tired, exhausted, achy, and hurting for years at a time.
You know, like when you are just off, from the flu or something. Fevers and chills at times, if rarely. More that awful feeling like you want to throw up, you just don't feel good. Food can help, if you can get it down. Or... it could make it worse. Depends on the time, and you never quite know which it will be.
The last few days, weeks, months have been like that? Off and on, better and worse, more than usual for the last few years. As mentioned, today is slightly better. It may just be bad air. I may see if I can vent the house, a bit, without freezing myself out. That might really help, if it doesn't cause pneumonia. Meh.
Coffee in a bit. Then brushing my teeth. Then... steak in a bit. The goal is to push through a bit, get ready, even if I can't do anything. Get dressed and ready, as if I could get going. One day, before long, I will make it out. Not terribly hungry, but food did me some good yesterday. Hoping it will help today again. Amazing what a bit of steak will do.
Just a third of it, if a huge steak. Large and double thick. Fried crispy, and just... the inside is raw. Absolutely wonderful. I do heat it in the over a bit, first, just to have it warmer on the whole. Now that I have figured out steak, it's more a matter of getting to the store often enough, and keeping it in stock. Well, and figuring out how to keep the pans clean. Ugh. I have serious limits.
Sassy was fed and her water refreshed right first thing. I haven't let her sleep with me for a few days. Off and on, off and on. Otherwise she... acts up. I hate having to be a jerk, but my choices keep her in line. Ugh. And, we get along this way better anyway. I definitely love the little furball.
Did I mention? She is the most gentle cat I have ever shared space with. Even when she is terrified, say when I pick her up and walk toward a door. She just lets me know that isn't what she wants, and I let her know I am just looking. She... has learned to trust me. After her being lost for several months, I won't take her out. If I go out, and she follows, I will make sure she comes in before shutting up. She just... doesn't... understand "outside". Yes, even when she is afraid, she just lets me know and I assure her. And that is enough for our time. I built trust, and have learned to maintain it. Her likewise, in her ways.
Hmm... on to coffee. Good morning, day, and such.
Very light supper yesterday morning, 1/4 salami& provolone sub, and shared 1/2 or more of the roll. Crappy mood, slight congestion, no appetite, great. Sweats then chills, nausea (several times this morning) (maybe I'm pregnant... really don't want to do all those interviews). Forcing down "gourmet"(yeah right, charge for the word) ravioli w/pesto sauce, two kinds mixed one is cheese filled the other something meat w/ something green. Been picking at it, re- warmed 4 times, cold again. Would have preferred chicken or beef over "pasta".
ReplyDeleteMaybe for fresh air, a property "perimeter" walk , with or sans cat, do take a tall walking stick if nothing more than stability on slippery ground. I don't know...
Not happy to hear. Am... satisfied? Not... in your conditions, limitations, or displeasures. Just that I am not perfectly alone in my own.
ReplyDeleteHmm, chicken. Not quite ready to thaw, as I'm not quite ready to make. But, it's on my mind.
I did just have the last of the sirloin. I'd call it cajun, a nice little sparkle of heat and else flavors, lending it a bit of chemical warmth to go with the mechanical warmth.
Oh, it was delicious. Thought I'd only be able to eat half. I was wrong. Though, it wasn't a third of the steak, as I had thought. More like forty percent. And some of it more fat than I was prepared to eat fully. Very nice though.
A walk. You know, I really should try to figure those out. I even have snow shoes, for around the place if needed. Night quite there yet. But walking sticks would be good. It's between freezing and thawing, with some snow down.
Be well my friend. Ease into a warm dry place, with warm dry clothes, and something nice like coffee or tea. Have you ever made chia "cereal" with tea? Now, I add whole raw cream, and my keto sweeteners, but it's amazing, and warming.
Hmm... you know... I ought to go out, cool off, then get back in for a bit of that to warm up. It's... nice to do one so as to earn the other? Be well.