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Of her. Several, though each dream it's own. She knows I won't be with her, outside of marriage. Even in dreams I can resist, usually, mostly. This time, a trick. We... were both wearing wedding rings. Both dreams.
Even so, I... knew we weren't married. It confused me. Perplexed me. I... like the idea she was trying to present. I liked that she went so far as to give in, at least to the idea? She seems real. Different faces, but same woman. Woman? Not sure she is what she seems, but she is feminine. Takes a trickster to know one? *grins*
I was able to remain celibate. Barely. Enjoyed being near her, even so. I'm not remaining chaste because there is anything wrong with sex, or women. I simply haven't found a woman I would trust to wed, who is interested back, or could afford. And, I don't want a woman I couldn't have children with. Too old, I keep hearing as a reply to that. Of course, one can hope. And, yet, that is the price. Without that, I won't bother.
A bit achy, but better? Mostly. I found some painpills without aspirin, took that. Did it help or did I just get better? I don't know.
I slept warmly enough. Well enough. Deeply enough. I even let Sassy up again, two nights in a row. She comes and goes, and helps me wake in the morning. She loves her breakfast. And, if she plays fair, when waking me, I see to it. No gagging to wake me, that is just rude. If she does that, she won't get fed for two hours after I wake. Sometimes she just doesn't care. Usually she minds her manners.
It was 22 out there this morning. But that didn't feel bad. After morning coffee, I am very warm, hot. Even so, I turned the furnace up, for Sassy. And... in hopes of that getting me to a shower sooner than later? As well, I'd like to get laundry going. My pj's are in need of washing. I wear them several nights in a row, in cooler weather. Though... sometimes even in hotter weather, once acclimated, though if also having trouble getting to things.
Oh... the number of trickster vids on display this morning caused some mirth. Not sure how that works, but it... certainly does. I'll... curate a small sampling, before too long, or tomorrow. Just... had to laugh. Curious what else might pop before long. Coincidence isn't a truth. Things happen because they are supposed to happen. These are created events, visuals, humor... if sometimes of the darker side. Meh.
Still slightly rough. Better though. I'd like some steak, before too long. Maybe veggies to go with it? Don't know, maybe. On to the day. Later.
Yesterday morning, after I'd checked in, I saw a Hummingbird buzzing our near empty feeders. I wasn't going to do anything with the feeders til closer to spring. If they are still around or passing through, oldest son and I filled our 9? feeders. about 7/8 of a half gallon. Will probably rotate through the feeders, getting them in the washer, some were fouled, some pristine, they all could use a wash.
ReplyDeleteSpotted the Hummingbird an hour ago, went to one feeder, drank, and flew away. Got what it wanted. Weird to see them around this time of year.
Having a nostalgic Navy "midrats" meal ... Leftover Mac-n-cheese, leftover chili, and a couple fried eggs. Sailor-fuel. Just missing the "bug-juice" and scalded coffee.
I'm having humming birds, of a different sort. I'll... show you in a bit. Loving their killing kindness... or... whatever that is. Fouling, yes, some of that, but... not... all of it. The past has a way of needing tending? *rictus grins*
ReplyDeleteNow you did it. I've been hungry all day, and for some of yesterday after eating. Did i eat yesterday? Now I have to eat something. Though, I think it will be steak, and maybe veggies? Or... just steak? I've got to eat now.
But, yes! Navy indeed. Especially if you had to push through, and miss a meal, with heavy things demanding attention. Midrats were golden, even if it was pot bottom sludge. Though, to be honest, the worst food I ate on subs was... pretty good. I only did surface duty a few times, and not as crew so had... a few... more options. Even mres if I had a few stowed. The brits had terrible food. Never ate in their chowhalls. Would rather eat army food, and I wouldn't eat that either. Bleh. Or... so my mind indicates.
Still, I... did like Navy chow, more so at sea. Never was on a US surface ship for more than a cruise though, I think. Just don't remember food. Air farce wasn't good, can't remember if marine or army food was worse. Might have depended on the day?
OMFG!
ReplyDeleteBrit. army chow... Rugby , Hong Kong, Brit army, after party (I have pictures!) Rugby clubhouse (evacuated to safety in wwII) Traditions!
Well into the drinking ,they bring out these, hot meal containers ODgreen Field delivered hot chow... HOT Chicken curry and rice... so hot it made you hiccup, damn good, so good in fact, I have a silent quest to find something similar in the states. I've tried several times to parallel the flavor... can't come close...
That sounds more catered than .mil chow? What I had, of their food, I'd not have again. Though, too, I'm not so keen on curry. I have an allergy to it. For me, it is like eating cactus, with tiny spikes everywhere. Takes weeks to normalize after that food... if they actually use curry. Some curries have no curry in them, if it's still not my favored.
ReplyDeleteThough, too? Eating curry, as a British food would be like eating Mexican, as an American food. Just... saying.
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