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I have the urge to throw up, go to the bathroom, and go to bed. None of the urges are strong enough to engage into action. But, with a mild if solid headache, sleep looks like the direction I will go. An attempt to hide from the headache, barring taking painpills. I have to Wednesday, and doubt I would take those even then, at this level of pain.
Strange thoughts and dreams through the night. Couldn't stay fully awake, if I couldn't sleep either. Day dreams? I... would say a mix. Odd, when Jesus enters the conversation, sometimes He becomes the only topic. Or the main one. Though, that can lead to other areas. And, is sometimes derived from previous notions.
I was thinking of my last woman. How she... saw things, tried to show me things. Things I rejected, outright, at the time. For I didn't want to... look around certain corners. Even if I suspected what was around them, and that perhaps I should. She wanted to see if I was self-aware, and more than just of flesh, here, and now (the latter two of a very relative sort of meaning... contemporary).
She either suspected, or knew, more. I'll... finish putting together what I was gathering on that. Or... not. That led to other thoughts. Then Him. He is often on my mind, or not far from it. Like a compass, only a living one? A bit more than that. At this point, it isn't about my soul, but about what it is He wishes. Not just for me, not even about me. At this point, it is more seeing where He seems to be guiding, and trying to find my way there, and do that.
As a cripple, as the nearly dead, it won't be building fences for this one, or taking down a grove for those, or helping roof a home. I'm doing good to be awake well enough to just... keep my car tags current. Or... shower. But, I can see, think, write. I can pray, be the best sort, even if a wrong sort. It isn't our rightness that will win the day. It is accepting we are wrong, and handing that in. If... trying to live rightly, as even a lefty? :p Sometimes, I swear, I almost hear His laughter when I stumble on a notion that might be right? Perhaps even wrong, but... the effort is shown?
Anyway... on to bed. Sleep well. Or have a super day.
Maybe headed to bed soon. Will see if I sleep the clock around now on my days off. No matter, Leftover burger from last night, dogs got the fries and most of the bun.
ReplyDelete"As the worms ate into his brain..." ~Floyd, Pink
Down 15-1700 (didn't look) woke 2120 when the "Pack" rumbled upstairs to bed, my normal wake is 2110 so I contemplated getting up, day off, so rolled over and doze off... 0400 damn, 12 hrs again...
ReplyDeleteHungry, may need to pull the trigger on some Omaha Steaks. used to get them alot then they annoyed me 'bout something?
"Brat" asked me to find mail order meat for our oldest son, haven't gone there yet, not ready for the avalanche of ads and "offers", but would be easy for us both. 1st world problems...
Jealous about the sleep. I'd gladly trade you, if you wanted less. Four to eight. I wake feeling poorly, then start feeling terrible again around bedtime, twelve to sixteen hours later. I can't push how long I am awake either. Crashing down, crashing up, miserable. But... working on it.
ReplyDeleteThose ads are horrible. Even look a product up, it seems, and nothing but days to weeks of ads. Amazon limits that, to some degree. But I don't think they do food.
I use iGourmet, sometimes. No ads bleed through, but they can be a bit pricey, and I've not been happy with their stuff. They have become fully, I think, Americanized. Even when a cheese, or salami, is made in a country that cares about food, it seems to be made with chit American fda allowed garbage. So... yeah... no.
Though, you could always look. At least they wouldn't have much advertising bleedback, and they... wouldn't be worse than other mid to higher tier packed foods. Quality? I don't do packed foods, other than I used to occasionally do pates and such. Which were good, if as I have said they have Americanized their ingredient lists.
Thankfully, I am not rich enough to have to worry about most first worlder problems. Not a complaint, just... an understanding. Then again, I don't work. Go figure. Even if it is for health reasons. So... yeah. :p
Food quality was always outstanding, they just got too "pushy" with the sales. Leave me alone... I'll buy what I need. I'd love to thaw a Fillet out now. Will have to "shop" later.
ReplyDeleteWork...sigh... won't get into it now.
I honestly didn't see them as worth the extra money. Then again, I live and have lived in ag heavy areas. Iowa has excellent steaks, especially at a regional chain. And Utah, I must admit, does pretty good. Better? Slightly different, being higher elevation, and drier of climate. But I'd call them simply equal but slightly different... like two really good beers, a solid pale and a real pilsner, or doublebach (or such).
ReplyDeleteBut... that's just me. Though, too, I don't see grass finished as truly better. It might be more (theoretically) environmentally friendly. But I see that as doa, from theory to the reals. So it isn't an issue I want influencing my food.
It's like diamonds. Not rare. Not valuable. But once they convinced women that it was a sign a man was worthy, or proved his love? They suckered a lot of people out of a lot of money for a shiny rock only good for industry.
A bitch? Indeed, captain. :p
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