Just not doing much or quickly.

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The highest I saw it outside was 90° or maybe 92°.  At the warmest, so far, the main is 72° and this front room is 76°.  The upstairs is probably 66°.  It was supposed to get into the high 90°s, possibly the 100°s.  Not here.  And I'm good with it.  Now, it doesn't get warmer even so until later.  And it is cooling off in a hurry.  At 18:20, it is down to 82°.  All doubly good.

The ducks seem to be splitting, naturally, into their various groups.  It had to happen.  I just hope there doesn't come a time of fighting.  My old drake, the last male indian runner, would lose.  And, yet, he wouldn't surrender without a fight.  The muscovy drakes are massive, three times his size, maybe more.  He wouldn't win, probably wouldn't survive.  So far that hasn't happened.

I was a bit surprised at the calories and such for short ribs.  Three of them, and a glass of milk plus half a cup of corn with butter was half of my daily calories.  That wasn't even a pound, that was about 9 ounces of meat is all.  I went light thinking it would be all good.  Oh, on the good side, I had planned to have that as the majority of my food today.  So it won't disturb my dietary peace.

I keep learning about the app, about food, so much surprises... baffles.  If I eat too much, at least I'll know it.  And, as mentioned, my absolute first goal is to be honest... as honest as I know how to be... about putting food in.  It seems to be bearing out though.  Sometimes a guesstimate is as close as it gets.  I don't know if it will truly lead to weight loss.  But if something can, along with keto, perhaps intermittent fasting, it would be this.  Now, with this and intermittent fasting, I could have a larger meal all at once.  I may intermittent fast a few days a week, do regular meals a few days a week, and completely fast two days a week, or three days every other week.  Some of it is ability.  I can't always do as planned.  But with variability, I might be able to keep up?  I can try.

I re-re-reset dishes a bit ago.  Yeah, moving slowly.  I checked on the ducks, which is how I noted they are grouping into breeds.  I thought I had noticed that, but couldn't be as sure until today.  This time I could more plainly see the whole particular area... no hidden spots where the other ducks might have been.  I am sort of surprised I haven't seen any of the ducks in the trees.  Yes, they can fly up and roost.  I don't think the drakes can, but... maybe with extra and slow, plodding, effort they can join the ladies.

I would like to hit the dishes, maybe have a last fatted coffee or tea, and then... no nap.  I'll stay up until the ducks are ready to rest, then just go on to bed.  I may try to do a full rosary tonight, then do more prayer.  I am reading about meditative prayer, trying to get that going.  I won't work on that tonight, but will work on that tomorrow, and Sunday.  As well, I may see about getting to church sometime soon.  And confession.  Actually confession first.  It's... been a while.  Then Mass can be properly attended.  I am going to try to pray more through the day.  Perhaps even put in on a timer.  Two rosaries, a regular longer not prayer, short morning prayers, and a few fivers through the day, perhaps a fifteen minute to half hour set aside for meditative prayer?  Something.  There is a lot of time in the day, you just have to use it, consciously.

Later.  Or good night.

I keep trying.

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A few more things.

Part of the dishes were done.  Half.  The rest had to be reset.  Moving slow.

Then I tried to do some checking for phones online.  But I couldn't get through.  I was able to reset the password, and the four digit security number, but then it wanted a security question answer.  I have never set that up, and it should have allowed me to sign in without that.  As with the bank, I think my phone company is keeping me off.  Essentially, the American version of the Chinese social credit system is in play.  It is corporate instead of state run.  Mostly.  The state does have some involvement though, thus ssd drop.

I then tried to contact my friend.  The contact which might have had her information suggested she wasn't there anymore, and managers suggested they didn't recall her.  I can't tell if that is her trying to be hidden, or if she hasn't been there in many years.  Last I heard, and not many years ago, she was still there.  Time does have a way of catching up with us though.  I have one last means of potential contact.  It's... unlikely.

Oh, and someone keeps visiting blog posts, where music has been removed.  Some or all songs are gone.  I am assuming they are doing this to let me know they are successfully attacking my blog.  I wouldn't have known, otherwise.  I almost never go back and look.  So be it, but... it... has led me to contemplate some changes.

It is impossible to know who friends really are.  Evil masquerades as friends, in thought and action.  It's just the way the world works.

Dinner is being cooked.  I hope to have that, then maybe a nap, and then back to a bit of work.

Later.

I just can't get out today.

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I... just... can't.  So very tired.  Still, hoping to do a few things.  Dishes, a shower, more dishes set up, a meal... the grill is going for that last.  I sorted my amazon order.  It looks like almost everything is here.  I'm not in much mood to do more with it.  And, I misunderstood some things.  I ordered what I thought was a standard amount of some things, and it was less.  It will do, for now.

I got an excellent price on bulk tomato paste in the tube, and anchovies in the tube.  Metal tubes, they last.  And I use them, will use them more now.  If I have some folk I know will use some and so will offer them a few.  Family people... can always use a bit extra.  As well, my darning egg and wool arrived.  I will begin going through my older woolens, and spot repairing for winter.  I've not done this before.  My last lady friend started doing this, and it... got me to thinking.  So, here I am.  Thanks, AA!

I have been meaning to call her.  I've been running into difficulties.  Of course, as with all numbers, I lost hers... along with my old phone.  I have her address, or... the address she had when last I knew.  But, then, I realized I knew where, probably, assuming not too much has changed, where I might contact her.  So... actually, after a few setbacks there, I may try to call there again today.

I will have to try to get the phone set up tomorrow or Monday.  Way too tired.  On the good side, between this and that, I have done a good bit of work.  The cave is still very rough, but everything is moving along rather well.  If I can get dishes done, and the bathroom and surfaces complete, yet this weekend, I will be way ahead of last week.  Way, very far, ahead.  In just about every way.  Laundry to cleaning to dishes to groceries, to... you name it.

Ah, the ducks which might have been male or female?  All but sure they are female.  They were on platforms about seven feet off the ground, in the hutch, when I opened up today.  While males can fly, they don't fly well or high.  Too big.  This all be ensures that my upward bound runaways are females.  I'm not sure why the smaller females haven't flown.  Perhaps they simply haven't grown fast enough to gain flight yet.  My guess is they will, all the muscovy femmes, nest up there.  I will have to consider putting up a loft type flat ladder, in order to collect some eggs.  It will give them a nice place to go broody though.  And they are meat birds, so... all good, mostly.  Still, a few eggs, since they lay even in winter where the indian runners don't, would be nice.

Later.

Calls, arrangements, and failures.

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I can't sign in to my bank.  So that is gone.

Blood sugar was higher, 165 fasting.  Not bad, given all my sins and excesses yesterday.  Today will be much better.  I did weigh before anything, if I didn't mention?  274.6?  I think so.  Anyway... I'll keep tracking.  Fasting may be much more viable.  Beside as a faith thing, it works well for losing weight and controlling diabetes.  Some gifts truly are elegant.

I was able to contact the V.A., but they couldn't just send test strips and a new glucometer.  The pharmacy is contacting my doctor.  There is that.  If that is odd.

And, I finally got through to my mortgage company.  It took a many efforts.  It kept failing to allow access.  And I will need to check on it, both online and by calling services through them, to make sure what is supposed to have happened has happened.  But, if it works, I am finally on automatic pay.  Further, I am putting more against the loan than is necessary.  It makes it about a fifteen year loan.  Though, too, I checked what would make it a ten year loan.  I am not sure I can afford that, but... I am... will be... looking that over.

Next, dishes.  If they are still warm enough.  Perhaps something to eat.  I'm not quite ready for a full day of fasting today.  Hmm, not sure what is thawed or otherwise easily available.  Duck eggs, but I'm not in the mood for that.  Eggs on salad though?  I'll figure something out.  I have found some of the packaging for return items.  And it sounds like my amazon order arrived.  It arrived while busy.

Dishes, a shower, a fresh shave, and then to town.  Ah, but food.  I am hungry.  Don't want to tempt myself with fast food.  As horrible as it might be, it... does feed a hungry belly a bit too easily.  I am hoping there is meat thawed.  Cooking takes a bit, but is so worth it.  Ah!  I kept the beef ribs out!  I need to repackage them.  There are enough for a couple of meals, and change.  I suppose they would make a excellent dinner.  What with it thought?  Green beans?  Corn?  Oh, how about a small salad?  The dressing I made the other day was splendid.  Those and a glass of milk should do splendidly.

Okay... it looks like I canceled the single pay, and the recurring payment is good.  Bleh...  I'll still recheck in a week or so, and call in to make sure... you can't trust anyone or any machine, but a couple of checks sometimes is enough to keep them honest.  They really love to eat you alive, and will if given half a chance.  Later.

Up and at it pretty well.

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I hurt, today.  Innards, lower back, a few other places.  Not as bad as recently.  I never did take aspirin.  Forgot.  I may today.  Just to get the edge off.  It hurts pretty solidly.

To bed by around 01:00, maybe up to an half hour after?  I just can't be sure.  Awake at between 08:00 and an half after, if I didn't get up until 08:30 give or take ten.  It was 70° near me, but only 66° in the main of t he upstairs.  It is 62° in the front room and 64° in the main... with everything still open, while 62° outdoors.  It is supposed to get into the 90°s out there over the next few days, perhaps breaking the 100°s, if I won't hold my breath.  It may, but they haven't been very good at this game.

I filled tea containers, started a fresh pot of tea, reset dishes to a hot soak, set a timer for when to hit the dishes, and closed up some of the windows.  Two windows remain, and the front door, open to receive the last of the cool.  I love fresh air when I can get it.  Fans going, but dressed for that level of cool.  It is a good start.

I'm not sure what I will have for breakfast, but I have some good choices.  I may grill a few hotdogs, add the last of the burger goulash, and have a boiled duck egg... or maybe fry one.  That and a fatted tea.  I am thinking of fasting over the weekend.  A day, two, with a fatted coffee or three.  It seems to work.  I could try for three day fasts, I'm not sure I am quite ready for those.

Weighing in at 274.4 this morning.  I ate a bit extra yesterday, so had actually thought it might be higher.  A treat, if a rare one.  I was hoping to wait until after a bm, but it didn't brew faster than my hunger, so...  :p  It will come down, especially if I can fast and stay more active.  Oh, I didn't log dinner last night, or treats.  I'll do that.  Not sure if it allows adding for previous days.  I guess I will learn more about the app today, too.

Dishes, a shower, and...  I did trim the whiskers, then later shaved yesterday.  I may shave again today.  Shaving a few days in a row sort of... keeps the beard at bay for a bit longer.  If it can develop ingrown follicles... it's certainly more prone to do so.  Exchanging the phone today, as well.  I'll let the ducks out, and feed the girls, in a bit.  What else?  Hmm...  I don't know.  While not fasting the whole day, I may skip a meal today.  I really hit it yesterday, if mostly sticking to keto.

Oh, I best call the V.A.  My glucometer is on the fritz.  I have replaced the battery twice, but that just isn't the problem.  Good thing I didn't order new sticks, they might not have fit the new device.  The numbers aren't correct, and I think the average is off, way off.  I've been mostly 125 for a week, and the average is sticking around 155.  Then again, perhaps the readings are off.  I just don't know.

Later.

Almost some of it?

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I was late getting out.  I meant to run hot water on the dishes, so as to get to them.  I lost track.  It ran all the hot water out.  But... I still needed a shower.  I had to request a later pickup.  Which was fine by them.  But it also meant I only had time to get the water warm enough to shower.  After showering, I did run hot water back over the dishes.

I had hoped most of the food would fit in the cooler.  Not so much, if the guy didn't really try.  Fair enough, only half of it would have fit.  With that, there was no way I was going to Verizon.  It takes them hours to do anything.  I don't know if the workers are all new, or just... not motivated.  No way was I going to let food rot while I tried to get a phone going.  Tomorrow.

Everything is in and put up.  But a nap would be good.  Dinner should be good.

I am done with work, effort, for the day.  Tomorrow I hope to finish the dishes.  I should have all the room I need for stacking the mostly hand dried items.  Another shower before I go out.  More dishes set to soak.  Perhaps a few counters if I wake early enough, and the stovetop.  Laundry is done.  I'll... get there.

If I can't hike this week, next.  But I want everything done this week, hike or no.  So a few days of light work will get me ready to go out on some path.  I'll need to set up a small pack.  Some food, water, warm/dry clothes.  No map will really help out there.  But I do know north from south, east from west, by lay of land.  That isn't always the best, or enough.  If were I am going it should be okay.  And I won't be going far.  A few hours, max, in.  And at a slower pace.

Yea, a nap.  Later.

Oh, about that app...

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After a bit of looking, it may be possible to get the app to work on the computer as well.  The requirement is that I have a Samsung smartphone of a certain sort.  I have that, but will be exchanging that today.  I suppose I will have to review what smartphones they have, which might work.  I do like this app, it will be worth some extra checking.

The grocery store called.  There were a few items on my order which weren't fully available.  The bigger items missing made it much less expensive, the smaller added expenses were minor, plus I was able to order the button batteries I need for my glucometer, and to pay back the loan of such.  I am rather excited to go in and just pick up my groceries!  Much more convenient, for all involved.

After picking that up, I will head to the phone company, see about a new phone.  I'll be able to transfer everything, I hope, and just factory wipe the new old phone.  I'll get everything packaged for a return tomorrow.  If it all works.  Yes, a smartphone.  But that one app makes it worth the... troubles.  Bleh.  Though I have a stargazer app I am learning to enjoy as well.  I finally know where the north star is, how to find it, and can find it easily with incomplete data.  A small thing, but just a start.

Oh, blood sugar is 121 several hours after breakfast.  I did only have one, and skinless, chicken thigh, I guess that was right.  All good!

I'd like to hit the dishes before I go, then get a shower.  I'm not sure I can get them all, but I should be able to get to much.  If I have time, on the way out, I will put another major load in to soak.  If not, when I return.  Then a nap.  Life is doing well.  I wonder if I will get hit by a meteor, meteorite, comet? on the way home, or out?  Meh, I'd survive it, AND have a... another... unbelievable... story to tell.  I still remember the sinking sub, draino, the shotgun, swimming in the class five and an half rapids... yes indeed... and more.  Usually not voluntary things, but... a few.  Wee!  What a ride!  Later.

Learning an app.

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Bit by bit I am figuring out the food logging app "Lose It!".  The first arrangements were simple.  Just getting the food logging portion going.  Okay, that was simple enough.  And it seems accurate, going by blood sugar and weight loss.  Perhaps.  Then, I figured out how to put weight in, and set that up.  I am roughly learning to train the app, for things like a fatted coffee... so I don't have to put the mixture ingredients in singularly, just let it set up my usual and one click that.  I then added a macronutrient goal... micronutrient?  Whatever.  I set up a goal for carbs.  I'm not sure I set it up right though.

Anyway.  Each day I have been trying to sort some aspect or another of the app.  Today I finished the rest of the... macronutrients, I believe.  Along with carbohydrates, there are fats and proteins.  Calories were set up at the start, as part of logging.  At max weight loss, for within it's allowances, I am allowed 1655 calories... without activity.  I had to reconfigure carbs today, and had to figure out how to dump certain goals.  I couldn't get the percentage to list correctly, so went with grams... which took a bit of math and memory... plus removing the other goal.

As is, total, I have it set at 1,655 calories, 25 grams of carbs (max), 35% protein max (if I will inevitably go over, until I figure menus out) and 75% max for fats, which I actually want to be under... once I get well and deeply into keto.  I don't think I am there.  For now, fats are my goal.  At that level, so as to cut carbs and proteins.  I may have to go over calorie goals for a while, to get enough fat in, in order to obtain ketosis.  Ugh!!!

Just... finally... have it all set up.  But that is for optimal operation, AFTER I reach ketosis.  Until then, I need to add extra fat, which means calories.  Still, that will make cutting calories easy, in time.  While in ketosis, consumption is almost a chore.  I really need extra heavy cream.  That is the easiest way to add fat.  Tastiest too.  Plus it has no carbs or protein.  I'll... figure that out.  Now that I have the app pretty much set up, I was able to plan.  And... the plan requires a small amount of divergence.

Oh, the meat only goulash, leftover green beans, and skinless chicken thigh was a very nice breakfast.  I only had one, as I offered one to Boss, if I'm not sure he will eat it.  Will see in a while.  I really wanted it, too.  Still, good to share, or offer?  Dunno.  But it was quite good.  Later.

A bit rough, but good somehow.

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I woke around seven, if I didn't get out of bed for an half hour.  I wasn't sure it was time.  Down at midnight, wanted to sleep to eight.  After thinking on things, it seemed good enough.

It was 45° outside just now, 63° upstairs with the door shut but windows open and a few fans going, and 68° in the main... if because the furnace was on.  My bad.  Windows were open.  Bleh.  I can begin turning the furnace off at night, again, I think.  At these temps, freezing isn't an issue, and I don't have a personal minimum.  If it weren't for pipes, freezing temps wouldn't be a problem for me, especially while sleeping.

I did a bad, bad, thing.  My version of goulash simply did not pan out... uhrm, literally.  Tomato soup with burger?  Sort of, yes.  So... instead of going with wisdom, I ate pasta goulash.  It wasn't bad.  It wasn't perfect.  But, then, my guests were late, they were.  And food waits for no man!  So, it was a bit overdone.  And it was not salted.  I thought I had.  I hadn't.  A bit of salt made it feasible.  I just knew my blood sugar would be in the two hundreds, maybe higher, today.

Nope!  Blood sugar is 135 fasting.  Meh.  Oh, but I will be cautious for a while.  I think, with the remaining, of my, goulash, I will use it to baste the remaining chicken thighs, as well as for on hotdogs or brots later.  A type of chili, sans beans.  The pasta goulash I will toss immediately, before temptation gets the better of me.  I can be such a weak man.  And... food!  I do love pasta.  Once bitten, though, twice shy.  Especially since I escaped disaster.

My body feels a bit rough.  I have taken an extra dose of heart medicine the last few days.  Even so, I missed a full day in there somewhere, other than the doses I caught up on.  That and work, the last few days, scant as it was, has my body a bit in suffering mode.  Innards, lower back, right bicep somehow, thighs, front leg muscles, and other things being drowned out by the more major complaints.  I will try aspirin on these.  This is what aspirin usually works well on.  What aspirin doesn't seem to help with is the pains from falling behind on heart medicine.  Nothing helps that.

It looks like youtube has again shut me out.  So be it.  It is what it is.  I reset dishes.  I don't have enough laundry to do another load.  I will hit the remaining counters in a bit.  Then hit the dishes, trim the beard this  time, shower, and set up the final if significant portions of dishes.  I am hoping to finish dishes and complete flats... counter spaces, today.  Plus maybe shopping.  I'd best get fresh tea going.

It should be a very good day, if it is going to hurt.  If I can get the bathroom and kitchen down by Saturday, I'll take a hike.  It might not be much.  Just a quick trip, an half an hour to hour in... unless I can do more when out.  Up into the Wellsville mountain... Wellsvilles?  I've heard it, and seen it, both ways.  I just don't know.  I think it is, sort of, a mini-range to itself... not just one peak, anyway.  Later.

A bit more.

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Dishes are being reset, went cold.  A late lunch is being implemented.  Chicken salad, not saladified chicken, chicken with lettuce and dressing.  As well, I found tomato for goulash.  I could only find pureed, but it will do... mostly.  The counter for dishes has been cleared and cleaned.  The last load of laundry is out.

I am absolute wiped.  I will try to get that last load of dishes cycled, after I have some food.  Oh, and I did start to read the book on mental prayers.  I've just gotten a few pages in.  I may read more before a nap.  I did turn the ac on upstairs.  It was showing 68°, but if I were up there long it would rise.  Yea, I need it cool to nap.

Bits and pieces.  I am getting somewhere.  Nowhere fast, not a lot, but enough.  Enough to do more, when and as I can.  Later.

It warmed a bit out there.

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I haven't been doing much today.  More than the last week?  The area has been cleared for dishes, a few more areas are about to be hit... cleared already nearly, to be washed.  One load of dishes done.  One load of laundry out on the line, another put in.  The big load of dishes is being set to a hot rinse, so it is easier to dry.

Eggs were boiled.  Three for breakfast, and a fatted coffee.  Blood sugar is reading 125 again.  Hmm, still haven't dosed.  I'd like to see where this goes, eating carefully, without insulin.  The device needs a new battery, again, though.  I actually need two.  A replacement for one borrowed.  I don't know why they do me kindly, but they do.  And... I appreciate it.  My paranoia is annoying, but... it is what it is, and things are what they are.

I am starting to feel a bit off.  So I will have lunch.  Two, heated, chicken thighs... sadly skinless, cleaned from the bone, heated... on a salad with an italian or balsamic vinaigrette.  Not much, but it'll do.  As for supper?  If I do make goulash, I will definitely have to do a double pan thing.  My initial review of carbs for that were 17, but... that was an odd variant.  With noodles, one serving is 37 grams of carbs and 400 calories.  My limit is 20 grams for the whole day, of which I have had around three to five, and calories would be okay, save no room for seconds!  Ugh.  I have to find tomatoes.  I am sure I have some around somewhere.

Dishes, another load of laundry out when it's done, goulash probably, perhaps a nap.  It is 77° out there, 70° in the main, 73° up here.  A nice day.  Glad the warmth came back a bit.  But summer has definitely broken.  As well, I have a book about Catholic based meditation I wish to consider.  Still, that I can pray in dreams when the flesh doesn't allow wakeful praying?  That's... gotta count for something?  :p  It truly is a gift, a grace.  I can pray for hours upon hours, and listen for days, in there.  Sometimes it's all I have.  Days?  In a dream that last moments?  Yea.  I told you, it was a gift.  I can stretch time in there... live lives... do... much.

I'm catching up, and keeping up, on medicine.  I wont' go back more than to yesterday, but... that leaves one missed dose, then, for nearing two months.  I... can handle that.  Well, I best get to lunch, then on to dishes and laundry.  Oh, and finding tomato, for goulash.  Life is a bit rough, but... I'll... make it.  I did order, for pickup, from my store.  That, if it all works, will make life a bit easier.  Later.

Almost certainly.

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Responses.

A long danged nap!

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I got a few more things done, if nothing near even half the list, then had to crash.  I figured a few hours would do.  That was at 16:00 to half past.  I just woke at 03:30 or so.  Yea.  Crashed is the operative word.  Chastity has been kept, and prayer life has been continuing as possible.  Sometimes, as with this last crash, I hit so hard when I go to bed that reliable conscious prayer isn't possible.  I seem to dream pray though.  How does that work?  I'm... not quite sure.  When the body fails, the mind can pick up the slack and I pray even while asleep.  It's about all I can tell you about it.

I didn't, then, end up making goulash or eating supper of any sort.  Still, I realized, later in the day, that I haven't been taking meds, again, or insulin, either.  I had stopped insulin while fasting.  Of course.  But had forgotten to restart when I began eating today.  I knew my blood sugar would be bogus high.  So, after waking and realizing, I tested.  It is 125 fasting.  Hmm... well... okay.

I am limiting artificial sweetener to four to five drops per half gallon, three per quart of fatted coffee.  And, with it being cool, I am drinking a goodly lot less, maybe a gallon of tea rather than three, if adding an extra fatted coffee per day... if I often drank two, just not always.  With the cool to cold, the hot tea or coffee is a plus.

The furnace is still on 68°, which keeps this front room 66°.  Dressing for it, that is eminently doable. for me.  It's actually a pleasure.  As winter actually arrives, this room will become frigid, which is fine by me and the computer.  I have a sheet blocking the front and back areas, it just works better.  It gives me zones of varying comfort, winter and summer.

I would still like to get propane burners for this, the bedroom and master bedroom's bath and the master bedroom itself, plus in the garage.  But that would be after a furnace, electrical upgrades, restoration of the second (master bedroom's) bath, and work to turn the garage into an insulated shop.  Which... means it's a pipe dream.  Still, it is a dream.  Having propane is a good secondary source, if limited to some degree.  Having two ways to heat parts of the environment, in a winter climate, is a good thing.  There are other options, if dangers and many limits with those, too.  Bleh.

Oh, I keep forgetting regular medicine as well.  It's the cold, brings me low.  Makes me sleepy.  It  was a sudden and drastic change.  I do my best when the world quits on me, but... I... have limits.  That is all there is to it.  I will keep trying.  Hmm... breakfast?  I think I'll have a skinless chicken salad?  Or should I boil eggs and have a few of those, with a fatted coffee?  I'm going to for eggs, actually.  I have no standards, of what seems right for breakfast, or wrong for it.  Food is food, save mood.  It's, just... I want to have a bigger meal later.  Two duck eggs and a fatted drink is a nice, light, meal.  Oh, and back to the list.  I think I can, I know I can... in time.  Today is time!  Later.

Food and... women?

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Food first.  It doesn't give me problems.  Or... as many.

I got the chicken cooked, let it set, and had my one thigh.  Oh, I tried to keep it at one thigh.  Not a chance.  It was absolutely fantastic.  I ate the ones which had been sprinkled with all the usual spices, salt, and pepper, but mild pepper flakes.  Just tea with it.  I was afraid that would kill the rest of the day... for food.

Not so much.  My error is survivable.  I still have 385 calories for supper, plus 177 calories for snacks.  I don't snack!  So... I went looking at calories, for two skinless thighs, 14 ounces of romaine lettuce (though as few calories as are there, I could go with more if I am hungry... a lot more, double.  As well, I looked up balsamic vinaigrette.  Ooooh!  Nice.  It's 50 calories a tablespoon.  If I have if figured correctly, I could have two tablespoons of that with the chicken salad!

Just tea.  No extras for drinks.  Yes, I am eating too much protein.  I... get that.  Too much protein turns into carbs, effectively.  So, yea, I will be working on that.  I knew that, just not quantifiably.  Now I know.  But, life is good.  I doubt supper with Boss, it is only in the sixties, last I looked, out there.  Who knows though.  As I continue to work, I am hoping to also put a goulash together.  I won't have any tonight, maybe not at all.  But it will be ready for a quick heat and serve.  Probably.

Dishes?  I'm about to check laundry, actually.  Dishes got my first burst, then chicken and some cleaning.  Now laundry, out and up, as well a new load going.  If that works well enough, I may hit one batch of dishes.  Then maybe some counters and the stovetop.  Then probably a bit of a break.  Hopefully, when I get to the last load of dishes, there will be an easy place to sort, dry, and let air dry a bit more.

The next step is a shower.  A trim first, then a shower.  Assuming I get the areas cleaned so as to finish dishes.  Then another load out to dry... I still dryer dry my unders... no reason to air even clean knickers.  Everything else can go out.  Hmm, I really ought to get a few indoor hanging areas set up.  Then I could still hang my drawers.  It doesn't save really all that much.  It's... the idea.  And, I like them air dried a bit better, I think?

A very cool morning.

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I had to run the furnace.  Which is fine.  Just to 68°.  I plan to keep it about there through the winter.  Sure, once in a while, if I really need to get going, perhaps up to 72°.  That makes taking a shower much easier.  Once warmed by the shower, life is good.  But, after weeks or months of cold, getting into the shower can be a chore.  Wow, it was 32° out there.  I just had to check.  That is right at freezing.  On the good side, the sun is out, blazing, with nary a cloud in the sky... at least to the east or from what I can see.  If... my eyeballs are a bit dosed from looking at the bright shiny.

Two loads of dishes were actually set up.  A load of laundry was put in, another one will go in shortly.  In a bit, I will put the laundry out on the line.  And the other load too, hopefully.  I will have a second coffee.  I already added that to the breakfast list.  I need to heat.  With cream, though if I decide on another, it will be plain.  Yea, warmth is much needed.

A sweater, socks, winter pj's, perhaps I'll look for a cap too.  This front, the computer, room isn't actually heated.  It gets some from the rest of the cave, but is rather cooler for now.  The sun may change that, but for now it is rather cold.  Hmm... I wonder where my silk undergloves are.  I use them for, literally, under heavier gloves.  Added heat, but also, should I need to remover my thicker gloves or mittens, I still have some protection from the cold.  My plan to go winter camping will need some serious gear and prep.  You can die out there, losing fingers and toes is much easier though could easily lead to failures that lead to death.  I don't mind dying, I don't want to die a fool.  God says no, I'll abide His will until that goes another way, in spirit, law, and practice.

In an hour, I will check laundry, hit the dishes, hopefully trim my whiskers and shower.  I probably can't do all of that at once, but I will do it in parts, over a few hours.  Another load of laundry, a small one, after that.  Hmm, I probably should sweep the bathroom before bathing or dishes.  Water has a way of getting everywhere... especially with even a minor giant at play.  After else, perhaps mopping in the bathroom... though, really, cleaning counters in the kitchen would be priority.  Then mopping?  I am no sure how much I can do.  I'm not sure I can do the first parts.  But... it's... just rolling off the planning stage, in the mind.

Oh, somewhere in there, actually fairly shortly, I will be putting chicken in the oven.  I get one, hot, whole, skin on.  The rest will be allowed to cool, later added to a salad.  Perhaps warmed before adding.  The rest will be leftovers for throughout the week.  Oh, I best get some eggs boiled as well.  A dozen or so really would be good food... snacks even... through the week.  I wonder how many calories those are... my app says 130 calories per.  A couple do easily.  Sometimes one is good... just to keep hunger and energy in trim.

Anyway... yes... But that it dropped to freezing, actually, threw me.  Plus I wanted to share my pleasure that some things are moving along.  Maybe it'll make your day a bit easier to start.

I am a disbeliever.

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No, having nothing to do with God.  God?  I know is real.  So... I suppose I am no longer, technically, a commonly termed believer.  Knowing has nothing to do with faith, or belief.  I saw, otherwise sensed.  God is.  I would die before denying it.  At this point, denying would be... essentially... a sin against the Holy Ghost.  It would be the worst form of death.

This is dealing with diet, weight loss, and such.  Impossible.  Even when I eat right, by my understanding, and do this and that... or not but keep inactivity in consideration... I haven't been able to lose weight.  So... why would this be different, this time?  I don't know.  Perhaps, I thought, that tracking food might actually make a difference?  Aye, but could it curb appetite?  Bah!

So, I weighed in three days ago.  I put in 280, but it was actually 281.6... I believe.  I just... I don't know... was being a bit of a spoiler?  Being a punk?  A bit.  Yes.  And I have been logging, and approximating consumption.  It seems probably fairly accurately.  My guru suggested weighing in daily, but I... in spite of trusting... didn't... believe?  Didn't want to face the truth of failure?  Didn't... believe... I just didn't believe, so didn't want to know it was false.

I decided to eat today.  Breakfast was and will be two ounces of salami and cream cheese, half a cup of diced yellow onions, and a fatted coffee using a tablespoon and an half of cream.  That was about 586 calories (ish).  That leaves nearly 1100 calories for the rest of the day.  I have chicken thighs brining.  One or two in a salad, skinless, one with skin on, warm.  That'll be about six to eight hundred calories, I would guess... leaving just a bit more for a supper.

Yes, I found the scale, pulled it out, cleaned it up, and pressed it into service.  I measured, within reason.  An extra .2 ounces on the salamin, if only 1.9 ounces of cream cheese... there are limits to fuss.  And I accounted for the differences in the food log... it allows for less than whole numbers.  I will, from now on, weight everything.  I suppose I could go to grams, but I don't see that as all that much different.  But, the food wars have begun they have.

And?  I stepped on the scale.  Of course, there would be no difference.  I would have lost nothing.  I knew that.  I was quite wrong.  In three days, if two days of fasting, I have gone from 281.6 to 276.1... a five and an half pound change.  It couldn't be water loss.  I take large doses of the water pill.  If anything, I have missed at least one of those, so am probably holding on to more than usual water!  No... that was weight loss!

Okay, I am hooked.  There... might be something to this.  Of course, figuring out which foods, how much, and in my particular situation, is another thing.  The food blogger helps, but I really need a bit more foresight.  Just plugging in, then adjusting consumption values, is a bit dangerous.  I need to attempt to create near weekly food plans.  This is much more difficult than they say.  You really can't just wing it.

Still, that was... a wakeup call.  I am really interested.  Yeah.  This might actually work.  I have decided I probably won't go too far.  Perhaps to 240?  I don't want the flaps of skin.  Some people think that is okay, I just don't.  Some proportion between appearance and health will be good enough.  I wonder how much skin removal would cost.  Seriously, I won't have extra skin hanging off me for years, or decades... something is just... wrong with that... to my mind.  I have never heard of anyone getting rid of that naturally.  Anyway... I would be happy at 240... it might not be perfect, but it would be better.  Perhaps enough to become active... more active.

I'm still not a complete believer.  It might be a fluke.  It might not be sustainable.  It might be just from fasting in a way I can't necessarily maintain.  But... I am going to go ahead, as full steam as possible.  There... is some hope.  Then again, when I went into this, hope was all I had, for faith was nonexistent and charity, on this matter, was long gone.  We will see.

The beginning.

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The third day of fasting starts today.  I don't know if I will complete it as a day of fasting.  Not complete fasting, I had three coffees with a tablespoon of milk or cream in those two days, amounting to about 140 calories.  But, for practical purposes, I fasted.  Further, I was up and about, doing a bit more than usual.  Now, nothing was consumed since Monday, last, morning.  Blood sugar is 155 fasting though.

It is the artificial sweetener.  Even cut, even limiting how much I use, it will drive up blood sugar.  Especially if it is all that is being consumed.  I just can't always go without anything.  I have cut to between four and seven drops per half gallon of tea, three drops for a quart of fatted coffee... usually.  Oh well, it... will just have to do.

With yesterday partly sidelined, if happily, today I will get back to it.  And I realize I owe another fifty... for some work done.  I wish he would speak up.  Then again, perhaps his exact memory is as bad as mine.  Anyway...  Today is back to that work.  Dishes, a check on laundry, counters, sweeping, and some general cleaning.  I hope to do another load of laundry, and put that out on the line.

Again, tonight, chill.  It is 37° outside, it was 68° upstairs without fan or anything, 66° in the main, and 55° in this room with the door open and a fan on low.  Wow.  It's almost getting time to turn the furnace on.  I more worry when it gets to near freezing in here, worried more about pipes than else.  Well, and the girls.  I'm not sure cats handle serious cold for long periods.

I keep losing track of medicine.  When I thought I had lost serious track, I was only half a dose behind.  Now I am... two or three doses behind.  Still, it's been over a month and an half, otherwise, of not missing a dose, or missing it long enough to count.  I'll... get back on it.  I do my best.  Will take it until I find out if weight loss will happen.  My guru in this actually lost weight solely based on calorie counting.  But no bad heart or other health issues.  And, yes, that might be a limiting factor.  It kills the natural metabolism.  Will see soon.  Recommended weighing in daily.  I haven't been.  Should start.  By a month, perhaps several, on and I will know if calorie counting alone can cut the weight or not.

Later. 

Something else to do.

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I was asked to go along for a few things.  Mostly just a passenger.  So I went.  Which means dishes didn't get done.  I did get in to shop, a few groceries.  However, some things I thought I could do, I can't... later.  I can't make a dinner tonight.  I need to crash for a bit.  I should be up for something in a bit, but... maybe not?

It is overcast and less than 70°.  I think it was somewhere around 63°?  Crazy.  And it might rain.

I am feeling rather awful.  I'm not sure how to change that.  Aspirin might help, but last time it did nothing.  Not even with sleep.  It is worth the risk.  A quick text, to arrange some things, some aspirin and regular meds, then on to a nap.  Achy, out of sorts.  Ah... two days of fasting, I should have been in bed hours ago, and lots on my mind.

Blood sugar, without anything, is at 125 fasting of course.  Later.

Pieces and parts.

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It took a while longer to get started than had been hoped.  Still, I was able to complete the pj's, the two I could find, in just a few minutes less than an hour.  Sewing won't ever quite be my primary skill, but it went much better, faster, and smoother this time.  If those pockets tear loose, it'll be from a serious incident.  I don't think the pj's will last as long as the pockets... even with my penchant for hording keys, knives, flashlights, and other bits of metal and etcetera man devices in my pockets, chipmunk style.

The laundry was given a second round of drying.  I could have hung it out, but am not quite up to that.  Hopefully the cooling will help with energy.  More so now that I can moderate it, have the gear, clothes, attitude, knowledge...  I have layering all together, now just to learn and do it.  Not always going to be possible, but... the benefits make it likely if at all possible.

I'm about to hit dishes.  Then get laundry checked, then upstairs if it is dry.  Oh, but I best get trash out.  They could arrive early.  A bit of cleaning around the kitchen and bathroom, then a shower and to bed.  It is up to 54° outside, last I checked.  Oh... I will feed and water the ducks as a last thing before bed.  It'll still be rather cool, but either the eggs make it to hatching or they don't.  I'm giving them until, say, the 20th.  Then it's back to collecting them.

Not even September.

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It broke 40°, by a couple degrees, on the last day of August.  It... is cold out there, boys and girls.  It is almost frighteningly so.  In a secular way.  If this is any indication of what is coming, it is a serious sign.  Though, who knows.  It might just be a spoof to get the flock chirping.  Or to quiet down, watch, and listen?  Something like that.

Laundry has been turned, dishes were freshly reset.  Not much else yet.  Still, I am hoping to finish those dishes, reset most of the remaining dishes, hit a few counters, and then sweep and maybe mop in the bathroom and kitchen.  Oh, and take the trash to the curb then shower and be to bed by... when I can sleep?  Yes, that would be when.

Rather than continuing to surf the web in a lost way, and with the puzzle completed... if I have others... I do believe I will work on the pockets of my winter weight pj's.  I wore the pair which had been repaired.  I hadn't done a great job.  It wasn't lined up well, the stitching was... irregular, I didn't stitch correctly, I even started in the middle on one of the pockets.  Still?  Those pockets are solid!  It may not have been pretty, but it was overstitched, near to bombproof, unless... no... the knots were extremely well built in as well. 

If I ever have to mess with pockets, it will a total replacement, or patching a hole, from wear.  I have three more pj's to fix.  It actually takes a little while to sew.  This time, I have some understanding, and experience.  I have figured a few things out.  Rolling and pinning first, this time.  Starting at the ends... I only started in the middle out of a curiosity, mind you.  That wasn't as I had hoped.  Anyway.  A few of those.  Then back to dishes.  Just one load of laundry today.

I will, later, after work, sleep, and a wake, find the packaging for returning the items.  Those will go back tomorrow.  As well as some shopping.  Groceries.  I like having food on hand.  Fresh, canned, frozen, meat, veggie, some fruit, and else.  You will find keto is much easier if you buy mostly fresh.  And, yet, totally fresh is nearly impossible.  That is why they used to be so skinny, that isn't, wasn't, will never be, healthy.  I wonder if the really skinny have mild brain damage, to be honest.

Anyway... *digging more holes to step in*  I'd best get to it.  I'll give the dishes an hour to cool off enough to try to wash, then set to a rinse.  Sewing the whole time, maybe after I finish.  Checking on laundry as well... though it may well be dry.  I'm liking the cool.  It is... much easier to negotiate, and I can control my end much more easily with the right clothing and gear.  Good day, night, whatever.

Cold can be handled.

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The drop in highs and lows, plus fewer hours of heat, was crashing my paradigm.  This time I have a plan.  I just... wasn't quite expecting to have to need it this early.  Warmer clothes.  I tried an extra layer here, a bit more there, ended up figuring out what I need.  It will always be a bit of trial and error, but... layering works.

Socks.  But not just wool socks.  Also an undersock.  Wool just won't do it alone, and my feet are hard on wool.  I finally have all that I need to regularly wear those.  And am prepared to do so.  I also have long underwear, of various types, tops and bottoms.  I don't quite need those yet, but will be ready this year.  Finally, I have everything ready for cold weather, and have started deploying it.  Oh, and in the cart are items by which to darn some of my wool socks with holes in the heels.  Yes, it's worth it.  Priced good wool socks lately?  Yikes!

I went on to bed with socks on.  I did need to take them off a few hours in, but I slept better being warm enough to sleep well!  It makes sense, but doing what is right and needed takes... a certain level of awareness I don't always have.  But, this year, it is on.  I will always keep myself warm enough.  As well, I have become heat tolerant, so... life should improve.  Oh, yes, it will.

From now on, if I sense discomfort, my job it to fix it.  It isn't just for comforts sake, it is in an attempt to become more functional.  I will always have problems with that, but I can optimize from my end... that and pray.  My life... that it continues... is a God thing.  Every doctor I have had for the last thirty years knows I should be dead, should have been dead before some of them were out of med school... or even grade school for the younger ones.  That I have dead cat bounce is... well... unusual.  Anything I can do is from half in the grave.  Not... bad... for a dead guy.

Dishes, and laundry.  Then a shower and setting up more dishes.  That is all I will focus on tonight, save cleaning off a couple of counters for ease of finishing the dishes.  Well, and trash.  I have most of it out, but need to bag trash cans.  And, perhaps, get a bit more out.  Sunday, right?  I... lost... time in there somewhere.  It feels like I hit Thursday and just got stuck.  I'll bet I've missed medicine?  It got cold, of a sudden, and I... lost myself in there, in that.

No food today, at least so far.  I may yet, as I am tinkering in the kitchen area, get chicken brining and then going.  A chicken salad would be good, especially with still warm chicken.  Though a single thigh, with skin on... as a treat... would be a delight.  Yes, I have to cut, give, surrender... if I want to lose weight.  BUT... I don't have to cut everything, every time.  I will be struggling with controlling calories for a while, so if I slip, as long as I am honest, I will... take it.  Honesty in reporting is primary, the rest will happen as it does.  The rest is useless without honesty.  If I can get back to absolute keto, and intermittent fasting, calorie control becomes much easier.

Later.

Didn't see that coming.

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I watched Star Trek as a kid, on the television.  I used to think television, back then, was okay, until I reviewed much of it.  Same thing then as now.  Still, it was what was done.  I did enjoy S.T.  That and Batman and a few others.  Some reruns, some new.  Anyway, I was looking around on youtube and found something that through me.

At first I... wondered if it was an episode I had missed, or an episode where things where somehow different but nearly the same, maybe an episode they never published.  I watched part of one, but then realized what the gig was about, so when to find the first episode.  You know, for what it is, it was very well done.  Amazingly well done.

I don't think I'll watch more.  The problems with the original, and television in general, persist.  Still, it was a... interesting spin through time and space, without having to go anywhere.  I thought I'd leave it, for those who don't mind modernity, and might actually enjoy the episodes.  I'll leave you to it, with a slight pleasure at having been so well baffled.
It's about time to crash again.  I've gotten a load of laundry started, collected and got trash out after emptying cat litter in part or whole and switching out one of the pans.  I suppose I could feed the girls again... no, probably treat them.  I'll feed them fully later.  I've had two fatted teas, but with much less cream.  Just a tablespoon and an half, per... that's still 86 or so calories per, if memory serves.  I ought to check about whole milk and half and half...  Bleh.

It is only 77° outside, at nearing 14:00.  It is staying very cool indoors, of course.  Partly cloudy, or hazy?  A strange day out there.  Oh... one way to cut calories of the chicken thighs... between a third and half fewer calories... would be to remove the skin, or at least not eat it.  I do love the skin.  But between more and fattier?  I'd... take more.  Doing my best.  As well, I could use some of the skinless meat in a salad... stretch one, add something better to the other.

I think I do have four hens.  Very odd.  Their growth was so variable.  The drakes grew quickly, but a few of the hens sporadically grew quickly, then slowly.  I... I think so.  Oh, and my trick, of putting food and water near the hutch, is making life easier on the broody hen.  She all but thanked me for the change.  If she yelled at me for peaking in.  Women!

Well, on to a nap.  Later.

Sometimes it just doesn't work out.

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I am just going to give up on the phone.  I can't get the volume up well enough to hear easily, voicemail doesn't work, it doesn't work with the earbuds I purchased, or those are not working.  Plus
two cases... one was going to be returned anyway.  I can't replace the protective screen, of course.  But all else is going back, save a wireless charger.

I am thinking about getting out of the smartphone system.  I'm not interested in buying $1k phones that last a few years, or even $500 phones.  They don't work well, they steal data, they are expensive, and their dealers are obnoxious.  I really don't need a smart cell phone, perhaps a cell phone at all.  I'll see if they have a simple flip phone, and make sure it works before leaving.

Tech is a joke.  Tech support is as bad.  They don't seem to know how things work, how they are supposed to work, or how to get them to work.  It shouldn't be that difficult.  Days, and hours each day, spent trying to get a simple service to work, after days just getting the phone to work.  If, too, it looks like the service provider was trying to make the phone hang.  Can't trust anyone.  My mother received a new phone.  Just went flip phone too.  Troubles with it as well.  Still, it's cheaper.  If I must pay for a crappy phone, might as well pay less.

I have to wonder what happens if more people quit cell service?  I don't see many doing it.  Even those who are broke and unemployed seem to find a way to keep their phones.  Or are the providers not shutting off service for non-payment at the moment?  Would hate to see an addiction get squelched?  I am really thinking about just getting out of the phone thing.  Land lines aren't really any better.  All by mail?  That would really get em' mad.  All good.  Thinking on it.

I did a check.  I can have two thighs for dinner or supper, and still have enough calories to have two more... or the equivalent... for food today.  I am just learning how to calculate calories and such.  I may have to change some of my food preferences... fewer calories?  More food available to eat!  I really like feeling full.  And two, even four, thighs, for pretty much a whole day, is fairly slim.  Chicken breast, my mother says.  She may be right, if I will have to practice cooking it.  More expensive, but buy it with skin, and bone in, and diy it for some savings.

Oh, I did call her again today.  To find out how she made goulash.  She has two methods.  I want to try the method which is new to me, but that would require either two pans or that I consume pasta.  *sigh*  I hate tempting choices.  I called again, because something seemed off the other day.  I could have just let it go, but I... wanted to check.  Being homebound is really bothering her.  I understand.  I've been, mostly, stuck at home for the last thirty years.  Even when I was in college, it was a brutal thing... to get out even a few times a week.  I loved being out, but it hurt so much.  It's taking a toll on her.  I can't help, but I could call and talk a bit more... try to have something to talk about.  Questions she might be able to answer.  I do worry, a bit, more so now.

Later.

Dropped into the cold zone.

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I was upstairs working on the puzzle.  I had sorted most of the sides, and piles roughly by color... to the ability space allowed.  Then last time I put most of the sides together, and went on to put about a fifth, sixth... probably a bit less, together.  This time?  I... couldn't stop.  I finished the thing.  It was 70° upstairs, pretty much throughout.

When I finished and came downstairs, I was freezing.  I didn't check right away.  A bathroom break, putting fresh hot tea on, treating the girls if only Sassy showed up.  I checked the outside temperature.  It is 45°.  Inside, it was 66° in the main, 64° in the front room.  I've shut some of the windows, and turned off all but the ceiling fan, which will be shut off shortly... always miss something.

While I am still, mostly, winter preferring, it always takes a bit to adjust.  And... it... sure got cold in a hurry.  This isn't actually cold.  But given that it was 90° a day or two ago, and slid drastically in just a few days... day?  It'll take a bit to get back in trim.  If I hope, even as a cold weather guy, this isn't it.  As strange as things have gone though, it wouldn't surprise me.  I'll have to dress a goodly lot warmer if so.  Yea... told you... this isn't going to go down well.  Weather, that is.

I best get something warmer on, right over my summer wear.  And a robe too.  I am definitely looking forward to hot tea.  I wonder how many still believe in global warming?  It was just propaganda to send manufacturing to nations with no regulation and jack up production using slave labor.  I think the world has to go back to diy... persoanlly and nationally.  Like it?  It'll be more expensive, but superior.  Actually being more expensive is superior, if it doesn't seem like it.  People don't buy what they don't need, as they often do today.  Or buy things which really aren't... needed... functionally useful.  Yea, I know whatfore I speak.

Later.

Pains come, pains go.

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Yea, well, it looks like they are gone.  Or at least what remains is under the radar.  I think there is some still there, in various places.  Just not enough to peak through my... defenses?  Something.  I don't know what time I went to bed...  Oh, but I called my mother as I was going on to bed.  That was a quarter after noon, then we talked until around noon thirty.  I fell asleep almost immediately after.  Waking just at twenty thirty, so... a right sleep.

I had to push to get out of bed.  Not all constancy is in place, but it is improving.  I can't always prayer, going into sleep or coming out of it.  Working on those things.  You don't set things aside and just pick them back up at your best.  As well, I have installed and am deploying a food log, with calories, weight loss goals, and possibly more in time.  It lists micronutrients, fats... carbs... fiber... and proteins... plus at least a few other things, of course, such as calories.

About the food logging.  It will, already has, hurt my feelings.  Then again, today, I knew I was pushing the line.  If too, I put in a little more than I think I actually ate... slightly... going over rather than under.  Still, it said I ate way over what I thought I ate.  On the good side, I didn't go over maintenance calorie consumption, I knew I was overeating, and as mentioned it was under the weight gain caloric consumption level.  Still, it jarred me how little I can really eat.  I LOVE to eat, when I eat.

It will take a bit to get the proportions down.  But I am, now, scientifically, trying.  It's not just going by natural inclinations and extremely rough guesstimates.  Pounds, ounces, cups, teaspoons, and the rest.  Which also means I may begin cutting fats... to cut calories, subtracting fiber from carb sums, and doing whatever else it takes.  Which may include adding more chicken and more turkey to my protein lineup... At least the daily meals were well within keto macros... micros?  Too tired for things to sound right or be snappily on my mind's fingertips quite yet.  Blood sugar was very high though.  Oh well.  Volume.  Then again, I don't usually eat that much.

It was 68° upstairs and outside when I woke, 73° downstairs in the main, and 78° in this computer front room.  I opened everything up, including upstairs.  I put the ducks in.  It's already dark by 20:30, or pretty much.  Yea.  I may start feeding and watering the ducks in the entryway.  I should clean that out, open it up, give them some space.  To make it a shorter run for the broody hen.  Especially as the world cools.  Still, I'll keep the pool open as long as possible, and keep the door open so they can forage as is possible.

So many startups.  Actual dieting, praying, a return to chastity.  All going... well... okay.  A start.  Back to puzzles too.  Which reminds me, I should go up and spend an hour or two on that.  As well, I hope to begin cleaning and organizing in the kitchen, bathroom, and food storage area.  I really hope to have the bathroom and kitchen sorted, mostly, by Monday... then absolutely finished by Friday.

If so, I will go on a hike... up the Wellsville mountain, but the fast hard way, or try to find the slower easier slope?  I won't take much... flashlights, firestarters, waterproof light overgear, a warmer overshirt and possibly woolen leggings, plus food and water enough for a few days.  Maps won't really help up there.  Maybe a tarp or pup type tent... lightweight but waterproof.  Hmm... I best get a smaller pack set up.  Someone stole one of them, but on my trip from Iowa.  Or in Iowa.  Or when I got back, before I could get it in the house.  I... can't be sure... about killed myself on that return trip.  And I can't be sure when it went missing.  I have... a system I can break down to a small system though...

It isn't thirty miles away, or the trailheads.  Or as a crow flies.  I look at it every time I look south from my home.  I wonder if it looks back?  It has been calling for quite some time, either way.

Later.

Rain.

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Just a few drops.  It soundly as if would really hit.  Just as it got going it slowed down.  In the light of dawn there is no trace that it rained.  It isn't even as cool as it was yesterday, at 52° this morning.  With a hen sitting the eggs, I leave them in until it warms a bit.  She will go with the waddling, but the waddling does go back in and join her at her sitting.  They are a tight-knit group of paddlings, on or off the water.  It amazes me how cold-hearty even the indian runners are, and probably doubly the muscovys.  Eggs not so much?  I did move the pool closer, that might help.  Still, it is rather cold.  Strangely cold.

It is down to 68° in the main downstairs, 66° in the computer room, 68° upstairs.  Very... odd... how it's warmer outside this morning, and yet much cooler inside.  I suppose cumulative and drastic changes add up very quickly.  Ac's were turned off, save one on fan.  And one fan upstairs.  I made my bed, this time tucking the blankets at the feet.  That may not work, I may have to pull the blankets up and around my feet rather than have a toebox.  Will know soon enough.

There is no turning the furnace up, upstairs.  There is no heat.  Usually, when I get used to the cold, that isn't a problem.  Though my tolerance for cold is weakening.  Age...  Wool socks, undersocks if that isn't enough, thick pj's, perhaps woolens as well.  I can handle the cold, one way or another.  It's the heat that can be a real problem.  Actually, I am really set for winter this year.  Inside, and out, if I could get out.  I'd like to camp out there, possibly, sometime.  And snowshoe a bit.  Even if it kills me.

It looks like it could gather and rain sometime again today.  Though, too, it may just fly on by.

I am hungry.  I will eat.  Something.  Later. 

Sleep?

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Soon.  It's just one of those things.  I can't force it.  It isn't happening.  So... I... don't sleep!

Ah, but there is this.  Enjoy, or don't.  Some of my favorites.  I'm not just rock.

Later.

Ever so slightly better.

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A headache persists, but it's milder.  My torso still feels rough, but not as rough.  All edges to all pains and discomforts have been rolled to a softer edge.  The pains aren't sharp, dulled either through easement or familiarity... or dulling of the sensing through constant grating.  I won't take aspirin.  I've taken that... three times this week, and just recently.  It wasn't all that useful, and it won't help again for a few days.  It just doesn't.

The first part of the lawn was watered, the second part just got set up.  That'll be it tonight, and maybe for a week or two.  A shower shortly.  I ate small pickles and green olives.  I don't think that will be enough.  Hmm... perhaps a burger or two?  Grilled?  Maybe.   I am too hungry to skip, if I can probably go light.  Burgers and green beans, or peas?  Yes, that... would be good.  One meal for the day, though.  It's still fasting, just not extended fasting.

A shower shortly.  A sit.  Then, maybe, a bit of cleaning, resetting dishes, and a load of laundry in.  But that will probably be it.  I will hang the clothes out "tomorrow", the next functional wake cycle... whenever that might be.  As well, I will hit the dishes.  If I can, I'll hit those yet tonight as well, and clear off the area I prefer to sort and dry them.  Yea...  Maybe.  Or, again, the next functional wake cycle.  I can be awake, but not be able to act.  As, mostly, much of this week, and this day.  There is tomorrow.  And prayer.

So difficult.  For no good reason.  It could be worse.  Though if that's the best you can say, you know you are against it.  All good though, it's... still an opportunity.  I'll take it, even if I can't sort it or do much with it on any given day.  I can even chuckle about it.  I have had worse, I will know worse, I won't worry about any of it.  Later.

Bad shape.

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Every time I attempted waking, I was hit by a wall of pain.  I know I haven't been sleeping enough, but it wasn't that.  Kidneys, as if I'd gotten rabbit shots, my sides and forward torso flank as if I'd gotten kneed.  On both sides.  My neck is so out of place, beside the tension headache is nausea and a general looseness in my orientation.  Not THAT orientation.  That may be wonky, but it has been assigned God's settings if it does drift.  No, the literal compass orientation. 

I am a bit wobbly, or could be?  It's odd.  Just because my mind feels wobbly on my feet doesn't mean my body follows suit.  I can go on the most horrific modern roller coaster ride and not feel even a bit moved.  I've tried, through time, the most severe rides.  Nothing.  Though, it's been a while.  Still, usually good on my feet.  And when my mind feels woozy, my body still doesn't.  I don't quite understand it, but it's good to have.

I have been to bed twice.  Finally, after letting the ducks out, I got back to bed a final time.  I called my mother, but she was sitting down to lunch.  By the time she called back I was out like a light.  I think I heard her, or someone, call.  I couldn't even roll to check.  Out. like. a. light.  Even then, as I surfaced to the ringing, I hurt terribly.  I couldn't tell what the pain was, only that there was a wall, engulfing me like river flood waters might an island.  Swamped, under, just holding on... hoping there would be something left when I woke.

So, no calls, no work, and maybe none tonight.  I only woke to shut the ducks safely in.  Then decided to look over the lawn.  The back and one section of the side are still begging for water.  Most of the lawn is starting to look quite good.  A couple of longer passes on the rough areas, then an hour a day on the good hours, just one area per night, for the next few days.  Then I'll leave it alone for a while.  Anyway, now I have to stay up for a while, to finish the watering.

While I can't work, nausea sees to that, I can have a bite and shower, perhaps later a true shave.  If I feel even a tiny better after those, then maybe hit dishes, clear off a few more counters, do a load of laundry, and... yea... that would be max.  If I can get that done, I would go on back to bed as the watering run ends.

It is, was at about twenty hundred... eight p.m.... down to 69° already out there!  Seems fishy.  So I have opened it up.  It was 69° upstairs, 74° in the main, and 78° up front when I woke.  A strange day.  But those are now the regular highs.  It is cooling.  Highs are lower, they aren't as high as long, and cooling is greater in the evenings.  It is almost getting cold.  I had to use four blankets, if that wasn't just a temperature thing.  I was ill today.

Blood sugar is 171 fasting.  I think I will fast today.  As weather cools, faculties will return a bit more.  I am hoping to fast a couple days a week, and return to intermittent fasting.  I doubt if I will go to a single meal a day, but starting with an eight hour eating window, pare that back to a four hour eating window... allowing two to three meals, even.  Not all will be big, and it might just be a series of snacks.  Though one big meal and grazing the rest of the time was common.  Ugh.

I don't think my system allows me to lose weight.  Even when I cut to two thirds of recommended calories for slugs (inactive), I haven't lost weight.  I've tried fewer calories, but that... fails.  Pretty quickly I am like a beast on the hunt, consuming anything and everything in search of... something.  My metabolism just isn't good enough.  My faculties aren't strong enough.  Not even when slowly worked over years.  Still, I think it is better in some ways.  It's just... I should be dead.  Nothing will ever fix that.  Not much I can do over or beside just being alive... unless God says so Himself.  Lord knows I have tried, almost to death.  Surprised that five day fast didn't kill me.  Bleh.

Later.

Not bad, not bad at all.

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Tacos were good.  I had a shell-less taco, a taco salad I suppose.  It wasn't too hot, but had more than just hot spice.  Including allspice and cinnamon.  Tasty, really.  I also made refried beans, for Boss.  He prefers that.  I didn't have those with formal supper, but had some with... the later dinner.  Dinner?  Or was the first dinner, this supper?

The backyard was watered again, and the side yard is getting hit.  I think, hope, that will be it for a while.  The front yard and part of the side yard look good, but part of the side yard and a portion of the back yard really were a bit rough.  If they are still rough in a few days, I may hit them again.  As well, I may mow in a few days... on the highest setting.

It is warmer tonight.  Technically?  Yea.  But, it doesn't feel hot, warm even.  It is almost cold... a smooth cool.  It was that way before supper... dinner? the first meal.  So much so I, for the first time in over a month, turned the ac's off upstairs and opened it up.  It's a bit of a risk, but fresh air is splendid, and I may have done well.

An hour left for watering.  I could move the sprinkler and do one place, one more hour.  And I may.  I really abused the side yard this year.  And, yet, it is coming back fairly well.  A little more water in one last area, again, could really help.  Plus, staying up another hour, with as cool as it fills, might help me sleep much earlier tonight?  Maybe.

I can't seem to pray as much as hoped, quite yet.  I am into decades of Hail Marys' and perhaps a decade of Our Fathers, plus regular, meal, and concentrated connection prayers.  I hope, as it cools, I can do a bit more.  I just can't maintain focus.  I even fall asleep, sometimes, with my standard prayers.  You'd think I'd do that with the ten to fifteen minute quiet... receiving... part of the prayer, but usually it's during requests for the ill, the weak, the lame, the church, clergy and other religious, and such.  So many of you need so many prayers!  :p

I do my best.  If it cools a bit, assuming I don't crash from that, and begins a slow decline, I should be able to get back to the rosary... hopefully in a month.  I'd really like to add a morning and night one, and think I can... most mornings and nights.  I want twice a day, for intentions.  Some will be static... family, specific family, the church, but having extra for special or situational intentions is good.  I never had enough of those when praying the rosary just in the mornings for that year so, various times.

I really want to sleep, but I think I will mover the sprinkler and get that done.  I will be so ready to sleep when that is finished.  I have an half hour and changed before it's time to move it.  Tomorrow I will work on the phone, clean shelves in the basement for cans of food, shower, do dishes, and maybe hit another load of laundry.  As well, clean in the kitchen.  I got the stove top and a counter cleaned off tonight, and have the freezer top mostly open from a few days ago.  I have paper plates.  I need disposable utensils, smaller disposable plates, and styrofoam bowls... then I won't be falling behind on dishes as often or deeply.  Ran out, went a bit broke... yea...  Back to it.  Later, or more likely good night.

Very odd.

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It is the same temps today as yesterday.  I woke cold, upstairs.  Even in the computer room I am almost a bit cool at nearing eighty.  As well, a window was forgotten open!  Very strange.  It should be a furnace down here?  As mentioned, it is no different from the indoor temps yesterday.  How is that even possible?  Even humidity seems about the same.

As I have started to leave the hutch open, the ducks are usually in it.  One of the indian runners has gone broody.  It ssems, rather than have her sit alone, the whole gang goes in with her.  I guess watching grass grow is even less interesting?  :p  It sure makes putting them up easy.  I have fed them a bit extra the last few days, to make up for the missed day.  Unneeded.  They simply don't eat much.  Actually, they are eating less than before.  Perhaps the muskovys have reached aldulthood?  If so, they will stop eating nearly as much, just as when human teens or younger twenties hit a certain stage, they slow down... hopefully.

I did set up dishes last night, but didn't ever get into them.  I also finished off the corn.  Blood sugar is a bit high this morning for it, and I am still hungry.  So it goes with carby foods.  I will used the cooking pot as a cleaning device, and open up some of the kitchen today, so as to make tacos.  I'll just have a taco salad, if the difference in space needed to make one is no different.  Hmm, best check what time supper is required.

I ended up not being able to sleep until well into morning, again.  I don't quite get that.  It has to do with when my body is most comfortably awake and asleep?  I don't have the powers to control it.  It isn't just will power.  As mentioned, something broke between my intellectual will to do things and my bodies willingness  to abide.  Draino will do that.  The body does not like pain.  Some controls broke, they can't be replaced, fixed, renewed, not completely, not that I have seen.  Part of my problem, albeit a side one.  Though, being weakened by the heat, it makes coercion over the flesh even more difficult.  It'll work out.

I haven't looked the yard over yet.  Today, when putting the ducks up, I'll investigate.  Perhaps another round of watering, or not?  I'd really like to give it a day or two to perk back up.  It takes a while to use the water, then fill back in and up as it might.  Too much water, too soon, could damage it as well.  First I think one thing, then I think another.  I'll see shortly.

Still so tired!  I may nap for another hour.  Crashing again.  It isn't blood sugar.  Just... even if it isn't bothering me, the heat... collective.  Sleep...  Ugh.  Later.

Oh well?

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I did try to sleep.  It just wouldn't happen.  To be honest, it is because it is so deliciously cool.  Even down here, for the first time in... a while... it is 70° in the front room.  I think the coolest I have seen it, for days, a week, weeks, has been 72°, and not for long.  And... not with me active up here.  I'll bet it's 68° with the potential for 66° in the main room.

I did work on the puzzle, longer than needed to finish watering.  I just... it was enjoyable.  The main problem with the 1000 piece set is that the puzzle pieces are too small, and the light a bit weak, up there.  I do have a double and very bright desk lamp up there, with arms so I can move the lights around, plus an overhead light.  It just isn't enough for a huge puzzle with smaller pieces.  This one is much better.  I may see about another lamp up there.

After recent ups and downs, I've been checking blood sugar more frequently.  It was just 148.  Not bad.  Going to have a bit and a small dose.  It's not the best food, fresh sweet corn.  But I don't do it often.  It's probably been two years since my last shot of the stuff.  I'll do it a few more times before summer is out.  It's an Iowa thing.  Even that is pretty lame.

Hmm... back to... something... nothing.  Later.

A brutal day.

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It isn't just the heat.  Or even the heat, to a degree, mostly.  It is the heat adding up over time, eroding my tolerance.  Yesterday it was as if I had no tolerance left.  Today was a goodly bit better.  Though waking before it gets too hot helps.  As well, I am going to have to go upstairs and cool off, perhaps shower or bath a few times a day, and possibly nap a time or two a day.  It's beating me harshly.

Even with the sleep interruption, I was up earlier today.  I felt better, mostly.  I have gone through moments of extreme exhaustion, with headaches, and else.  I have taken aspirin twice today, if I think the second time was a waste.  This is the first time in months?  A month?  I have been taking medicine, regularly and well, so it isn't that.  It's just the heat.

I need to make a few calls tomorrow, along with trying to clean up.  I really need to clean, but I am so broken down.  Do it anyway!  Well, yes, there is that.  Which works unless it doesn't.  The thousand piece puzzle upstairs was just too much, for a starter puzzle.  I have several five hundred or so puzzles.  I put the 1000'er away and pulled a 550... I think.  I have begun sorting, will do a bit more yet tonight.

I am up for a while, as I am finishing watering the lawn.  As of tonight, every inch has been watered once, for at least an hour, over the last three days?  Something like that.  I will look the lawn over tomorrow, let it go another day or two if that seems reasonable, and hit it all, but very little, one last time before leaving it go again.  It seems to have recovered better than I thought it would.  It wasn't horrible, but it was looking a bit rough.  I do enjoy keeping the lawn kempt, as possible.

I was sure, when it rained last night, that we would be getting rain for a while.  Not so much.  Not at all.  It was just a short, nothing, rain, leading to nothing else.  The hurricane(s?) might end up bringing something, as last time, but I wouldn't count on it.  It would have to go the wrong way, again.  I was surprised with the first one.  If it doubles down, it tells me something is very wrong.

I did contact the contact I had been given.  I was already ahead, having an account already.  The rest, as I explained, will take some time.  Heat is beginning to fray my cord.  If I can manage things a bit better, getting up into the cool, bathing or showering more, napping, and possibly working on top of those things, I might be able to figure this tech out a bit quicker than otherwise.

Yes, a bit of puzzle play, as I wait for the last watering zone to finish.  I hate getting sprayed... until I love it.  I might have to go out and get a facefull of sprinkler before going on to bed.  Still so very hot.  It is reading 74° here at the computer, so odd.  Bleh.  Later, or most likely good night.  I think I will crash early and well... and rather soon.

Finally... duck feed.

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I saw it coming for a week.  I just couldn't get out.  The heat, some other things.  Troubled week.  Today should have been better, but waking to deal with a crashing blood sugar blew the potential for a good day.  Still, I ran out yesterday.  I don't mind them going hungry a few times a month, or less.  But not two days in a row.  So I had to get out, even though it meant I couldn't do other things.  Bleh.

Four bags, I think fifty pounds per.  They were out of 18%, so I went with 20% protein.  More is okay, less not so much.  I helped get them to my cargo area, then had to unpack on my own.  It's around 90° out there.  Ugh.  I set up the pool with fresh water, stored some of the food dry, still bagged, some was poured into the 'to use' bin.  Oh, some happy ducks.  I can still hear them chittering, quacking, and enjoying.

On the way back, I saw corn for sale.  I wasn't sure I read the price right, so added a dollar just to be sure.  A dozen for either later tonight, when it cools, or tomorrow night.  I haven't had fresh corn... for a long time.  Sure, carbs, shut up.

I did get a shower in.  Toe nails trimmed, feet scales mostly removed.  I powdered and sprayed my most used shoes, and feet actually.  Summer is harsh on things, socks or no, socks shoes, or no.  I'm about to crash.  Might have to take a bit of a nap.  I checked with Boss, haven't heard back.  May have to nag.  We aren't married, so... nagging is legal!  :p  Wait... is that the other way around?  I'll have to ask a woman, then... take the opposite of what they say.  Is that also a form of nagging?  Cheers!

Later.  Or much later.

Almost.

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Almost a good night.  Things were done early enough that getting to bed early was possible.  As well, it was cool enough to begin shutting down earlier as well.  Everything came together for an early bedtime.  A last meal, and on to bed.  But... a few hours into sleep and I woke... wrong.  Something felt really off.  Ah, blood sugar.  65  Oddly, it is up to 231 this morning.  Usually a single roll of the things and a light meal won't shoot it up like that.  Oh well.

So, a round of glucotabs.  I didn't need two, this time.  Though I had a couple of leftover brots as well.  I had to babysit it, until I felt better and could return to bed.  I... just don't get that.  At least I know how to fix it.  I just wish I hadn't had to wake up, spend a couple of hours tinkering with it, while I could have been getting a better sleep.

Still, to bed early enough that I am waking in the early afternoon.  I have enough time to get a shower, go buy bird feed, and still get dinner ready... doing some cleaning while at it?  Probably.

As to hanging out clothes?  Excellent.  I thought it would take many, or several, hours to dry.  Nope.  I checked three hours after, maybe two, and dry as bones.  I had some heavy shorts, with extremely heavy duty pockets.  Not even a spot of moisture in the pockets, or when I folded the hem over the line.  Now, my fear... and exhaustion... kept me from hanging out the second load.  I didn't want them out overnight, figured... rightly... it would rain.  Yes, I was that tired.  So I just put them in the dryer.  What was hanging was put on just as the other laundry was put in.  What was put out was dry faster than the dryer finished.  Weird, but... now I know.

A quick shower than a drive for feed.  Four bags holds me fairly long.  Though, that was, mostly, with three birds.  With nine now, it... I will go much faster.  Oddly, these new birds don't even double the feed requirements.  Even as growing chicks, sort of, and still.  I put enough feed in, that at the end of the day there is some left.  I had been putting out two to three cups, gauging by the previous day how much to put back in.  Putting in too much and backing it down until there is just a bit left.  Now I am just putting out three to four cups.  These ducks forage a great deal more.  Oh, I am allowing a broody duck to do her thing.  I'll know by, say, the twentieth of next month if anything pops.

Yea.  I keep trying.  I may try to build a few nesting boxes out there.  I'm not certain about the indian runners, but the muscovys will go broody up to three times a year.  I don't think they are in that stage yet.  Will know before long.  As mentioned, extra brooding boxes might help.  Just those plastic bins, with a door, or two, cut in them.  I really don't know what I am doing, and am not certain anyone on youtube knows any better.  Still, I'll give it a go.  Later.

What time down?

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Perhaps 07:30, 08:00?  Around in there, before o' nine certainly.  I am not even sure  when I woke, though between 15:30 and 16:00 I am pretty sure.  It is hot down here, for whatever reason.  Was someone in the house, leaving the door(s) open?  That's the only time it ever gets this hot in here.  I have forgotten a window open before, and that will do it.  But all the windows are shut.  No, someone was in here, again, today.

I put a load of laundry in last night.  First thing this morning, it went out on the line.  One line did it all.  After putting it all up, I adjusted the line tension.  At first I wasn't doing it well or correctly.  But those things sort themselves out quickly.  While pulling that laundry, I put darks from before back through the wash, and will hang them when they finish.  I just want everything getting fresh air dryed.

While I was doing that, I heated water on the stove, to clean the cast out with.  I often leave fats in the cast skillet, if I am using it frequently.  But, with the summer heat, my use has been particularly sparse.  still, boiling water, then a bit of washing, and it is fresh as new... or better, newly seasoned.  Tacos tonight, assuming some items become available.  You can't really make tacos with just meat and shells... not real tacos.

I have to sit and cool a bit.  It isn't quite 90° out there, but it is so warm in here.  It was 75° in the front room at waking.  Hmm, actually, that might be normal, I am just waking later.  Bleh.  I hate that.  But, yes, it is probably just normal.  Which means it is nearly 80° in the room I am trying to cool off in.  Blah!  Way too warm.  Afternoons are like that though.

With some things going, even with the heat, I am hoping to get another shower in, maybe a shave since the trim was done.  Then put dishes in to soak.  And do some cleaning in the kitchen.  I did clean the toilet bowl, found the broom so will hit the floor before showering?  Maybe.  Then begin prepping supper.  Nothing fancy, but it has started.

Tonight I hope to finish the watering.  I'll have to pull laundry, done or not.  No worries, it has started.  It has quite a bit of time to dry, mostly, as needed.  If not finished, I will just give it a final spin in the electric dryer.  I am honestly hoping both batches will be done out there by the time I go to water.  Oh, I'm not hanging everything out.  I just don't think underwear belong on a line visible to others.  That's a small concession, and small drying load.  My underwear don't need to pass any sunshine sniff test, all I'm saying.  :p

Now to wake and cool off... as much as possible.  Later.

I hurt again.

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I hurt a lot.  I did get the sprinkler moved to every place intended, and get a lot of watering done.  I have the sprinkler reset for tonight... tomorrow night... for me... as I prepare for bed.  A shower, too, finally.  I didn't get the hamburger done.  I did start a load of laundry, and found some hardware for the last outside line.  I set that up, if I didn't get a line on.  The rest of the hardware went upstairs.  Now to figure out where to put it.  I want the longest line without cutting off the whole of the room?  Something like that.

I'll make a call, or text actually, as I let my hair dry.  Showers are wonderful.  I'm sure I mentioned that.  I am hoping to be up in time to make a few business calls, try to get voicemail set up, and send an email.  That will be sent in any case.  The others require daytime... office hours.  I think I will be up in time, but perhaps not be in shape to call.  It's useless trying to talk business when I am in bad shape, or severe pain.  I can handle the pain, but not necessarily be a functional conversationalist through it.

It looked like it might rain, but not so much.  Not that I could tell.  Oh well.  I am hoping to get the laundry out to dry this afternoon.  Outside smells better.  And I like what the wind, sun, air do to clothes, towels, and bedding.  Usually.  Not all things work best in the wind?  I can't remember what doesn't come out as preferred, but will sort that out soon.

So tired.  Good... night and day.

Watering.

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Feeling better.  Something kicked up, weather-wise.  It blew in, higher winds, earlier.  I had hoped for rain.  Perhaps a sprinkle?  Here, there?  Little to no rain.  Further, it has kept the temp up.  It isn't even below 70° yet.  Still, there was something good about it.  The promise of rain?  Or... just... something new, different?

I started with the front lawn, then hit a part of the front and am hitting a part of the back.  Will hit the last section of the back tonight.  Tomorrow I will go over the back again, hitting as much as possible of what was hit tonight, while getting anything missed.  Then go back to the side yard, hitting what was definitely missed and getting to what was hit.  One more watering of every area, it has been a long time, then back to letting it drink.  Perhaps hitting anything that isn't recovering as well in a few days.  Still, it's a much better looking yard than it has been since I moved in.

I lit the grill for a small meal.  I am hungry.  I need food.  Nothing fancy.  Hotdogs?  Brots?  I don't know, something.  I am still hoping for rain soon.  But I have held off watering as long as I am willing.  It is time to water.  If it rains on top of it?  Cool.  It would have to rain a lot for me to choose not to continue my watering plans.  And daily, for several days.  Which... is what I expect, but I expected that a while ago. 

After getting in touch with a handler, for the editing, I received a return email tonight.  There is certain markup language needed.  Which I will begin learning.  And the tasks seem straightforward, if... again... jumping in might be a bit of a trick.  I will begin researching the language necessary, and looking over the rules and regs a bit more cautiously.  These folks have a mind for detail, if not trickery.  Pay attention.  Ugh.  I'll begin on the learning tomorrow, as well as send a response.  I'm a bit tired to do that tonight.

Later, or good night.