Stalling.

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Another boss.  In the game.  One I really don't like.  Though, in truth, I don't like any of the bosses.  They just aren't fun.  The game can, will, does, cheat.  It'll through your ability to see, the boss will clip through things while blocking you, the boss may or may not ever take a break from attacking, to give you a chance.  It's just how it goes.

They say the game doesn't cheat, that these things are all based on skills, numbers, random rolls.  But that's not what I have seen.  No matter my level, randomly a boss will be nearly impossible, killing my 'toon over and over.  Then, one time, for no reason, I'll kill it as if it was a low level mob in a starter zone.  Sometimes, rarely, that happens on the first shot.  Sometimes the second.  Sometimes it doesn't happen for many tries.

A longish pleasant nap.

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Down around ten?  Half after?  Something, perhaps as late as eleven thirty, I... just can't be sure.  If I think more like around, between, the first two times.  I woke at noon, then thirteen hundred, waking about an hour after that.  It was 75/73 upstairs, with ac on.  Cool enough to sleep, mostly comfortably.  But... the heat pushed me out, I think.

All good, really.  Downstairs is, was, 73/77.  The front room heats up quickly, to eighty with me and the machine on, in, going.  I'll get into the cooler part of the house shortly.  It was 88 outside.  Still early enough that it might go up yet.  Probably will go up.  Unless a storm is pushed in, through.  Though I think we'll just get hot air for the first few days of the pressure from the hurricane.  Can hope for cooler, wet, weather at some point.  But no guarantee.  It's got a lot of summer desert area to cover between there and here.

Back down for a bit.

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It did cool a bit down here, in here generally.  Not all that well, given that it was 66 outside though.  Then again, that is just a bit cooler than indoors.  Last I checked it was still 66, but the sun had gotten through, or burned through, clouds to the east.  It was warming quickly.  So I started shutting the house down, in parts.

Decided to close it all down just now, so as to get on back to bed.  An odd night.  My sleep tracker, on the watch/phone, is totally going astray.  It was suggesting I was asleep from yesterday around three, to seventeen thirty or so.  That is when I was awake.  I went to bed around 23:300, waking at three thirty this morning, or so.  Not sure what the problem is.  But, that is not accurate.

If I had been sleeping odd shifts, I could see it somehow getting confused.  But I have been fairly regular.  @!%H^@%^&%Ying tech.  Still, it is usually helpful, and more accurate.  More laughing than actually angry.

I set the ac going upstairs, when I closed it down.  Should be reasonable.  I didn't turn the ac on downstairs, and won't, until I wake, if needed.  I love those machines, and what they can do for my sanity and health.  But they are expensive.

I'll have burgers later, and either more burgers later still, or a steak later on.  I really am enjoying eating mostly meat.  I have learned how to cook on the griddle, to make just about perfect burgers and steaks.  Life is good as a carnivore.  If, I... still dig through the carb trash from rare time to rare time.  Habit, a bad one, but becoming a rare one.

Later.  Goodnight again?  Dunno.  Will find out.

It is simply not cooling.

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It reads at 66 out there.  Not exactly cold, not even really cool.  But cooler than the 75 in this front room.  With everything open, fans pushing... nothing.  I opened up for maximum airflow.  And... one degree in two hours.  It feels so humid out there, the air just refuses to move or be moved.  It's definitely summer.  As it is normally for three to four months up to this point.  Just hitting it's stride, finally.  Oppressive.

Meds down, coffee finally made and going down, on to gaming.  I'm looking for a survival game.  One I can tinker with.  I don't mind if there is an adversarial element, barring player versus player (real players).  I don't do that.  But, say, zombies, cannibals, animals, or even odd plantlife which has become carnivore.  But, better, I like when I can shut off that element, to learn the other things without having to balance everything so strictly, in the first playthrough.  

They don't have many of these games.  And fewer on console.  It seems anything new is going purely to pc without being patched to console.  And I get why.  Too little money for Sony to dig out of players to make it worth them working with those devs.  Fun games, just for fun, with low profits?  They aren't going to do that.

I am considering, in the long run, a computer to play those types of games.  Maybe a linux rig, to boot.  With M.S. stirring up mud, trying to force peeps into their newest junk, trying to redo old agreements?  Yea no.  Plus, linux machines do fine with older equipment.  Heck, linux used to only work on rather old equipment.  Not sure about these days.  But, if I could get a linux rig up and running for five hundred, to a thousand, a gaming rig?  That... might be doable, over three or four months... at my leisure.  I simply won't spend for a microsoft rig, or even high end rig.  Even if I could.  They have killed my interest, and only a few games are worth playing... none of the AAA's.  Light duty off-brand seem to actually want to include real people players, not dei's.  I hope Soros and bros can keep affording to hire peeps who make games real people won't play.  That isn't going to work for long.  Long hard layoffs for the too-big-to-fail companies coming up.  Yea!  I hope.

Rants, sure.  But not without reason, purpose, or thought.

Hmm... on to something.  Gaming.  Later.

Up very early.

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But why?  It felt like someone was here.  Someone I knew.  To be honest, I was sure a real person was in my home.  Sounds?  Just the feel?  It didn't feel like a dangerous... person?  But, yet, I didn't like the feeling.  So, up.  But it wasn't just that.  It was... time to wake?

My body seemed ready.  Rested?  Enough, it seems/seemed?  It felt like time to wake up.  As if mom had made breakfast, before school.  Or one of my women had or was making something to eat, when younger.  Something... strange.

Summer is finally here.

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It was 75 still, last time I checked a bit ago... outside.  And humid?  Yes.  Sticky.  Or so it seemed to me.  Clouds arrived earlier.  It looked like it might storm, but just seemed too hot.  For whatever reason it didn't rain.  Which was good, at least for the moment.  I was out in an attempt to cook dinner.

Nothing fancy, 4:1 beef to ground pork.  Lot of bone in that pork.  No, it wasn't the ground pork I ordered in bulk, it was older ground pork purchased prepackaged.  It didn't end up being my favorite, if I salted a bit too much I think.  When I mix burger and pork, next time, it will be for meatballs, not burgers.  Just... doing something different.  Trying something new.  Doesn't always work.  But, for meatballs, the mix is good.  Why meatballs and not burgers?  I don't know.  Sauce?

I had thought I would stay up until it cooled outside.  Open up and wait until it cooled off indoors.  But I don't think it will, or even can, cool outside enough, or fast enough, at this point, to cool off the indoors.  It just won't work.  So, I'll just leave things going, and go on up to bed.

I've been looking for new games.  Survival type.  There just isn't much out there.  For computers, sure.  But this machine wasn't a gaming computer to start, and is older now.  Good for getting online.  Not for gaming.  I appreciate it, but will... not try to use it well beyond it's capacities.  Nor would I buy a computer.  They... killed the personal computer, by pricing it out of reach for gamers.  Then, destroyed games with "woke".  Not... worth my time.

Now they are dumbing games down so "the world" can play.  Only... not even that really works.  You can get droid like players, but they... really aren't good.  I have to wonder if drugs are being used, and other tweaks and cheats.  It... won't last.  Much like the tech world using micro-hits of lsd, and other such, in order to be competitive.  All it does is slowly destroy minds, which were questionable to start.  Creativity is painful.  Trying to get past that is... not going to work.

They'll kill their industry, or overburden it with the broken and useless.  As is, fewer and fewer are buying new AAA products, or any products.  Definitely not new.  Not until we know whether the thing, or how badly the thing, is woke... whether it is even playable, or for how long before it is, and such.  Even if I look a released game over, and it seems up to some sort of snuff, I won't buy it until it's about half price or less.  Oh, and ignore the listed price.  Many games, now, are ten to twenty off right out the gate.  So I wait until they are more in the twenty dollar range before buying.  They did it to themselves.  Hope a lot of the companies go broke.  Start over, from the ground, with non-woke, non-inclusive, workers and ideas.  If the people who are being targeted didn't ever think of toilet paper, they... aren't going to be interested or able to play solid games.  Or calculus.  Or plumbing.  Or dental care.  They'll learn, or die.  I'm... good with either, both.

Well... a bit of a look around then on to bed.  Blessings.

Definitely her.

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Almost every song I have played for her.  She knows what's for her, what could be.  But definitely what is.  All but her name stamped on some of them.  I'll be she got a bit bent about some of it.  Far too accurate, or personal.  I kept wondering if it was really her.  If it isn't, it is someone who knew both of us, how we operated, and ferreted the music which belonged.  A extreme longshot.  I know a few sharp cookies, but no mind snipers.

Hmm?  Oh, the pops.  Yea.  Definitely her.

Late to bed?

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It was definitely after 1:30.  But to two, three, four?  I just... can't remember.  It was so warm that getting up and to bed was a complicated matter, and memory just doesn't work well.  It did cool, to about 72 front and back.  Down here, with the ac off.  I had the ac running upstairs.

I remember suggesting I was going to close everything and turn everything off, down here.  And keep the ac running upstairs.  I... didn't do either.  I left things open down here, turned the ac off upstairs, and opened the windows.  Which is probably why I woke at ten or so.  At which time it was already 78 outside?  Yikes.  Yes.

On the good side, it remains cool in the house.  I did shut up the upstairs, and most of the downstairs.  The front door is open just a crack.  It offers air flow out, which sort of keeps the place warm, until heat is too much and bursts in.  Actually, it's about time to close that door.

An oddly difficult night.

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Too warm.  Sure seems it.  While, at 1:30, it is finally down to 62 outside, it was slow to cool... seemed it.  And hotter than what the thermometer was reading.  Just one of those days.  I won't bark at that tree too much.  We have had a very easy summer.  A few days, even weeks, of hotter weather is half expected.  Half wanted.  Just to get some... hot days in so winter can be more appreciated.

I finally realized it was cool enough to open the house up.  Haven't opened the upstairs yet, perhaps if/when I go to bed?  Though, really?  If I open up, and go to bed this late, I'll be waking to a furnace.  No, I'll keep it shut down and ac on.  Downstairs?  I'll get it as cool from the outside as possible, before going on to bed.  But shut it all down before going on to bed.

Looks like I will be losing daylight.  But... that happens in deep summer, and often deep winter.  Though it can happen at any time.

I thought she had stopped watching long ago.

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Well, then, I did shut the doors for a longish time.  Tried to get people to go away.  Some have returned.  From... the responses, I suspect she is back.  Though... who can ever tell.  Could she remain "quiet"?  Yes, and... from the responses... no.  Some are old, very old, some newer, some are brand new, to me.

Up, late.

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I was to bed early enough to not have thought I would need more sleep.  Though, too, I was sitting in the heat for a bit too long.  Out in this front room it just didn't cool, and I got stuck here.  Sitting, reading, listening.  I think the heat just got to me.

I'm leaving the ac on upstairs, and turned the one on down here.  Just too hot.  Summer is finally here.  I think it was 87 when I checked, at around ten or nearing eleven?  I think so.  Fed Sassy, water should be heated for coffee though I think I'll have kefir first, then coffee after.

Not as hot as I thought it would get.

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It is about 87 out there.  It might have gotten a degree warmer, and started cooling?  I think so.  But, that one degree warmer, in the more direct sun?  Was a LOT warmer than that indicated, or to me.  Something odd about how that is, and can get to me, on some days.  I was cooking burgers in the mid afternoon.  No, it wasn't the griddle.  It blasted me when I stepped out for a bit.  

It has gotten warmer in here.  But I am trying not to use the ac.  It is 75/79 downstairs.  I haven't checked upstairs since this morning, when I turned the ac off up there.  I left fans going.  Anyway, I just turned on the ac down here.  Oh, I should get the fan going in that room.  Helps, a lot.

Birthdays.

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My mother's is coming up.  I... never remember a card.  But... that... she is a patient woman.  A call, it seems.  But, sometimes, more?  Sometimes.  Now that I have a few tricks up my sleeve... more.  If... it works out.  I can only do my part.  The world has to do it's part.  My part has been done.

It's already early afternoon.  I turned off the ac upstairs.  Haven't yet turned on the ac down here.  At 74/75/76 (front room and computer area are the warmest) it is about time.  Feels okay, but starting to get... uncomfortable, even with the fan.

Up, a bit late.

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Down at ten.  The temp was 76, but I forgot.  Checking twenty minutes later, and it's up to 78 out there.  Ugh, but it's going to be a warm one.  Soon.  It was 73/75 upstairs, with it all unbuttoned and the flaps open.  I shut it all down, then turned on the ac before coming down.  Or that will become a hotspot.  I'll turn the ac off in an hour or so.  Create a cool(er) bubble there.

I closed all but the front door, downstairs.  Didn't turn the ac on, yet.  It's 72/69, the front room being the coolest for the moment.  I'll close that door when I turn the ac off upstairs, if not sooner.  As soon as I sense the warm coming in.  Not yet?  May do it anyway, when I finish this.  Then, too, turn on the ac.  As I suggested, I believe this is going to be a warm one, and I am already feeling it from those two quick trips out there.

Cooling quickly.

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At 20:30, it had already dropped to 73, almost 74.  Yes, that surprised me.  By 21:15 it was to 66.  Here at 22:00, it remains right at 66.  I am sure it will cool through the night.  Though... maybe not much?  It seems like we are finally hitting a warm spell?  It seems like it may be that way for a while.  It's... summer... so... yeah, maybe.

I won't knock it.  But it is beating me up a bit.  Ac's make it very livable.  But, at peak high summer, even caves, with ac, have limits in how much protection and cool they can provide.

Strangely warm.

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It seemed to creep up on me.  Perhaps I just forgot to close down the house soon enough, or else?  It is 88 outside, but 77/82 inside?  Strange.  I think this is around the time I closed up the cave yesterday?  Or... maybe my mind has turned to slush as it heated.

I closed everything up, for sure.  Then started the ac.  I went upstairs.  Which was closed up, and is 75/75?  Warm, and evenly so.  But not as hot as downstairs.  Whatever.  I turned the ac on up there, too, after making sure it was definitely closed up.  Just... cooling that area for a few hours, then I'll shut it down.  Maybe or maybe not the same down here.  Depends on where the temp is, and how it feels.

Not the best.

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Certainly could be worse.  Not even sure, exactly, what is wrong.  Sensors aren't reading well.  Aches, pains, organs, muscle, bone.  Nothing severe, if a goodly number of problems.  Each, it seems, stumbling over one another to report in a problem.  And I'm not awake enough to interpret the reports either.  Have definitely had worse.  This is just a local low, for the last... week or two?  Or so.

Twenty to nine, I think, is when I woke.  Warmer, this morning, or seems it.  73/73 downstairs, 73 upstairs if 74 near me.  The upstairs was open, as were the windows downstairs.  It was 70 outside already.  Could be a warmer day, maybe a hot one.  I'll just hunker down, if so.  Probably either way.  Almost still tired, but I couldn't sleep more.  Wanted to be up earlier anyway.  Don't always get what we want.

Oldies.

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Mostly.  Who is... there?  Who is looking around.  One, or two, sure.  It happens.  But... these are just a smattering.  And the intensity.  I couldn't avoid noticing, no matter how strictly I attempted to ignore.  Have I touched someone, caused them to remember something?

Yes, I... am... brutal?  And, yet, not.  I... can kill, and happily, peacefully.  Or die.  And, for the right people, if I am in the right place, both are... possible.  Not for pleasure, not with hate, not in anger.  Merely, if I do such things, merely for the right reasons.  Trained?  Who knows.  Who cares.  Just... that I can, and would if I could, either, as needed, for the right reasons.

A very pleasant day.

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Sure, it's warming.  Into the mid 80s.  The house is warming.  Into the mid 70s and higher in the front room.  No ac on, a few fans.  Sometimes these temps are difficult, some days they are quite... nice.  Today, up to very recently, they have been nice.  Starting to stretch things.  I can fix that.

Gaming, mostly.  A bit of caring for Sassy, her needs.  As well, I made burgers and set out a steak, salting and peppering them.  I let the burgers sit for a while, to see if salting and bringing to room temperature does to burgers what it does to steaks.  And?  One data set won't give a perfect answer, but... yes.  I think so.  Less salt is needed.  Next time I'll about halve the salt.

Earlier than expected.

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Was it eight, eight thirty?  Something... nearly nine?  It was 66 when I woke.  At twenty to eleven, it is hitting 76.  Indoors it is 72/72 down here, with a fan going and a few windows and the front door cracked, just now.  I closed up all but the front door as I checked this last time.  Strange, but pleasant.  Warmer upstairs, when I woke, 72/73?  I haven't needed the air conditioners all that much this year.  Afternoons, down here.  A bit before and sometimes, often, during sleep.  If I am trying to cool the place off up there a few hours before bedtime, then opening up and shutting that down as I go to bed.

The middle of August?  Mid 80s used to be cooler days, but are more the norm this year.  Haven't had rain in a while.  Still, had more rain during what is normally dry then we get most of the rest of the year?  Rain, not including snow.  Maybe, maybe not.  Though we have had a lot of rain this year, on top of the extra snow this last winter.