Into the O.T.

.
.
Why wait, and since I cannot sleep, I have begun my rereading of the O.T. Genesis is longer than I remember. Most of it is tracking with what I did remember though. Then again, I read it only a year ago, if I stopped there too. My mind is whirling with ideas, memories, and thoughts. My doubts are often formulated right before I get to a point where those doubts are dispelled. It is almost as if my mind remembers what is ahead and prepares my doubts to specifically be shot down.

I also realized something else. In dreams I have, 1/3 of the world, the heavens, and even the fish are destroyed. In my dreams, it is I who am doing the destroying. The stars that are brought down are actually angels who have strayed. That is in the beginning of the destruction. The horsemen ride, the four of them. Other than Christ, I believe the rest are thrown into the pit of fire once their work is done. It seems that, though they do God's will, they are not of God. Urhm, if I got that right. I have always wondered if I am a horseman. If so it would be war. I have always felt a pull, in both directions, both good and evil, and strongly. Eat, drink, and be mary or become chaste and devout.

I know which way I have chosen. And, too, I know that I am not that important. But being religious and spiritual, I think we all identify our good and evil with various persona in the bible. Some think of themselves as Peter, even to the denial of Christ, those who suffer persecution must look to Christ as an example, and so on. But because of our darkness, I think we also identify, at times, with the evil ones, the dark ones.

My dreams must have come from the reading of the bible in my youth. For I had only remembered the falling of the people, and then I thought it was 2/3 of the people. So my memory actually conflicted with my dreams and visions of the events to come. Until I reread Revelations to John. Much of that makes sense to me. If it is not exactly literal it does contain truths which are sincere. From the fall of Babylon, to the dragon, to the beast, the false prophet, the King of kings, and such, they all have meaning. But putting the meanings together coherently might lead one to believe that with the fall of Rome the end times were at hand. Most of the things described about Babylon are directly related to Rome. I suppose that is why some think that the Papacy is now the evil which must fall. Not I, of course. I believe Rome was given as an example of whichever city of great power there would be. How many hills were there or are there upon which NYC, Washington, D.C., Brussels, or simply Manhattan are standing on?

And, with any prophecy, there is difficulty in discerning. Especially this type of prophecy. Whatever the city, it will depend on many factors. And, it is odd, though the bible calls for peace, it does suggest that the one who comes to bring world peace is the one to watch. He will be false. I have to wonder if the false prophet is not a scientist. In any case, live as if there really is no tomorrow, but not in the way that might presume. It was cool, though, to have my dreams born out. Though, if destruction was meant for my hands, I think I will pass. Ha! Dreams...

Well, back to bed, or I will try.

Good night, sleepy heads. Or good monring.