Why would someone question their humanity?

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Little thoughts are ticking away as I goof to wakefulness.  I was thinking about the question, among other quantities and qualities of life.  I can't say for all men, or even one other man.  I can say for my part, why such a thing would be questioned.  On a purely physical platform, I come from it as someone who has survived nigh on statistical impossibilities.  Not one, or few, but many.  Heck, when I woke this morning I continue to stretch probability.  As well, some men seem to have a power that is all their own.  They can change their, and even other people's, world... perhaps down to altering reality?  I suppose I consider the men that God made to be men of action, true, but... of lesser action.  There are some men who stretch action out of the context... of some limits.

Now, I do believe God is calling us to come into our own, to be truly powerful beings.  Eventually, those who choose His way, will literally be His children, as it was meant to be.  But I see clearly that He is trying to separate us from our own will.  The reason the term "Father's will" is so potent is because I see it as the key, possibly, probably, more than simply a call to do His will.  In doing His will I see the way, true.  But when we become powerful, we will need to see that power, our power, is a means to something other than our own will or ends.  Through the use of His will, we are learning to differentiate our will from 'the good', or whatever it is our will should be used to enhance.  So, some men, who have powerful wills... it brings questions to mind concerning them.  Well, that and men who lack any of this.  Outliers, souls, soullessness, God's will... it all creates questions. 

It is difficult to put this all into the correct words.  And some will find fault with any question of such nature, purely because they don't want to believe the truth that not all men are equal, or women, or pets, or... anything.  It might mean they are forsaking their responsibilities, coasting, a part of the rot.  Only, I have to question some things.  I have to think them through.  Oh, no, I won't proffer an answer.  Simply I don't have an answer, for sure.  Is it worthy to question?  I have to think that is part of God's will.  It is when answers are formed, right or wrong, and then what to do about them.  There is where the problems can arise.  A wrong answer, however, that does no harm, is far preferred to a right answer that ends up being genocidal... even if just in intent.  Much to consider.  And, no, not even my hedges lean me to believe in genocide.  How could it if I were even thinking I were an outsider?  Of course, the X-men nemesis notion of getting rid of normals exist, save that... that notion is anathema to me as well.  If anything, even if not popular, they do quite the opposite.

Even a soulless man has a purpose in God's will, should there be such men.  What that purpose might be only God knows.  Heck, it might be to test those who know, those who have power, to see if they have mercy in them.  Dunno.  Some, though, I think, will be needed to do the darker parts of God's plan.  Someone, for example, had to accuse, try, punish, then execute Christ, if I think those were quite normal men.  The thing is, what will have to take place will require no ordinary men for the final sequence of events.  Ordinary men cannot overcome other ordinary men, most of whom have at least a seed of light in them, especially not as a vast minority.  But that will have to happen, so I think... some men are not what they seem to be.

So, which are you? :p

The sun is coming up.  I opened the curtains probably a bit early but it is a wonderful winter day.  We keep getting ice crystal seeming skiffs of snow at night, or early morning.  I had called my mother about the goggles, she didn't answer, but called back shortly.  She thought they were where I thought they would be.  I'll look again.  Oh, and I will call city hall and see if there is a water issue for anyone else.  Then I'll give one more sweep for the goggles and begin figuring out how to get going for swimming.

Good day.