I don't really understand things lately.

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I went down at 1:30, give or take.  Now, I was a little tired, so I set the alarm for 9:30.  I turned it off, almost without realizing it, but woke at about 9:42 anyway.  So the alarm did help.  What don't I understand?  Well, why I am needing so little sleep.  Eight hours, and small change, last night, was the longest I have slept in... weeks now, give or take.  I am sleeping more like six to seven hours a night. 

I have had times where I did this, in the past.  But very shorts spells, which usually lead to disaster.  Eight to ten hours, and mostly regular sleep, has been my norm since starting heart medicine.  That is much better than my usual before that, with days going by in bed... for weeks, even months, at a time.  Normalcy was rare, and still is a bit.  But this sleep cycle I am in is... darned near miraculous.  I know, it's probably temporary, especially when I increase the dose on carvedilol in January, probably.  But I do think it is going to become the norm.  My heart IS improving.  The difference becomes much more plain to see, even, or especially for me.

I still can't do much.  But I have begun to add things back into very regular routine.  Medicines, teeth, and grooming each morning is the new thing I hope to begin implementing.  A shower at least every other morning, brushing my hair and teeth, and deciding whether the face shag needs tending.  A few whiskers look manly, and I don't have a woman to complain or withhold kisses, so I'll keep it until it starts to look too rough. 

Oh?  You didn't realize?  It's true.  I haven't been taking good regular care for most of my adult life.  I did, mostly, while in college, but I had someone doing the laundry and some of the other things in support.  Yeah, I'm... not a good housekeeper, but it does help with the rest of life.  And while she didn't think she was good at it, she was far better than I was, and it did help.  I was cooking seven to ten meals a week then, too.  But she did (most of) the dishes and at least half of the shopping.  And... I needed help in other ways, while trying to run that program.  Then again, it was engineering school.  It was a rough haul though.  This is different.  Having a woman, now, might lead me through engineering school.  The problem is, I don't think there is enough work to support such a career choice at this time.  It would just be for the paper on the wall.  No wife, so I wouldn't be able to figure it out.  Well, and... my sleep cycle isn't actually nailed down, yet.

Hmm...  Haircuts.  I have to stop so my friend can go along first.  And I need a shower and... no, I think I can skip the shave.  I best get moving though.  Have a good day.