Up early but weakly.

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My organ meat seems to be settling.  There is still an occasional muted thud that sends minor rifts of lightning pain.  But it is rare and random, and is stopped much more quickly because the events happen as singular events and with enough time between them that my brain isn't having to track three to five at once... that slows my painkilling process greatly.  The shoulders are good, back to normal already.  Oddly, my triceps is where the pain from my shoulders, and stiffness from the neck, settled.  Yeah, I don't understand it all either.  Doctors just tell me I'm crazy.  I'm only crazy because they tell me I am, which I refute.  As usual.

I did find my diabetes tester.  Oddly, blood sugar is still high, in the 190's.  The only carbs I have eaten was a regular soda when invited to pizza.  When I went out with my friend I had coffee, with splenda.   I haven't even been drinking a lot of dairy.  Perhaps a half cup of whole whipping cream per day, for coffee, and perhaps one large glass of milk every other day.  I just don't get it.  Blood pressure was right around 150/100.  That beats the 210/140-160 sort of average before that, but it's still a bit high.  I thought the higher doses would help, quicker, but... not so much.  Still, I am taking everything, and as rightly as I can.  I may need to increase insulin.  I'm a bit nervous about the stuff.  Going low on blood sugar is truly terrifying.

I did wake early, but for the first time in a while I needed a nap.  I made it as close to 11:00 as I could, losing control just a bit before it.  I had to fight for that extra hour or two of up time to get there.  Odd dreams lately.  Last night I dreamed of all of the strange things I remember having heard or even believed as a child.  Fairy tales, urban legends of the more minor sorts, and having all of those be real in the dream.  It was a bit spooky but mostly delightful.  Think of tiny fairies living in flowers, frogs turning into princes, and such.  Of course there were witches, but I didn't get turned into a newt or such.  Just the sort of fright level a child would nominally show toward such things, there were no real adult level emotions.  Ah... what a world children have, and a good thing too.  I carried on, a bit, with that theme, while dreaming during my nap.  Not a bad thing, and certainly sets the stage for a better mood.

Some of the dreaming was creepy... you know the minds of children (you, yes even you, had to have been one).  This vid sort of expresses some of the notion of that, and explores it a bit... in a mostly fun way.  This also explains some of the reaction from others that I receive.  In real life, on the blog.  I don't fit my appearance, I am not like others, even if it were physical characteristics, but it's not just that.  How I think, what I think, what I say or write...  It leaves doubts.  Either you like the sort of roller coaster of the mind I present or you do not, much like real roller coasters.

I didn't get done what I had hoped to do today.  Struggling to stay awake early and then still taking a long time to wake after rising from the nap.  I have struggled, until now, with exhaustion today.  I had to turn the furnace way up or I wouldn't have stayed awake.  Ugh... some days are just tough.  I can't remember if I mentioned it, but my mother has received another package.  She should have two more coming.  One year I bought her perfume worth more than all the gifts I bought her this time.  And she enjoyed it, and the luxury of it, but... not really her thing.  Still... once in anyone's life it is good to receive a true luxury.  Or, as much as any could afford.  This time it's all practical.  Some of it is lasting and will serve her well, some of it will be gone possibly faster than the perfume.  But she will personally enjoy it more.

Well... time to... get to something else.  Be well.  Hmm?  Well, don't stand there gawking, get off my porch and get some work done.  Or at least get a nap in.  Dang kids.