Burned.

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Even before I went to bed, if doubting my eyes, it looked like I had a sun burn.  Seriously?  I was out of my home for only about three hours, most of that time in my vehicle or in a store.  The only times I was outside was, when at my friend's place, he was finishing his cigarette and then when he had a cigarette after shopping.  In both cases, I mostly kept my back to the sun.  Sure, it isn't burned to a crisp, but lightly red with some slight puffiness.  That is just crazy.  I'm doomed!  Wait, I AM Doom.  Never mind.

I did set up the new pillows.  I do think they will work.  Even with them being a change, I woke without fresh kinks, aches, and pains of adjustment I had been waking into.  There are small aches and such in the neck, shoulder, and head regions, but those are remnants from yesterdays.  Echoes that should iron themselves out before too long.  Pretty whiny for a monster, I know.  But I have the time and little else to focus on.  If God sees me to a wife, she will... give me something to whine about, but no time to do so.  Which is why I will return the favor by giving her a child, then more.  You know, I don't think that works out quite like it seems, which is exactly how God planned it.  You don't get ahead until you are so far behind that you can't catch your breath.  Then, when you find balance, and catch your breath?  Then, on earth, you KNOW heaven.  He's... tricky that way.  It's just that so many have lost faith.  They want heaven now, and always, so much so that the only way to find it quickly is to exclude God.  That instant heaven, however, is exactly what those of faith know as hell.  Damned addictive, too.

Never mind.  Look... if you think I am evil?  And I am telling you that the ultimate good in, and beyond, the universe should receive your kneel?  It makes me laugh when people call me evil, then ignore my advice on how not to be evil, or what evil is or isn't.  If you are considering drugs, talk to an addict who would make another choice.  If you are thinking about having sex before marriage, talk to an older person who has had many affairs and found the fulfillment of emptiness and those who are now irreparably diseased.  Thankfully I hit the one before stumbling into the other.  If you are going to ride wild on a motorcycle, talk to some of the long-timers and those who have lost it all for fun.  Don't listen to those who are just about to get off the bus into whatever darkness with you.  They know not what lies ahead.  Don't ask the ones waiting to prey on you, either.  Your stupidity is their meal plan.  Just a thought. I have nothing to gain from your success or failure.  I don't get a percentage of tithes, I don't get a free pass to heaven for some number of sign ups, heck... if I am a giant, truly, I may never see heaven.  I gain nothing, only some satisfaction that another soul might stumble, haltingly, humbly, into a bright new true real future day.

Burned?  I can still pull boiled eggs out of still boiling water, but I can't handle a bit o' sunlight?  Maybe it really is some sort of more literal frozen fever.  It sure feels like it.  Ah well, I'll recover.  I told my friend that I would be in later in the week.  Shooting, probably.  He thought maybe he hadn't heard from me because I was angry.  I told him, if I was angry, he would definitely have heard from me.  Though I had to add that, well, I am angry at him.  Just for general purposes, and no more than I am angry about anyone or anything else.  That got him to chuckle.  Which... made me angry!  :p  Yeah, no worries.  I think it's all fun and games, in one sense, even when someone loses an eye.  That'll teach em', or me.  Remember, "em'" is me backwards, without even the fancy punctuation tech gadget.  Huh?  Shut up.

Later.