New Years thoughts and concerns.

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Once it was thought that when, or if, some things were to happen was the way of things.  As time seems to have happened, I realized it isn't a matter of if or when, simply when.  It has clarified, if not perfectly.  Yeah, it is a bit more clear.  The stars will align.


Life can be very confusing.  More so for some than for others.  Confusing in different ways, perhaps.

I have some sympathy for good women out there.  I know how difficult it is for them.  So much competition.  So many distractions.  Yeah, but I think the one that wonders now knows.  She just doesn't know if that is enough.  It is.  At least to this point.  More will have to be learned, but that door will be open when proximity allows.  Oh, no... straight as an arrow understandings.  I am as bound by chastity as I might become to marriage.  Thankfully, she is as well.  Opportunity.  With great promise.

There are things none understand.  I have some notion of things to come.  The river has not allowed me passage.  I yet have things to do.  When I do cross that river, it will not be alone.  Once over the river, each will already know his fate.  For he will have chosen it.

Too, there are reasons I resist love.  Not all is understood.  I see much.  About myself.  About others.  About the ways of the world and more.  Dark things, joys, and more.  The blood of the various lambs and wolves, what they are for, what they do, what they cost.  Much care in the choosing of these, great diligence in choosing with whom to share blood, and what blood. 

A new year, a long road traveled, a long road yet to travel.  Thoughts and concerns... and hope.

Happy New Year to you as well,  I hope.  Good night.