Must have needed it.

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Down by 20:30.  I initially woke at 3:30, and was almost sure I was awake.  I started to think about something, then nothing.  4:30?  Wow.  Weird, but I am up now, for sure.  I rolled over to 6:30!  Very weird!  But definitely awake, as sleep almost ate me again.  No!   So, I got up, used the facility, set up the machine, and sit writing this, as the clock says 6:06?  So toast.  No, both the upstairs clock and this one are radio linked to the Colorado nuclear time system.  I... don't know what... that... was.  I very rarely see that in waking time.  Others have experienced it for the first time in my presence.

When I suggest accidental transcendentalism, I don't mean it merely in a personal, private, or psychological way.  In some ways, it is purely objective and impersonal.  Quite real, no longer having much to do with me.  It can frighten or terrify friend, stranger, or foe.  Perhaps it is some sort of pheromone or hormone released, which has slightly... hallucinogenic properties?  I...always seek potential scientific explanations.  I like spiritual, faith has it's reasons.  But, in time, what faith now requires will become actual science as a knowledge.  So...

Of course, I neither need or expect belief, even from those of you who have experienced it.  Like the guys I k.o.ed, their minds always looked for any explanation which didn't leave them naked, alone, vulnerable, in the dark, without any say.  It terrifies more to lose temporary control than almost anything else.  Denial is common. Even I... attempt denial, when I forget, or it's possible.

So warm upstairs.  62° F.  It was 57°  at bedtime.  Almost too warm.  It doesn't seem to matter whether I leave the door downstairs open or not.  Sleep was good enough.  And I actually didn't feel too cold or hot.  It is just strange.  Thursday already.  I suppose I best get busy before I have another dead week.  Later.