Tenderly painful.

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It was between 19:00 and 21:00 when I went down.  I think it was later into 20:00, like 46 after?  I can't be sure.  But thereabouts.  Waking just at 03:30, give or take a few minutes.  Sleep was mostly good.  Innards still feel like a knotted bruise, but an easier one, as the bruise is finally breaking up.  I've had more bruises than you have had dreams, by far.

Stats are all a bit to a lot high.  I'll scratch that and take them after meds.  I know why some of them are high, not others.  However, from the way of things?  I may put that other heart medicine back into play if the numbers continue to run higher.  Hmm... I still want to give it a few days.  And, maybe, I should check bp only after taking medicines, and then an half hour.

My feet aren't just looking better.  My gnarled toenails are... moderating.  Further, as mentioned, they fit size 15 mediums just about perfectly, even with thick socks.  Wonderful.  I wore twelves until the Navy, for there really weren't bigger, save for custom, in my areas.  The Navy got me into thirteens.  And... I thought that was it.  I thought my feet were deformed for their nature, not the wrong shoe size.

Just recently, after buying shoes for a good worker from time to time... as his feet grew, I started wondering.  A literal measurement, from information from him, finally led me to understand I should be in, at least, 15's.  Of course, with swollen feet, that wasn't the whole of it.  Though I didn't realize that as the problem then.  

Finally, I had shoes that mostly fit, but kept trying to find the righter sizes.  It wasn't until I had several new shoes and boots, and the swelling, for the first time in years, decades more likely, went away, that I find myself with a stable of good shoes.  I also have one which is definitely larger yet, a work boot.  But that will handle two thick socks if need be.  And I have one other I need to try on, which might be a bit larger as with the boots.  If so, I will probably still keep them, in case I have a bad day/week with water.  I don't think that is permanently gone.  With three or four pair of boots and shoes which fit, and two larger, I am... finally able, after four decades, to put my best foot forward on any given day.

And, as mentioned, my toes are normalizing.  Not always squished together, or shoved from the toe into the body, they are improving.  I may see about a pedicure, twice a month, to get the last of the curls and barbs out.  Those helped with the pain, but with the source of the pain gone, now, just a few might complete health.  I'd love to continue with those, but not required.  A few sessions should get them righted.  Oh my God, but what the right size shoes can do!

To imagine the horrible pains, just from that, which have been ended.  To further realize that that suffering was only a trivial of the many I suffer.  It was almost never discussed, compared to the kidneys, abdominals, bone, muscle, headaches/migraines, and others.  You have no idea...

Later.