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Just checking on mother. She had a rough day, too. Weakness, couldn't stand or walk well. Frustrating, I know. Which is why I am hoping to get a shower stool soon. I don't need it all the time, just... once in a while. Legs become jello. Sometimes it's from the muscles, sometimes from the heart. Though perhaps they are both from the heart, just a different mechanism? I would guess so, as my muscles and nerves, and else, are pretty good. Just out of shape.
She is getting her funeral arrangements made. She has plans for the service. Knows where it will be. Has everything paid up. Oh, and is writing the obituary. I asked if she would send a copy. Just to see. What a gal, to be honest. Once I get things a bit more settled, and decide a few more things, I... will begin with that process myself. To include, possibly, having my casket ready. May try to build it myself. Best to converse with funeral homes/services, to make sure the casket will hold. A bit of engineering is required for those, especially when burying a bear. Wouldn't want the indignity to pallbearers to have me drop out midway there. Then again, don't want it so overbuilt that it takes ten to carry. Though, often, these days, they just mount the caskets on gurney sort of things... with wheels. Pallbearers are getting older too. The world is... dying. The West is. Aging before it does so.
Still rough. Food was good. But... it's a rough day. Dark. Windy? A bit, I think. I, and my mother, both get the sense that a snowstorm is still on the way, in our areas. She feels it in her bones, I feel it in my spirit. Could both be wrong. Strange, we would both feel it, though. Could, still, be wrong. Or we are in for a heck of a storm. Time will tell, if I have my doubts. Just a... fluke of feels?
Have heard nothing from the people, regarding the potential lean on the house. May give them a call tomorrow. Later.
I took care of my final arrangements last year. Cremation, no service. Ashes will be buried with a lovely flat headstone.
ReplyDeleteIt's a relief to have it planned and paid for.
Yes, I am sure of it. I should have had this done decades ago. Though, oddly, it hasn't yet come to pass. It well... should have been expected. I'm working on it. Technically, with the value of my possessions, from home to vehicle to else... it... shouldn't be any kind of problem.
ReplyDeleteThough, I suppose, I had hoped... someone would be involved. I know to die is to die alone, it is just hoped that... someone... anyone... would... notice. Too much to ask, in these times, for some of us I suspect.