Idiots.

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The lien?  On the house?  Is to the mortgage holder!  Ugh!  They all have that.  I didn't know they held a lien.  I guess I didn't know how that works.  I was wondering, as I had not been informed of anything else.  These two or three weeks, worried about a lien that was, in essence, just the mortgage holder claim.

Well, that makes like easier.  So... no worries.  They are pushing for me to sign.  Oh well.  A ten grand cost for a thirty grand loan, on the value of the house?  No.  If it had been a few grand, sure, maybe.  Paperwork and whatnot.  But not a third of the value of the loan.  Plus interest.  One or the other, mostly, not both.

At least I don't have to worry about fighting a legal battle about a medical debt, or some such.  Yea.  But, the extra two hundred I was going to have to be putting against the new higher mortgage can go into savings.  Along with what else was going in.  Plus, whatever extra from through the month.  If I can push three times that amount, I can get electrical in a year, or even this fall.  And begin arranging furnace and central air next spring or fall.  Plus, to little things between now and then... out of pocket.  Sure, it won't be as fast.  But that is stupid expensive financing.  No thank you.  Crazy.  Insane.  Criminal, in my opinion.  And that was through the V.A. financing?  Yea no.

Well, now I can relax.  That was half of what was bothering me.  Keeping me down.  So much stress.  Dealing with housing/home is... so very stressful.  And an unknown lien was more terrifying to boot.  It's the unknown that can kill.  I may have to see how much I could get for the place.  Less then 300 and I won't sell.  More and I'd sell today.  Much more and I'd do it yesterday, figure out how to get out shortly.  

Visit my mother, on my way to... nowhere.  El Salvador, the Philippines, or wherever I felt reasonable about, and could get a non-masked transport to... say a private sailing ship, or even boarding on a hauler ship of some sort.  I won't fly, as long as masks are mandated, certainly not if the jab is required.

Or... just disappear, again.  It'll be the thousandth time.  I... would be giving a few folks a few ducks.  Family, and friend family.  Just... a bit.  To help get them started, and to one who may no longer be a friend for things I have said... if truthful, hurtful.  Because I want to see him succeed.  I won't apologize, but I will... gift the righteous a bit.  Then again, that is as much a pipedream as the loan was.  So...  Just... dreaming.  Later.