Not as bad as yesterday.

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Stressed, though.  Tired.  Hurting.  Sore.  The heart, it really is sore, as if bruised.  But, as mentioned, better today.

I'll be sending an email to the company dealing, potentially, with the lean.  Lien?  Yea, whatever.  Anyway.  Everything is being held up by them, at the moment.  Partly.  Though, really, just a decision.  Which is the crux of the process.  So...

Dark, again?  Or partly?  Haven't looked out.  Seeing some light peak in, but...  I looked out.  Hazy rather than full on cloudy, but darker.  Not a full shine, for certain.  It was 65, upstairs, with the windows open.  But, the furnace is on, so that may have thrown it.  Even with the door shut, and vent blocked off, in warmer weather that heat will add to the upstairs.

I tried the double fermented kefir.  Putting it in the fridge overnight, as it had jelled well.  But it has absolutely no flavor.  Then again, it's a first batch.  And, I can smell the kefir, at least in the fermenting jars.  I can't, in the second ferment jar.  Dumping that.  But, then, I usually do.  Still, I think it won't work, so ordered another batch of fresh kefir grains.  And, when that arrives, will get fresh milk right away, and get that going.  Now I know where to get what I need, and exactly what I need.  Might as well dump that first load.  Though, rather than waste, I'd like to create a line of this stuff, to compare to the new stuff.  Only, I won't probably keep the old stuff.  My guess is, if abused a bit, it will lose some of the yeast and bacteria a fresh batch has.  Not everything makes it through time.  Not sure it can be reintroduced.

Oh, and I am quitting cream, from the dairy.  Will go back to milk, and just milk.  Cream at the store is close enough, since they are all pretty much just fats, but milks are different.  Non-homogenized, not pasteurized, milk is much finer.  Whereas cream is pretty much cream, as it isn't homogenized, though may be pasteurized if that doesn't make much difference for fats.  And, at half to a third the cost, it... isn't worth any spread on any issue.  But milk, especially for kefir, once it's been fed up to production on 'milk light'... yes, that will be worth a bit extra.  That is still twice the price of regular milk, but, as mentioned, is worth it.

Breakfast is brewing.  The litter pans have been cleaned.  Dishes reset, not that there are many.  I am about to send an email, about the lien.  And, then... start the waking process.  Good morning... day now.