Up, indeed!

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A shower, taken.  No shave.  Just too miserably tired.  But, I did get to the post office, for a package, before he opened.  I was told I had a package, Friday.  I have... been trying to get up and out since then.  Sometimes I don't make it.  Things have been returned.  Being mostly dead, it's... the way of things.

Beside those, I got to town.  I stopped at three grocery stores, owing to one not being open yet.  To be honest, I was surprised two were open at 07:00.  And, I purchased rabbit feed.  Just one pack.  Should last the month and some.  I was surprised they were open, too.  Traffic is murder, already.  Up and back, didn't matter.

A few things, fresh, to eat.  Salad, plus store cream.  Seems the dairy is... having trouble after problem.  It happens, with just a two people band.  Bringing in cheap labor is... dangerous.  It's a tough gig.  I've been doing rabbits/ducks for some years, and it... does wear on you.  Then again, Sassy has to be fed several times a day, plus litter twice a day, sometimes more if I think about it, plus water change every few days.  There is me, but I can go without, if I am more tired than hungry.  Or, whatever else.  Or, just grab something, or do a drivethrough.

Oh, I was tempted to do so, today.  I really wanted a mcdonalds triple burger.  With the works.  But, I don't think they serve dinners yet.  And, even if they did, last I remember, they don't do breakfast and dinner well together.  It... tastes... funny.  Like cannibals on a clown, boi.  So, I didn't.  The meat I put out last night should be thawed.  Or soon.  Two roasts.  I'll do them together.  Browned, open baked, then sealed for the last bit.  And, I have veggies.  Two packs of fresh, mostly.  Should keep me in good stead for the rest of the month, with all else.

I've been thinking about women today, on my drive.  A bit horney, but... too... just... remembering women I have known and liked, in various ways.  Such disturbing animals.  Often disagreeable, even if in some odd attempt to be agreeable?  I don't think they know.  But... for all my... difficulties with them, I... like them, mostly.  I like spending some time with them.  Getting to know one.  Playing games, of various sorts.  Sex is no small part of it, but isn't the major factor.  Just... couldn't live with a woman, without that.

I just can't get them off my mind, lately.  Their perfume, the natural one... their hair, and eyes... the feel of their skin... their weird ways of thinking.  Their brutality, and generosity.  I miss having one around.  How to find one, though, without going too far?  Too fast?  There would be plenty of time for that.  It's, just, the reason I have been celibate is because how I was doing it before wasn't leading to... marriage.  And, yes, that... is the simple goal.  Well, and all that goes with it.  Dingleberries, girls... women... are.  But... wonderful ones.  Anyway... just sharing my ghosts.

I did set dishes back up, after the shower.  But I burned out getting to the post and stores.  So, maybe, maybe not, get to those yet today.  I'll try to do chores, again, just to make sure.  It got below freezing, again, last night... this morning.  And, I want to make sure they have food.  I may have been slightly skimpy, yesterday, being unsure if I could make it to town or not.  And... I try to deal right with my critters.  I do my damnedest.

But, for now, resting, gaming.  I did get cream, so can have a fatted coffee right fast.  And, I may have another chia breakfast, but this time with cream not sour cream.  That... was okay... mostly... for a bit.  But, now, I... like it with fresh cream much better.  Anyway... it's a new day and a new week.  I am going to try to push, pull, lift, drop, and get going.  Medicine is a bit brutal, still, but more softly than sometimes.  Weather, too, is slowing things up.  But... I'll... try.  Later.

I wonder if any of them think of me?  If so, how?  Though, I... suspect...